[Death's Hellhound]'s diary
New Years Eve prophecies
This year I will make it to Texas and kick my little brother's ass...right after I hug him til he pops
This year I will lose weight and exercise more
This year I will pass every class with a C or better.
Happy New Years
Oh and a side note to people they know who the are
*kisses on the cheek* stay safe
I got a new collar and ring today. Pic of the collar is up the ring is a black base with a silver spinner etched with a tribal design*
Okay folks listen up. I realize some of you don't give a fuck. I got that but here's the skinny for the next month I'm gonna darker and in worse mood day by day that's normal don't worry about it. Don't ask questions I'm not gonna answer them. I'm okay really I am. I'm just experiencing a rather normal phenomena it happens every year and it's not gonna change. Some of you may know why some of you may not. Either way I'm gonna be okay just let me be okay?
Every year it's the same
My chest starts to ache
The same old pain
Deep down in my heart
I don't know why
I feel so alone
Even surrounded
It's like my heart
Is covered in a wall of ice
It's truly not like it matters
I'm used to the pain
Used to feel alone
The sorrow never fades
All I want is someone
To come find me in this place
Thaw the ice
Make my smile real again
Don't tell me
To save myself
I can't do it
I just want not to be alone anymore
I want this day
To be feel real again
But it never does
So leave me in my darkness
Leave me to my pain
I'll feel better some day
Marpsy
Watch me break
Watch me fall
Watch me stand up again
You always told me you'd be there
But I stand upon the threshold
Frightened and alone
Where are you now?
Where are you now that you're needed
Where are you now that it's about you
I told you I didn't need you
I spoke the truth
I just didn't want to fall
Now I've got no choice left
So here I stand
Waiting for the end
Knowing it's mere seconds away
I jump into hell and end it all
Or I could give you
One last chance
Are you ready?
Here it comes
Either save me
Or watch fall into darkness
But don't you dare have any regrets
If you watch me fall
It was because you couldn't catch me
If you save me
Remember you're the one who chose this
Don't ever forget it
Marpsy
Pain never fades
Memories never stop hurting
All you can do is move forward
Move forward
Mindless fury engulfs your soul
You don't know who to hit
You don't know where to turn
Yet somehow you need to move forward
Move forward
Hatred boils up
Solace is lost to you
All you can do is move forward
Move forward
Marpsy
She looks so sad...yet ready to fight to the death...I guess I relate to her
Name: Sharon
Birthday: July 4
Location: Colorado
Hair color: Black (dyed)
Eye color: Brown
Height: 5'6
Religion: Wiccan
Are you still a virgin: no
Tattoos or piercings: ears
Favorite Animal: White tiger
Smoke: yes
Drink: technically no (19....)
Make the first moves: ...rarely
Opinion on Cuddling: A must
Favorite Band/music: Green Day/Rock
Favorite Food/Beverages
Fav. Colors: Black, Red and Orange
Fav. Sounds: mmmm music
Fav. smells: Vanilla (Kilo) and Dark Temptations
Fav. Movies: Labyrinth, Kick Ass, Scott Pilgrim vs The World
Fav. TV Shows: Futurama
FAv. Places to hang out/or just be: doesn't matter really as long as I'm around those I care about
Special Talents: mmm artist?
Describe your perfect date: Umm....been on one not sure how I feel about them
One special/unique thing about you: I'm very flexible and a cuddlebug
4 words to describe you: cuddlebug, dark, writer, artist
Highest education: first semester of college
What do you see in your future: thriving tattoo artist
Favorite physical feature/qualit
What’s the longest relationship you’ve had: 9 months.
What’s your ultimate weakness: I seem too cold
Who has been the most influential person in your life and why: My little brother and for reasons
Are you a vegetarian: no
what turns you on the most: biters
What kind of a man do you respect: one that doesn't cheat
Have you ever regretted a hookup: yup
How many sexual partners have you had: 3
What’s the most valuable thing you could receive from another human being: their friendship
What’s one thing most people like about you: once I'm their friend I'd die for them
If you could have one thing in this whole universe- what would it be: peace in my heart
What’s one part about your body that you would like to change: could my breasts be like 2 cup sizes smaller?
