he claims we are brothers from another mother, but yet he only cares about his feelings. He claims he wants me to be happy, but he wants me to hold in my feelings and not date the one I love. He tells me he doesn't want to choose between me and family if it goes worng with his cousin. Not realizing that in the end he is making me choose to disappear into the night and give up on this fight. You would think after everything we have been through, that he would know that no matter what, nothing would change, that nothing would come between our friendship. But once again he only cares about himself. I guess in the ned it doesn't matter about my feelings or my thoughts. My voice will remain silnet for now on and I will hold my feelings inside and let the darkness in my soul take over.
People acting like they know me, when they can't even touch me. Always assuming I am just a pushes over. But in the end, their shit talking be ran over. Now here I am standing tall. This time I hold the ball.
Some of you have already been told about what I am going through here. But I need to vent so here it is. My Aunt died a week before Thanksgiving and ever since then, things in her former household has gone to hell. My own family is kicking me out and they couldn't even tell e themselfs, I found out from a friend at work. So things with me have been hard andI just hope I wont have to stay in the hotel long.... Man life sucks ass sometimes....
Hey everyone, sorry for my disappearance. I am going through hell right now. dealing with back stabbing family members who can't even tell me to my face that I have 2 weeks to get out. Or even give me a reason why they are doing it in the frist place. But I am over it, Once I am out of here, I will have nothing to do with them ever again. I promise I will get to re[;ies tonight hopefully if I can concentrate....
I am done with it all. I may not be having a place to live, and on top of it all, the one person Ithought I could talk to has left me high and dry over something stupid. Whatever, I guess I am ment to walk this life alone......
this is a result of boredom....
I sit here in my own little world, trying to tune out all the hate and violence in the world. But in the end I find myself overcome with the pain and suffering of the world. Each scream I hear. Each punch I feel. Every death I live through and yet it does not stop. No matter what I try, no matter what I say, it happens the same. But there is a light in the darkness. A light that all the hatred and all the sadness can not extinguish. That light is hope.
Well it is offical, my life is just fucked.. Found out an ex of mine as been doing meth for god knows how long and now I am not sure if I can trust anyone again... She lied and broke a promise to me, now I am unsure if I should keep on living..