Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me

It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night


Papa Roach Time and Time Again

And yet again I say it, when your friends are honest enough to look at you and go he's an asshole the answer is not to slap them but pause and understand that maybe just maybe they care enough about you to tell you how they feel. When they tell you the person they're worried about is fine maybe just maybe they know what they are talking about. I wish just once my friends would trust me when I tell them things but apparently listening to the person's gut instinct that doesn't lie to them is uncool *sighs and facedog*

Why is it when you need them most your friends are always too far away to help you...stop you...from being stupid...

I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.

No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.

Pop Evil, Another Romeo and Juliet
You know why I posted this

Okay I need some help.

My boyfriend and I are in an open relationship...which is good but it bugs me that he doesn't seem to ever get even a little possessive even when guys touch me, guys who I don't want to touch me... Someone please help me figure out how to tell him how I feel

*throws slight fit* UNWANTED SEXUAL CONTACT! BEING PULLED FROM MY SHOWER BY MY FRIEND!!! AKWARD TURTLE

Take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide

it's not too late i'm close behind
i've gotta get inside your mind, mind
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide
wide, wide, wide...

Escape The Fate, 10 Miles Wide

Yo folks I'm back and I've got a major major major SQUEE!

I"M GOING TO UPROAR BITCHES!!!!

Starting tomorrow I will be offline for a bit. Friends that already have my number feel free to text me. Those who do not yet message me today and I will give it to you. Please and thank you

Growing up is hard. When you're in school fights rarely last more than a week and then all is forgiven in favor of beating the shit out of someone who hurt the other and then it's right back to fighting again. Now after high school we don't acknowledge eat other for a week maybe longer and even then we're still not really friends anymore. Kind of a depressing thing to think about huh? Well suffice it to say I've discovered the dark truth about growing up.
I've grown up these last five years and now recently my very close friend who used to be in complete control of me is pissed off because of me growing very rapidly in this last month or so. It's all kinds of suck but what am I supposed to do about it? I am not the type of person to sulk in a corner anymore...so I guess it's move on and hope we were really as good of friends as I thought we were.

So I lost my oldest friend and mommy today. We had a stupid arguement today and she told me she didn't want to talk to me again and that if I showed up at her house she would shoot me so I'm pretty much at rock bottom right now.

He's gone. Un-freaking- believeable...no good bye no I love you no hug no nothing....just gone...I've been fighting my emo all day and Corey has cheered my up immensely but I still just want to curl in a ball and cry. I miss him. He's my daddy...but...apparently I'm not his daughter no more...

I'll never believe in you again
I'll never forgive those things you said
My only relief is gone and dead
I'll never forsake myself again

So hold me down
If I feed I'm stronger
I don't feel no longer

New Seether album Forsaken

I can feel my own angry voice screaming at my grandmother

I feel like I'm losing my friends like I've come to a point in my life no matter which direction I steop someone is going to hate me regardless...I guess it stems from the two people I was closest to in high school becoming more and more distant...whatever I guess my plans to enlist are good ones

For those who don't know I consider Friday the 13th the best luck of all. I've never had anylething bad happen to me on Friday the 13th but I've had tons of good things happen to me. So ya. Today is going to be a really good day. Meanwhile I'm going to my grandma's to do chores and then come back to my house to get ready for couples night hopefully more than one couple shows up

You come to me with scars on your wrists
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
[I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine]
But I know it's a lie


The Last Night- Skillet

You've got nothing to say.
You've got nothing.
I knew as soon as I'd left, that you'd go and fuck someone else, you whore.
We all know, we all know by now
that you're the only thing you talk about.
We all know, we all know by now
that things won't work out, no.
I never really had a doubt
that things would end up to be this way.
And I never meant to make them seem that way.

All You Talk About -D. R. U. G. S......Makes me think a lot of some people in my past

Take me, hate me
But you can’t make me come clean
So stop telling me I’m not the man you should believe
If dying is your way out
Then count me in I’m coming
Maybe a different spin
Oh-oh oh-oh, oh-oh oh-oh
And I’m so used to being a coward
It’s all I’ve ever been
I quit before I win
I’d like to keep cutting
I’d like to keep cutting
Butt I can’t stand to watch myself bleed

Mr Owl Ate My Metal Worm - DRUGS
For those of you who know me well know why this song describes my life perfectly

To explain my mood a "fuck you" mood is a good mood. It means I'm relieved and I've got so much extra energy I want to fight or dance or run laps or something. It's a very good mood considering the week I've had. So yah meanwhile I've discovered that Sixx AM is the band I'm obsessed with this week and that I actually know a famous german speaking man off the top of my head>.> Dero Goi lead singer to Oomph! Woot for random musical knowledge

Cause they don't even know you all they see is scars
They don't see the angel living in your heart
Let them find the real you buried deep within
Let them know with all you've got that you are not your skin

Skin Sixx Am
Brand new song literally just released and MMMMMMMMMM god

Girlfriend Application (Boredom)

BASICS:
Name:
Age:
Location:
Height:
Hair:
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:

OTHER:
1. Where would we go on dates?
2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists?
3. Do you drink/smoke??
4. Do you like the beach?
5. If so...would you go with me late at night?
6. Do you like movies?
7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
8. If you were to take me out to a movie would we watch the movie?
9. If not what would we be doing?
10. Do you play an instrument?
11. If so...what?
12. Would you call me right after we saw each other to make sure I made it home alright?
13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10?
14. Favorite body part on a gurrl/guy?
15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself?
16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, player, slut)?
17. Would you give me kisses just because?


What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I touched your ass:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:

What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:



Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Buy me a birthday gift:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Go out at 4am to get me chocolate:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Keep in touch:
Make me a snack:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Makeout with me:
Hold me in times of need:
Ditch me:
Use me:
ask me out:
Date me:

W0ULD Y0U...CHECK ALL THAT APPLY!
[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[]watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere
[] take a shower with me?
[] be my lover?
[] hug me?
[] buy me food?
[] take me home to meet your parents?
[] would you let me sleep in your bed if i didn't have one? lol?
[] sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?=)
[] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere


D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] want to kiss me?

[] want to hook up with me?


ARE WE...
[] aquintences?
[] friends?
[] in a relationship?
[] gonna have kids?


AM I...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?
[] intersting to talk to?


HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting to kiss me?
[] wished i were there?


ARE Y0U...
[] happy you know me?
[] mad at me?
[] thinkin bout me?

These two images both made me smile and feel kind of sad I don't really know why