Convince me.

Convince me that this is just a simple mistimed, not allowed attack and not a laughable ploy for yet another attack on us.

Convince me, that I can make it though this minefield of hurt.

Convince me, that we can make this work.

Convince me, that I am not just another girl you know.

Convince me, that it gets better in the end.

Convince me, that I can still trust you, any of you, as I once did.

Convince me, that this isn't just a production of an over active mind.

Convince me, that you really give a damn.

Convince me, that it's worth it.

Convince me...

     To be convinced.

Convince me....

Please, just convince me.

this ones old, but very few have seen it....

Simply me ranting. i suppose there's a point in all of these, but you have to find it on your own, i'm not going to help you. any questions, ask me.

Do you People Not Get It?
Do you not understand?
we stand as if seperate, but in truth we are all one.
i do not seek to be a threat to one,
i do not seek to leave mine own.
i simply think that this infuriates me to no end.


Spoiling for a fight
temper under tight control
aware that it is boiling
only makes it harder to take hold of.

i think you need to be hurt.
really really hurt.
torn apart from the inside out.
by someone who isn't her.
maybe then you cna try,
rebuild yourself from your sorry ashes.

Better then i've been in a long time
but not as strong as i thought.
too long have i lain dormant,
and let my walls grow weak.
i have to rebuild,
i will shut them out.
my thoughts will be my temple,
my body my throne.
none defile this sacred place,
and NONE WILL CALL IT HOME!

No more Cages.
No saying "it's nothing."

I know exactly what i want.
and nothing in the world is going to stop me.

i'm not arrogant, just a hell of a lot better then you!

Fucking bite me...
just put it on the tab...

restrain me,
so i can fight agaisnt you.
please.

push my boundries,
past what you think they are.

Ok so...i'm not sure that this writing will have a topic, but i'm sure that those who actually read it will gain something from having done so....more can be learned aobut me though my writs then almost anywhere else as many of you know, so if you are seeking to know more of me, read on dear friends, read on!


I know that i am real and yet i do not exist.
I am aware that i exist and yet i am not real.
what then of this?
what then becmes this passing fancy of Father time?
this dreamworld figmant aware that she is such for the first time in a long time....

Drumbeat heart.
Heartbeat Drum.
Marching just a half beat
        OFF.
perhaps i march without time?

Dancing on this razors edge
neither falling nor standing still.
as long as i stay dancing here, i can feel free.
but such a hard thing to balence here and dance....

Cosmic Gypsy time!
whirling far beyond the reach of any such as you
i stand immortal
glowing darkly for none to see
but all know that i am here
right before you
the darkness that sits in the innermost heart of light
the darkness that few ever see
many have tried for me
to claim me as thier own
none have held me long
even if they have managed to find me
but you
you are differant
you have seen me
looked for me
found me
gotten close to that light and passed it
caught the dark spark that is my attention
and with it you have caught me
you of all the people hold the darkness as special
you alone see it as something worthwhile
beautiful
strong in it's own right
something to hold dear to you
to love
you alone of all of then can claim the dark fire loves you back
with all her being.
-Atrum Caminus (A name i have not used in a long time....)

Invincable.
Immpossible.
A paradox of elemental simplicity.
A flawless picture of geometric imperfection.
all i am.
all i will be.
and all i was.
nothign more tehn this.
powerful.
strong.
fast.
ready.
brillance incased in human form.
light made tangable in the darkness that is

me.