i pour out my heart to her and i leave for a week and its like i dont even exist, my fear of him takeing her from me is justified in the end... all i had was her now i have nothing, i ask myself if i should keep on living or if i should just end it all... she loves him and i dont think she really loves me the same way, i want to cry but no tears wil come...but that doesnt matter cuz now that it seems i have nothin i guess there is nothing to cry about...i love you natalie and i always wil but you love him the way i wish you loved me.......

i am single and lonely.. and even though i have like 170 people at my house right now i am still lonely and it sucks.......oh yeah and i havent had sex in like 3 weeks