*walks in and sits down quietly* you know I'm begginng to wonder if in two weeks I'm going to be a bawling nervous wreck the love of my life is going to be in another state for four months completely inacessible
Eyes: deep brown
Aura: worried blue
*slams something into the wall and screams* I CAN"T TAKE IT! WHY IS IT WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE PEOPLE LIKE TO SWEEP THAT SECURITY OUT FROM UNDER MY FEET AND MAKE ME FEEL WRONG!
What I learned this week in School
1. Twisted ankles hurt
2. Sometimes the wisest course of action is to ignore people
3. Getting annoyed at Assuming things is not always bad
4. Sometimes I just want to find a rock and crawl under it
5. Nixon bingo is a good way to earn M&M's
6. I am actually good at something in Chem
7. I really need to stop writing poetry...not because I suck but because there's too much of it
8. M.A on a Tuesday can provide for interesting
9. Kick-Ass RAWKS!!
10. Wednesday's with a twisted ankle is not that much more painful
11. Thursdays are some of the most unmemorable days of my life
12. No body can predict the weather
13. Rain makes me grouchy
14. Applying to a community college is still harder than it sounds
15. First thing in the morning it is never recommended to sit next to someone that smells like something tasty when you're a hungry so-and-so
16. Being nervous on stage really isn't that bad
17. My teacher is a twit.
This is one of those rare occasions I have to share a movie with people. GO SEE KICK-ASS. I loved it. For the record my favorite lines include "Daddy it hurt twice as much when he shot me than when you did/ That's because I used low velocity rounds sugar/ You're the best Daddy ever!" "Let's see what you've got cunts" "That's a gay looking taser put it away" there is something about Hitgirl that appeals to my psychotic nature that doesn't seem to appeal to yours.
*twitches ears and decides she doesn't care* I got kicked out and now I'm pretty much on my own but I don't really care because it's too much like effort and I've learned that effort is not worth it
I got kicked out....wtf? Oh well don't care I guess.
Here goes nothing, some of you may understand my question some may not but what do you do when you have this gut feeling that you're just a phase for the person you love and worse you're never going to see them again after you graduate? Is is wrong to stay with them despite these feelings?
Eyes: black
Aura: black
Eyes: deep brown
Aura: Purple
For some reason that I can't remember why I feel the sadness welling up within me...I don't know why and it's driving me a little crazy
*long drawn out scream of frustration anger and possibly sadness* I CAN NOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME UNDERSTAND WHY HE DOES IT! HE TELLS ME OH I'M FINE BEING FRIENDS I CAN TAKE US NOT BEING TOGETHER THEN HE DOES THIS WHAT THE FUCK? WHY IS IT NEARLY ALL GUYS I FALL FOR ARE TOTAL AND COMPLETE PRICKS WHO ONLY HAVE ONE THING ON THEIR MIND DO I HAVE A FUCKING SIGN ON MY BACK THAT I DON'T KNOW ABOUT!? ONE MINUTE HE'S ALL I WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND THE NEXT HE'S ALL FUCK ME BITCH! I GIVE UP! I COMPLETELY TOTALLY AND UTTERLY GIVE UP I DON'T SEE THE FUCKING POINT!
Okay just to explain the user change is necessary for those of you who don't know my heart is no longer broken therefore I feel it necessary while I am still an angel and dark one at that for user change
I am greatly saddened by the inactivity on the wiki Slave Auction So much so in fact I am sending a plea out to all my friends. PLEASE COME JOIN ME PLEASE!
eyes: deep brown
aura: dark purple
Deep down I still love him and I don't know why. Even after everything he's done to me and all the lies he told me. Even though he doesn't know how I feel and will never care that I have feelings for him, even though late at night when I can't sleep I hear his voice and smell him on my skin. I think it's what hurts me even when I'm so mad at him I could kill him I remember I loved him once, and I'm lying when I say I hate him. He was someone I could count on, someone who could always make me laugh and someone who always seemed to know when to let it go. Someone I could tell how I felt and know that he'd listen. All I ever wanted was for him to return my feelings and despite everything he never did. I can't even look him in the eyes anymore without feeling like I'm going to cry. It's only late at night that I can even truly admit how I feel and he'll never know and if he ever does know he won't care
So today I was told that whatever my sister is hiding from me would quote "cause me to leave both physically and mentally" somehow this statement amuses me. Am I the only one who sees the irony?
I didn't deserve to be hurt
I didn't deserve to be treated this way
I didn't deserve to have my heart torn in two
I don't deserve to be in this kind of pain
I don't deserve to have you constantly hurting me
I don't think I can take it anymore
I don't want to heart your lies
I don't feel anything but pain
I didn't deserve to be lied to
I didn't deserve to have this happen
I didn't deserve this
The god only know why it is I have to fall for every guy like this. I love him still but my heart is shattered into too many pieces to even possibly have any meaning anymore. I hurt so bad it isn't even funny and yet there is no way I can go back I closed that door and it makes me feel terrible about it but there is nothing left of my heart or soul to be torn in more pieces than ever
So I hate Valentines day now. cross off another holiday from the list of holidays I don't hate. It all stems from why the black teddy bear I got for Valentines Day last year is named Doubt. Some of you kow that reason some don't I don't feel it necessary to explain to those who do not
Holy fuck does anyone leave their user the same for more than a week?
Eyes PITCH BLACK
Okay so I'm trying to decide whether to be sympathetic to my "brother" or simply say I told you so. That and I'm being dragged to the Valentines dance at my school which I really don't want to go to but whatever
Eyes: nearly black
Okay so I neglected to mention something rather important about this next week. For those of you who have noticed my mood, I am getting to see Bowling For Soup live in Denver this Thursday. I am totally psyched
Eyes: pure Gold