She looks so sad...yet ready to fight to the death...I guess I relate to her

Name: Sharon
Birthday: July 4
Location: Colorado
Hair color: Black (dyed)
Eye color: Brown
Height: 5'6
Religion: Wiccan
Are you still a virgin: no
Tattoos or piercings: ears
Favorite Animal: White tiger
Smoke: yes
Drink: technically no (19....)
Make the first moves: ...rarely
Opinion on Cuddling: A must
Favorite Band/music: Green Day/Rock
Favorite Food/Beverages: Cheese/ Venom, Vodka, Code Red
Fav. Colors: Black, Red and Orange
Fav. Sounds: mmmm music
Fav. smells: Vanilla (Kilo) and Dark Temptations
Fav. Movies: Labyrinth, Kick Ass, Scott Pilgrim vs The World
Fav. TV Shows: Futurama
FAv. Places to hang out/or just be: doesn't matter really as long as I'm around those I care about
Special Talents: mmm artist?
Describe your perfect date: Umm....been on one not sure how I feel about them
One special/unique thing about you: I'm very flexible and a cuddlebug
4 words to describe you: cuddlebug, dark, writer, artist
Highest education: first semester of college
What do you see in your future: thriving tattoo artist
Favorite physical feature/quality: my ass
What’s the longest relationship you’ve had: 9 months.
What’s your ultimate weakness: I seem too cold
Who has been the most influential person in your life and why: My little brother and for reasons
Are you a vegetarian: no
what turns you on the most: biters
What kind of a man do you respect: one that doesn't cheat
Have you ever regretted a hookup: yup
How many sexual partners have you had: 3
What’s the most valuable thing you could receive from another human being: their friendship
What’s one thing most people like about you: once I'm their friend I'd die for them
If you could have one thing in this whole universe- what would it be: peace in my heart
What’s one part about your body that you would like to change: could my breasts be like 2 cup sizes smaller?
What's one bad habit would you like to change: Um incessant moving
If you could commit one crime and get away with it completely- what would that crime be: murdering people who hurt those I love
Who is your favorite comedian: don't have one

So I have a roommate now her name is Donna. She's 17 and my cousin. Anyhow this came about because certain members of my family need beat up side the head with a metal folding chair!

Alright not to sound like the Grinch or anything but I'm not too fond of these so called holidays. I feel the loneliness most people feel on Valentines day but I feel worse on Christmas. Guess the whole Broken Home thing has something to do with it

Let's play a game. If you can give me the next line of the song I put in my status you will get a sexy point!

So my computer is officially restored to factory settings...meaning I lost all my pictures all my stories. Everything. Boy am I pissed off kitty

Two things first a shout out to an old friend on here : STAY SAFE ON BLACK FRIDAY YOU DIE I WILL RESURRECT YOUR ASS KILL YOU AND RESURRECT YOU AGAIN!

Second

Four years later

Nothing has changed
I'm still terrified of you
I still have nightmares
Because of what you did
You've grown taller
I've grown meaner
You've grown stronger
I've grown faster
You've grown heavier
I've been training
Try it now
Nothing's changed
Or everything's changed
You've seen me fight
You've seen me blackout
I don't know what I can do
But you will die before I allow it to happen again
Four years I've feared you
It ends today

Marpsy

I'm sorry I can't be what I used to be. I'm sorry that I've bled too much. I'm sorry that it hurts. I'm sorry that you look into my eyes and see only sorrow. I'm sorry I'm not the person I once was. I'm sorry you can't see the darkness in my heart. I'm sorry that it's over. Most of all I'm sorry that I don't love you anymore.
-To the dark wolf

If only you knew how much I loved you. If only you knew that I still do. If only you knew that the only thing that keeps us apart is distance. If only you knew...but it's time to move on. You will never feel the same and this tiger needs to heal her own wounds.
-To the idiot wolf

Sometimes I wonder why I try still being friends with any of these nitwits that I graduated with. I mean honestly! One left the state cheated on me came back and the other left state rarely has time for anyone anymore. The others flat ignore me. Then there's the two or three that didn't graduate I give up on them too!