What's one bad habit would you like to change: Um incessant moving
If you could commit one crime and get away with it completely- what would that crime be: murdering people who hurt those I love
Who is your favorite comedian: don't have one
So I have a roommate now her name is Donna. She's 17 and my cousin. Anyhow this came about because certain members of my family need beat up side the head with a metal folding chair!
Alright not to sound like the Grinch or anything but I'm not too fond of these so called holidays. I feel the loneliness most people feel on Valentines day but I feel worse on Christmas. Guess the whole Broken Home thing has something to do with it
Let's play a game. If you can give me the next line of the song I put in my status you will get a sexy point!
So my computer is officially restored to factory settings...mea
Two things first a shout out to an old friend on here : STAY SAFE ON BLACK FRIDAY YOU DIE I WILL RESURRECT YOUR ASS KILL YOU AND RESURRECT YOU AGAIN!
Second
Four years later
Nothing has changed
I'm still terrified of you
I still have nightmares
Because of what you did
You've grown taller
I've grown meaner
You've grown stronger
I've grown faster
You've grown heavier
I've been training
Try it now
Nothing's changed
Or everything's changed
You've seen me fight
You've seen me blackout
I don't know what I can do
But you will die before I allow it to happen again
Four years I've feared you
It ends today
Marpsy
I'm sorry I can't be what I used to be. I'm sorry that I've bled too much. I'm sorry that it hurts. I'm sorry that you look into my eyes and see only sorrow. I'm sorry I'm not the person I once was. I'm sorry you can't see the darkness in my heart. I'm sorry that it's over. Most of all I'm sorry that I don't love you anymore.
-To the dark wolf
If only you knew how much I loved you. If only you knew that I still do. If only you knew that the only thing that keeps us apart is distance. If only you knew...but it's time to move on. You will never feel the same and this tiger needs to heal her own wounds.
-To the idiot wolf
Written about Thursday 2010-11-18
Written: (5267 days ago)
Sometimes I wonder why I try still being friends with any of these nitwits that I graduated with. I mean honestly! One left the state cheated on me came back and the other left state rarely has time for anyone anymore. The others flat ignore me. Then there's the two or three that didn't graduate I give up on them too!
Ever read something that reminded you so strongly of something in your past you almost have flashback of that event?
Today was bad. I think I'm gonna cry now. I just don't have much energy
I used to love you
I used to want to hold you tight
And never ever let go
That was once upon a time
You took the one thing I had left
You stole my heart
You stomped on it
And tore it to shreds
I cannot love you anymore
There's no feeling left except this bone deep chill
That makes my soul ache
That make my soul cry
From the abyss
Begging and pleading for release
Would you ask for my body too?
Would you ask for my very being?
Would you ask for my life?
You would ask for these things
And like a fool
Once I would have given them to you
But no more
I cannot give these things to you
Because I do not love you any longer
Take your sorry self away
Marpsy
You ever hear a song and can mentally see a fight scene in your head? Even one totally choreographed between you and a friend?
I have decided I am unhappy with myself and dislike how many friends that are only around for sex. Thus...I'm taking a vow of celibacy.
Blood cries out to blood
Beyond the grave he calls me
To join him in the night's embrace
I cannot bear the pain of life
But I swore to live for us both
I swore to live to the end
Blood cries out to blood
Beyond the veil he screams to me
To save him from the sins
Of our parents that he must suffer
I cannot aid him and it kills me
But I swore to remain strong
I swore to atone in this life
Blood cries out to blood
Beyond this door he whispers to me
Begging me to keep my promises
Even when I waver I know
I cannot let him down
I swore to be strong
And live for us both
Blood cries out to blood
On this side of the grave I call to him
Telling him one day we'll be together again
He cannot know how much I have to fight
Fight to keep strong
Fight to stay alive and keep moving forward
Blood cries out to blood
We're two halves of the whole
Two who were never meant to be long in this world
One wounded of soul
One wounded of heart
If only we had been one
We would have been far better off
Blood cries out to blood
Marpsy