So sometimes i feel alone, like no one can reach me or help me. My dad went to jail because i called the cops on him. He was molesting my little sisters and several other girls around the community. He was in jail until money for his bail was raised then he had a hearing. The judge let him go free until the trial started. And now..... he is missing, he ran and he will never be punished for what he did. The thing that scares me he most is he fact f not knowing where he is. I am one of the main witnesses and my testimony at his trail is imparitive. What if he comes after me? What if he is scared of going down alone and wants to take some one with him? I have no where else to go, and no one understands my fear. Everyone keeps telling that things are going to be okay and that he wont come for me, but is my fear so irrational? No one understands why i dont sleep, they cant understand why i cant eat. My mom says shes worried because i dont eat enough and im losing too much wieght, but the sight and smell of food makes me sick.... I have too much going on in my head to sleep, and when i do i usually wake up in a sweat from the nightmares where he haunts me and never lets me find peace. Im a wreck and sometimes i dont understand myself because im not the same person i once was...... im lost......