*face in hands* I've done something very very very wrong. I don't know that the scars on my heart are ever gonna heal I don't know that I'll ever be the same. I don't know that I want to. I should've never broken up with Midnight but now it's too late just like always. It's just too late
Don't See
Don't see the tears in my eyes
Don't see how I feel
Don't see my pain
I have never wanted to say
I love you
So bad and known no matter what I can't
I don't want you to know
Know that my heart is slowly breaking
I don't want to let you back in
To my heart so you can see
The sharp edged broken bits on the inside
Don't see the scars
Don't see how much it hurts
Don't see how much I love you
I don't want to feel anymore
Fell like my heart is gonna shatter
I don't want to see
See the way you're looking at her
I don't want to know
Know I'm not the only one
I wish you'd lie to me
Say I'm the only one for you
Even though I don't stand a chance
Not against her
Don't see me cry
Don't see me beg for release
Don't see me die a little on the inside
I don't want you to know
Know how bitter I am
I don't want to be angry
Angry I can't say no
Not to you
One look and I'll do anything you ask
I know it's ridiculous
But I don't want you to see
See how much I love you
Marpsy
Just Another Girl
I'm just another girl
Just another in a line up
Just another pretty face
I know I have no chance
I know you don't ever really want to be with me
Yet somehow
I keep wishing
I keep hoping
Knowing my day is never going to come
My heart is broken in pieces
Every time I start to hope
It ends in pain
Sometimes I think maybe I should try
To forget about you
I've been singing for so many years
Hoping praying wondering when it was my turn
Knowing it'd never be my turn
I'm just another girl
I've never been anything more
Just another good time
Just another forgotten face
I know my heart is split in two
I know I can't have it my way
Yet the hope comes back no matter how hard I try
To rid myself of it
Sometimes I wonder
Why I bother
I'm just another girl
Marpsy
I have come to a conclusion. I don't give a damn if you cheat on me, I don't care what you do just don't lie to me. I don't care if you want to fuck some bitch because I'm not putting out, tell me and I'll find someone I know and trust that's willing or we'll work something out.
Is this a bad attitude?
I think I want to die. I think the pain is going to kill me. I think that love sucks. I think that if I could ever remember why I said yes in the first place I could forget her but there were so many reasons to love her near the end I forgot which one was the original reason and now I'm stuck feeling like it's all my fault and I'm a horrible person for doing this to her. Yet somehow it isn't my fault but it hurts so much I just want to crawl in a hole and die.
A rose blooms in the darkness no one notices. The same rose dies no one cares. A rose blooms in the twilight a few people notices. The same rose dies a few people care. A rose blooms in the light everyone notices. The same rose dies everyone cares. Which rose are you? Are you the rose that blooms in the darkness that no one cares about and no one ever notices, the rose that few people cares about, or the rose born in the light that everyone loves. I am the rose born and bred in the darkness
Today a great a noble soul has passed. Therapy Kitty. Gandalf. Onyx we all had a different name for him but the long and the short of it is this morning one of our cats passed unexpectedly.
Missin' You
I know better
YOu've hurt me something fierce
Yet late at night when everyone else has passed into the realm of dream
I stay out of it
Because I'm missin' you
I know you don't deserve to be missed
I know I should have walked away
That I'm lying when I say I hate you
I know that you don't miss me
But since you left I've been missin' you
Laughing and smiling in the afternoon sun
Your stupid fake accent
Oh I know what you're thinking
That I miss somethin' else
Maybe somethin' you couldn't provide all the way out there
The truth is I miss talking to you
Truth is when I slip off into dreams
You're holdin' me close
Whispering in my ear
I keep missin' you when I wake up
I wanna cry cuz I know
I know you've found somethin' new to catch your eye
I know you don't care I'm missin' you
Doesn't matter to me
I know who you are
And unconditionall
Still you keep sayin'
No way you can miss me
I was a dick
Yeah you were I won't deny it
I broke your heart
Yeah you did but I forgive you
No way you miss me
Too bad I do you dick
I love you
And I keep missin' you
Marpsy
Okay let's make this clear Midnight [Dangerous Furry] are done. To top things off my mother a lying coniving bitch engineered things to make it look like I stole her medication just as I was moving
Eyes: deep brown
Aura: Dark blue
Midnight the love of my life doesn't know if this is going to work. I want it so bad. The first time I want something with all my being she doesn't know if it'll work out
So I've liked this guy for a very long time and he confused me tonight, I may be dating him but I don't know things are still up in the air but he said he'd think about it
no no no it can't be no it just can't it can't no no no no please no please it can't be don't let it be
-- for the record I'm not pregnant--
OMFG I'm graduating from Hell. It's been four years of the purest Hell a high school student can endure and yet I've meade it how lucky am I>
*walks in and sits down quietly* you know I'm begginng to wonder if in two weeks I'm going to be a bawling nervous wreck the love of my life is going to be in another state for four months completely inacessible
Eyes: deep brown
Aura: worried blue
*slams something into the wall and screams* I CAN"T TAKE IT! WHY IS IT WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING THE RIGHT CHOICE PEOPLE LIKE TO SWEEP THAT SECURITY OUT FROM UNDER MY FEET AND MAKE ME FEEL WRONG!
What I learned this week in School
1. Twisted ankles hurt
2. Sometimes the wisest course of action is to ignore people
3. Getting annoyed at Assuming things is not always bad
4. Sometimes I just want to find a rock and crawl under it
5. Nixon bingo is a good way to earn M&M's
6. I am actually good at something in Chem
7. I really need to stop writing poetry...not because I suck but because there's too much of it
8. M.A on a Tuesday can provide for interesting
9. Kick-Ass RAWKS!!
10. Wednesday's with a twisted ankle is not that much more painful
11. Thursdays are some of the most unmemorable days of my life
12. No body can predict the weather
13. Rain makes me grouchy
14. Applying to a community college is still harder than it sounds
15. First thing in the morning it is never recommended to sit next to someone that smells like something tasty when you're a hungry so-and-so
16. Being nervous on stage really isn't that bad
17. My teacher is a twit.
This is one of those rare occasions I have to share a movie with people. GO SEE KICK-ASS. I loved it. For the record my favorite lines include "Daddy it hurt twice as much when he shot me than when you did/ That's because I used low velocity rounds sugar/ You're the best Daddy ever!" "Let's see what you've got cunts" "That's a gay looking taser put it away" there is something about Hitgirl that appeals to my psychotic nature that doesn't seem to appeal to yours.
*twitches ears and decides she doesn't care* I got kicked out and now I'm pretty much on my own but I don't really care because it's too much like effort and I've learned that effort is not worth it
I got kicked out....wtf? Oh well don't care I guess.
Here goes nothing, some of you may understand my question some may not but what do you do when you have this gut feeling that you're just a phase for the person you love and worse you're never going to see them again after you graduate? Is is wrong to stay with them despite these feelings?
Eyes: black
Aura: black