i absolutely love it when i see people for what they really are man [:
i also love how people get bored of me and decide to throw me aside. i must be really fucking boring.
It doesnt really phase me anymore tbh, im not going to let it bother me all that much. i have gallows, the fact im losing weight and my real friends to keep me happy.
I'm on a diet, so im totally going to keep you updated on how much ive lost :D
Oh god, listening to im yours by jason mraz (the live version) almost in tears O.o
so soon, we will be here, together
soon, we will be here, forever
i love, i love, "taiyou"
our love, our love, "taiyou"
one sits at a freezing window
while the other lies upon the green grass in summer's heat coming so prematurely in the last months of winter
gazing upon the same moon as the star dance on high
listening to eachother's sweet voice from across the azure sea
it was here where fairytales are conceived
and the true feelings from inside will never fade
*sigh* >_<
so like, i know i was supposed to keep his name out of my mouth, but i cant stop thinking about this dream, if i dont write it somewhere i will go crazy.
So i was outside in my garden and my window backs out onto to garden. And i'm sitting and all of a sudden keesee is there and he throws himself out of my window, kinds rolls off my roof and ends up behind my garden shed. So i go to see if he is okay and his face is covered with blood but my god he looked beautiful as ever. and i say "oh my god are you okay" and all he said was "i knew i'd meet you someday". So i take him inside of my house, and he has like a suitcase and stuff here, and i have to keep him in my house without my dad having any knowledge of it. And there is a lot of time in the dream where me and keesee are lying in bed and i just remember feeling really amazing when i was dreaming it >_<. Then basically, the next morning i wake up and kate is there, and she tells me keesee has gone to france O_O. So i run off to france and search everywhere for him, and i find him and i kiss him. and then i woke up crying O_O
Im sorry for saying your name dude, but this dream has really thrown me off balance >_< Anybody good at analysing dreams?
Im sorry for saying this out loud
hmmm, today is being wierd >_<
my sinuses hurt (i know right, how strange plez?)
i feel kinda upset and im missing stuff i didnt think id ever really miss;
i miss having a guy in my life who really likes me; i miss goodmorning and goodnight texts; i miss getting phonecalls just because someone wants to hear my voice; i miss kisses that mean something; i miss just the thought of someone making me smile and feel good inside. a whole load of bull i havent had for like a year and im only missing it now. sucks.
oh my god how confusing is life? xD
I confuse myself tbh, i want one thing one minute, and the next i want something totally different bwahaha. I'm so indecisive it's scary o.O
I know what i wants now though ^_____^ and its all going pretty well as of an hour ago (:
I have really quite enjoyed the past 24 hours man (: I'm pure on top of the world at the minute.
So far i have;
Made a cracking sand woman (complete with tits and penis, which kate later sat on)
Found a horse that looks like the ginge from QUOTSA
Scared the man at chicken cottage with my diet coke drinking skills
Succeeded in buying the most beautiful and sexy shoes that ever have existed
Spent some time with nathan
Absolutely obliterated the past 'record' and made a new one that will most likely never be broken
Been in a state of shaking/passin
Realised just how great my life is at the minute
& have 3 cans of fosters at my disposal this evening.
There is my rundown of my life recently. It's so much better than yours (:
meh -_- theres no point xD
Another one added to the 'creepy' list.
Well, im having to use shitty usb internet, so dont expect me to be on much. I don't like the way the life and people of last year i tried so hard to get rid of and get over is trying to catch up with me. I don't want to be friends, i dont want to know you. I want you to get on with your own fucking life and be happy, and just leave me alone. 2008 was a huge, terrible mistake in so many ways, why the hell would i want to be reminded of it everytime you sign into msn?
So anyway, job prospects all around for annem (:
and tomorrow to look forward to, if it ever gets arranged xD
1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Annem
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first three letters of your name plus izzle)
Annizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav. color & fav. animal)
Purple panda
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name & current street)
Jessica cook
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name & first 3 letters of dad's name)
Sumansco
6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color & favorite drink)
Black Jack daniels xD
7. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name & last letter of your moms middle name)
Nmeroen
8. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mothers middle name)
Gwen
9. GOTH NAME: (3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets)
Red Pandora
(rip pandora :()
aha, this is what i do when im bored :P
Ouchy, i have yet another throat related illness "/.
It hurts a lot. And i have to go out today. facking hell.
somebody burn down sunderland so i can stay home and mope?
Why do i have so much shit in my room. Well, not actual shit, but lots of mess. It's so stressful for me O_O
& haha, sucks to be you reading this shoddy diary entry.
I love the fact the nights are lighter these days. It makes the day seem so much longer :)
Mmmmmmm, kerrang radio is better than sex.
Kind of in pain and a little bit dissapointed in myself, not really sure if i like what im doing. I mean i like it, but i dont know if i should be -_-
some hours later...
^^ fuck that shit man. im sick of not having fun and living for myself. im gonna have fun and that is that
Mixed moooood >_<
not sure whether im looking forward to tomorrow (cuddles), worried about my gran, or pissed off because i have a huge bruise on my leg.
I hate people who feel they constantly need to havea girlfriend/boy
For some reason my diary entries always include hatred for something or someone. I'm a lovely person really, even though my diary tells different.
But!May i ask, whats the point in having a diary which everyone can read? Isn't a diary meant to be private??
i hate becky so much, im going to punch her in the face with a wet shovel.
Know who i hate more than becky? Oh wait, thats impossible.
Guys come a close second though. they can jump up osmas ass crack and be strangled by hair. And yes, all of them. Including you there. yes. you. i hate you.
Hmmm, i feel marginaly better. Thankyou to msn&phone slightly. No nun or lesbianism for me...or SOMEBODY will laugh at me xD
Just took this quiz about what kind of a flirt i am and apparentally xD
You Are a Coy Flirt
You may not seem like you're flirting, but you know exactly what you're doing.
You draw people in, very calculatingly, without them even knowing.
Subtle and understated, you know how to best leverage your sex appeal.
A sexy enigma, you easily become an object of obsession.
Me, an object of obsession. I fucking wish!
Sooooo. I've come to a conclusion. Once people get to know me they stop being remotely interested in me.
& that (even though i am not attractive) people want me so they can get me into bed. And for nothing else. What ever happened to the lovely world of fancying somebody? I don't want to get fucking married or even be with anyone, but for someone to express interest in me would be delightful -_-. I'd like to point out this isnt aimed at anyone, so i dont want any messages saying "but i like you xD" because it's mankind in general. And this has happened on way too many occasions for my liking. blehh. At least kerrang radio is keeping my hapy ^^_
Lesbian or nun? Difficult choice.
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