Ever read something that reminded you so strongly of something in your past you almost have flashback of that event?

Today was bad. I think I'm gonna cry now. I just don't have much energy

I used to love you
I used to want to hold you tight
And never ever let go
That was once upon a time
You took the one thing I had left
You stole my heart
You stomped on it
And tore it to shreds
I cannot love you anymore
There's no feeling left except this bone deep chill
That makes my soul ache
That make my soul cry
From the abyss
Begging and pleading for release
Would you ask for my body too?
Would you ask for my very being?
Would you ask for my life?
You would ask for these things
And like a fool
Once I would have given them to you
But no more
I cannot give these things to you
Because I do not love you any longer
Take your sorry self away

Marpsy

You ever hear a song and can mentally see a fight scene in your head? Even one totally choreographed between you and a friend?

I have decided I am unhappy with myself and dislike how many friends that are only around for sex. Thus...I'm taking a vow of celibacy.

Blood cries out to blood
Beyond the grave he calls me
To join him in the night's embrace
I cannot bear the pain of life
But I swore to live for us both
I swore to live to the end

Blood cries out to blood
Beyond the veil he screams to me
To save him from the sins
Of our parents that he must suffer
I cannot aid him and it kills me
But I swore to remain strong
I swore to atone in this life

Blood cries out to blood
Beyond this door he whispers to me
Begging me to keep my promises
Even when I waver I know
I cannot let him down
I swore to be strong
And live for us both

Blood cries out to blood
On this side of the grave I call to him
Telling him one day we'll be together again
He cannot know how much I have to fight
Fight to keep strong
Fight to stay alive and keep moving forward

Blood cries out to blood
We're two halves of the whole
Two who were never meant to be long in this world
One wounded of soul
One wounded of heart
If only we had been one
We would have been far better off

Blood cries out to blood

Marpsy

Darkness swirls in my heart
Part of me is so angry
So hurt
You couldn't bother with me could you?
The one girl who was interested in you
No it had to be her
Then I take a breath
It doesn't matter
You passed me up
And now I'm better
I'm beyond those petty hurt feelings
Part of me wants to laugh
The girl you court
Doesn't want you
Just like you didn't want me
Now you're finally seeing you have no chance
And turning towards me
But I'm already gone
You wanna know why?
Cuz I realized you didn't want me
So I went elsewhere
Too bad so sad
Maybe next time you'll see

Marpsy

For some reason lately I've been in a rare mood....I've been singing not because I'm depressed or pissed but because my heart is light...I started singing Broken in the middle of Drawing this morning >///////////////< doh! Oh well it was the last five minutes and only one person heard me but I swear I need a muzzle!

I want to kinda update those people who care...I'm not yet officially dating but there's a guy on Fake (he knows who he is) who I went on a date with last night and I really really like him...I hope things work out

Also lately I've been having some issues physically and emotionally which hopefully will get cleared up soon...For those who don't know my biological mother punched me in the stomach about 3 weeks ago and since then I've been having breathing problems among other things

There is far too much drama on Fake. I'm leaving for a bit. To those I am currently rping with I do apologize if you have my IM please contact me I will explain further. To those who don't sorry I'll explain when I come back

Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?

Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?

Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?

Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?

Boy: No way

Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?

Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

How I wish to god love was like that. But it isn't. Not usually. Usually it's the guy taking everything from the girl making her wish she was dead and has bled it out.

You know you've had a rough day when at the end of the day you want to cry hysterically til it either stops hurting or you pass out. When you have spent most of your day with the boy who raped you now turned into a six foot giant you're coated in sweat from fear and then add to that two very abusive exs and you've had it. Add one more stressing person and you're in tears