Man, All I have to say is WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!! That was pretty awesome. Who knew a vacant house could be so fun.too bad there wasnt more furniture. Upstairs next time maybe??;P
And We didnt get eaten by zombies, and the walls didnt bleed. haha XD
;P you're too delicious for your own good.

hehehehe. so prom was fucking amazing. I had a great date. he is a really good friend of mine. and he made an honest effort to dance. haha. hes not the dancing type, but neither am i. so i just goofed off. but fun none the less. so then we went to denny's my tummy wanted pancakes. but it was totally worth risking getting shot and or stabbed. i know intense. crazy shit goes down around the dennys. hahaha and then we chilled at joshs with Erin who rode with us, and Ashley and her sister Cat. And THEN!!!!! Kyle texted me at like 2 am. wanted to hang out. hehehehehehe, and so off to star hill we went with his friend mike. it was awsome. why, A.it had a great view,
B. Kyle kissed me!!!! and C. Kyle asked me out!! and he was soooo cute about it. Im dating someone who is human and not a monster. hes great. Ive known him for awhile.I always thought he was super cute. we were in JROTC together. but yeah!! hehehehehe i got a bf!!!and not to mention ill be graduating soon!!!! yay!!

ok so the guy i met on saturday, yeah doesnt want to get into anything serious because of the distance factor....i dont even know why i even got my hopes up.. maybe it wass the kiss and him telling me how beautiful i wasn and stuff....i just thought maybe some day down the line when we get to know eachother more it could be serious or something.idk it was a dumb idea...
im just tired of being lonely... i want to cuddle with someone and i want it now i dont want to wait i deserve it now....this is fucking bullshit.im tired of everything. i cant sleep anymore and anyone who is attracted to me either wants sex and thats it or they live so far away why the fuck bother. chris lives somewhere near my dad. in southern NY.idk.. whatever... i fucking hate the world.....

So i went out with my mom last night and she introduced me to this adorable guy.his name is chris. hehe. and hes a navy guy, 24 yr old. he was so funy he was a dancing fool but it was cute. i dont dance much but we did slow dance sorta. im just shy i guess. and my mom with book em Dano.i just dont understand why she just wont get a divorcce.she unhappy and she goes around behind daves back and blah blah blah. if she got divorced she could do whatever she wanted.ugh. i hate seeing her unhappy, but the night was nice.Chris was kinda drunk and stuff but he was entertaining.ever time he wanted to kiss me he asked. hahaha. i was like you dont have to ask everytime its ok. haha hes too cute.the other chris was cool too. nothing happened with that tho.hes 28 thats a bit much. idk i wish i could date someone my own age but oh well theyre 18 but like 11 mentally.lmao.well sometimes.i hope i see him next month they come up once a month for drill stuff on the base here. theyre reserve. hehehehe we only kissed and im so giggly lmao. im so pathetic. its been a long time since i had any attetion.haha. woo.

blah.... I hate being home alone.my brother and sister and some punk ass bastard scared the shit out of me once and now i cant stand to be home by myself.i hate it. but atleast i have a BB gun! hahaha and knives.oi...
im bored. piper is asleep. and i had to take a placement test tonite. i did horrible on the math as expected. ill always suck at math...
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah... im so bored and i dont want to keep writing about how upset i am and how much i still miss and love pete, and how much i wish this was a night mare and i could wake up in his arms with piper in mine......i hate this...i want everything back i want to be happy again...he says hes innocent, but if you were on suicide watch and scared shitless what does that say to someone. if he was innocent he wouldnt have been on suicide watch and he wouldnt have been scared. the detective said they had a good case against him. if he hadnt lied to me so much and acted likea total dick wad the whole time we were dating maybe i would have believed him but he cheated on me so much... i did everything for him. i loved him and i get heartache and pain as my payment for giving him everything and the most beautiful thing ive ever seen in this world, Piper.atleast i have her she makes me happy to a degree but she cant fill that hole that pete occupied....now its gapping and just bleeding every where.im too nervous to get out there again A. because i still love pete and i still want him, and not anyone else. & B. i dont want to get hurt again. if i get rejected ill just get more depressed and not alot of guys go for chicks with kids so why bother....i hate this fucking pain!! i wish i could just sleep for a long time...or maybe someone to beat me a bit. i can handle physical pain better than emotional pain... bumps and bruises go away quicker...