To all of you:

Things have gotten really bad at home, so if I'm a little sharp, or uninterested in talking to you, that's why.
Please don't ask me to play, I'm not playing. Period. With anyone. Except for my love and partner, Kahsef.

Get over it.

If i leave randomly, get over it. I'll be back when I can handle it all.

Thank you for reading, now get out of here and DO something!

-Jack.

just becasue....

http://www.goldencompassmovie.com/?501085

You, who are my everything
I'm so afraid to lose.
And yet for our sake's
I'm willing to risk it all.
If the payout
is worth the gambol it takes.

w chant....


Though my soul may set in Darkness,
it will rise in perfect light.
I have loved the stars too dearly,
to be fearfull of the night.
fearfull of the night....

Random writing. even for me it's a little bit strange...it looks better on my myspace.....Like seriously, go look at it there....this just doesn't get th point across.....


Me.
Myself.
And I.
Think that perhaps,
You
Yourself
And them,
Should all go fuck yourselves over.
In a dismal place and time.

And Me
Myself
And I,
Are swiftly falling
On wings of steel
We are gliding
Slipping sliding always faster
Towards a hill
Of jellybeans.
Through a rain of spicedrops.
Singing in a snow of sprinkles.
Not really seeing the
Sweetness that surrounds us.
And holds us ransom
For a diplomatic immunity scam
From the eyes of the dead
We escape and are caught again
Always fighting to find a way out
Before the dawn reaches us
Melting us to puddles
We fear this death,
Though the truth
I'm afraid
Is that we are scared of non-existance.
Not of the death and ending,
But a fear of never living.
Yet,
How,
We ask,
Are we supposed to live?
When we are
Conscripted
Forced
Bound
To follow in the footsteps of
Them that came before us.
Making a new path
Through the ghosts of our past
Would be nigh almost impossible.
And yet,
We try it anyway.

Random writing.


Just think,
for a moment.
You could be the one.

A moment I beg you,
Is all that it takes.
to show that you live
in this world
and you Dare.

To live and to love.
To hold and to hug.
A second is all that it takes.

All the time in the world means nothing to me.
If in that second you do not move.

Shake the world to its core.
Rattle the bones of the Earth.

Make noise the gods HAVE to listen to.
Yell at the top of your lungs.

In that second,
make the most of it.

Do something that makes me sit up,
and take notice.

Dance like no ones looking.
Sing though you can't carry a tune.

Show the world they can't stop you,
no matter what they do.

Break down a wall.
Open a door.
Sit in the window and stare.

Do something.
Anything.
To prove you're alive.

Plan like you have all the time in the world.
And live like there is no tomorrow.

Never hesitate to do something.
You may never get the chance.

Do the little things.
The big things too.

Do it all,
Though there's too much to be done.

Enter a world
Reborn every day.

Just get up and go.
Do something.

But most of all,
Learn to let go.

Convince me.

Convince me that this is just a simple mistimed, not allowed attack and not a laughable ploy for yet another attack on us.

Convince me, that I can make it though this minefield of hurt.

Convince me, that we can make this work.

Convince me, that I am not just another girl you know.

Convince me, that it gets better in the end.

Convince me, that I can still trust you, any of you, as I once did.

Convince me, that this isn't just a production of an over active mind.

Convince me, that you really give a damn.

Convince me, that it's worth it.

Convince me...

     To be convinced.

Convince me....

Please, just convince me.

this ones old, but very few have seen it....

Simply me ranting. i suppose there's a point in all of these, but you have to find it on your own, i'm not going to help you. any questions, ask me.

Do you People Not Get It?
Do you not understand?
we stand as if seperate, but in truth we are all one.
i do not seek to be a threat to one,
i do not seek to leave mine own.
i simply think that this infuriates me to no end.


Spoiling for a fight
temper under tight control
aware that it is boiling
only makes it harder to take hold of.

i think you need to be hurt.
really really hurt.
torn apart from the inside out.
by someone who isn't her.
maybe then you cna try,
rebuild yourself from your sorry ashes.

Better then i've been in a long time
but not as strong as i thought.
too long have i lain dormant,
and let my walls grow weak.
i have to rebuild,
i will shut them out.
my thoughts will be my temple,
my body my throne.
none defile this sacred place,
and NONE WILL CALL IT HOME!

No more Cages.
No saying "it's nothing."

I know exactly what i want.
and nothing in the world is going to stop me.

i'm not arrogant, just a hell of a lot better then you!

Fucking bite me...
just put it on the tab...

restrain me,
so i can fight agaisnt you.
please.

push my boundries,
past what you think they are.

Ok so...i'm not sure that this writing will have a topic, but i'm sure that those who actually read it will gain something from having done so....more can be learned aobut me though my writs then almost anywhere else as many of you know, so if you are seeking to know more of me, read on dear friends, read on!


I know that i am real and yet i do not exist.
I am aware that i exist and yet i am not real.
what then of this?
what then becmes this passing fancy of Father time?
this dreamworld figmant aware that she is such for the first time in a long time....

Drumbeat heart.
Heartbeat Drum.
Marching just a half beat
        OFF.
perhaps i march without time?

Dancing on this razors edge
neither falling nor standing still.
as long as i stay dancing here, i can feel free.
but such a hard thing to balence here and dance....

Cosmic Gypsy time!
whirling far beyond the reach of any such as you
i stand immortal
glowing darkly for none to see
but all know that i am here
right before you
the darkness that sits in the innermost heart of light
the darkness that few ever see
many have tried for me
to claim me as thier own
none have held me long
even if they have managed to find me
but you
you are differant
you have seen me
looked for me
found me
gotten close to that light and passed it
caught the dark spark that is my attention
and with it you have caught me
you of all the people hold the darkness as special
you alone see it as something worthwhile
beautiful
strong in it's own right
something to hold dear to you
to love
you alone of all of then can claim the dark fire loves you back
with all her being.
-Atrum Caminus (A name i have not used in a long time....)

Invincable.
Immpossible.
A paradox of elemental simplicity.
A flawless picture of geometric imperfection.
all i am.
all i will be.
and all i was.
nothign more tehn this.
powerful.
strong.
fast.
ready.
brillance incased in human form.
light made tangable in the darkness that is

me.