No Whore

She's at it again, badmouthing herself
the voices in her head are screaming
All you had to do was hold her tight
But that was too much and now she's falling

She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried

She's lost in a world of self hatred
She won't take anyone's hand anymore
You're too late, the damage has been done
Even you can't help her now

She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried

You can hear her saying those awful things
The voices in her head won't let up
They've lied to her, told her this is what she deserves
Told her she's a whore and worse

She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried

She's lost her will to fight her voices
She needed you, and you all let her slip
Now she's too far gone to ever help
All you had to do was hold her tight

She's taking more abuse
She believes it's what she deserves
Too late, you see the damage
You let her fall and now she's gone
Would have been better if you'd caught her

She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried

Marpsy
I wrote this in a really dark time of my life when I was losing my mind thanks to feeling totally alone

Don't you hate when you can't back to sleep when you've had a nightmare that makes you worry about someone you care about deeply. Somehow I had one of those nightmares and couldn't get back to sleep until my man (still sound asleep) yanks me into his arms. Next thing I know it's 8:45 a.m. Gotta love my man <3

Ich denke, du weißt Ich liebe dich. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann nicht aufhören an dich zu denken. Ich denke, du weißt, ich will dich an meiner Seite. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann ohne dich nicht dort schlafen

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 7

Level 4
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 12

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 17

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 19

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 22

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 23

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 27

Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 30

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 32

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 36

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 39

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 43

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 44

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 47

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 49

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 50

Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 51

Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about.
SO FAR: 55

Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 58

Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 59

Level 25
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 62

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 66

Level 27
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 71

Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 74

Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 78

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(x) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 80


0-10:Go Outside
11-20:Get a Life
21-30:Loser
31-40:Loner
41-50:You have friends?!?!?
51-60:Your kinda sorta kewl.
61-70:Ill hang w/ u
71-80:Mr. Cool
81-90: Dude, ur sweet!
**91-100:Freakin awesome!
101-110:Whoa!
111-119: Holy crap, you belong in a hospital!
120: Corpse

Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me

It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night


Papa Roach Time and Time Again

And yet again I say it, when your friends are honest enough to look at you and go he's an asshole the answer is not to slap them but pause and understand that maybe just maybe they care enough about you to tell you how they feel. When they tell you the person they're worried about is fine maybe just maybe they know what they are talking about. I wish just once my friends would trust me when I tell them things but apparently listening to the person's gut instinct that doesn't lie to them is uncool *sighs and facedog*

Why is it when you need them most your friends are always too far away to help you...stop you...from being stupid...

I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.

No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.

Pop Evil, Another Romeo and Juliet
You know why I posted this

Okay I need some help.

My boyfriend and I are in an open relationship...which is good but it bugs me that he doesn't seem to ever get even a little possessive even when guys touch me, guys who I don't want to touch me... Someone please help me figure out how to tell him how I feel

*throws slight fit* UNWANTED SEXUAL CONTACT! BEING PULLED FROM MY SHOWER BY MY FRIEND!!! AKWARD TURTLE

Take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide

it's not too late i'm close behind
i've gotta get inside your mind, mind
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide
wide, wide, wide...

Escape The Fate, 10 Miles Wide

Yo folks I'm back and I've got a major major major SQUEE!

I"M GOING TO UPROAR BITCHES!!!!

Starting tomorrow I will be offline for a bit. Friends that already have my number feel free to text me. Those who do not yet message me today and I will give it to you. Please and thank you

Growing up is hard. When you're in school fights rarely last more than a week and then all is forgiven in favor of beating the shit out of someone who hurt the other and then it's right back to fighting again. Now after high school we don't acknowledge eat other for a week maybe longer and even then we're still not really friends anymore. Kind of a depressing thing to think about huh? Well suffice it to say I've discovered the dark truth about growing up.
I've grown up these last five years and now recently my very close friend who used to be in complete control of me is pissed off because of me growing very rapidly in this last month or so. It's all kinds of suck but what am I supposed to do about it? I am not the type of person to sulk in a corner anymore...so I guess it's move on and hope we were really as good of friends as I thought we were.

So I lost my oldest friend and mommy today. We had a stupid arguement today and she told me she didn't want to talk to me again and that if I showed up at her house she would shoot me so I'm pretty much at rock bottom right now.

He's gone. Un-freaking- believeable...no good bye no I love you no hug no nothing....just gone...I've been fighting my emo all day and Corey has cheered my up immensely but I still just want to curl in a ball and cry. I miss him. He's my daddy...but...apparently I'm not his daughter no more...

I'll never believe in you again
I'll never forgive those things you said
My only relief is gone and dead
I'll never forsake myself again

So hold me down
If I feed I'm stronger
I don't feel no longer

New Seether album Forsaken

I can feel my own angry voice screaming at my grandmother

I feel like I'm losing my friends like I've come to a point in my life no matter which direction I steop someone is going to hate me regardless...I guess it stems from the two people I was closest to in high school becoming more and more distant...whatever I guess my plans to enlist are good ones

For those who don't know I consider Friday the 13th the best luck of all. I've never had anylething bad happen to me on Friday the 13th but I've had tons of good things happen to me. So ya. Today is going to be a really good day. Meanwhile I'm going to my grandma's to do chores and then come back to my house to get ready for couples night hopefully more than one couple shows up

You come to me with scars on your wrists
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
[I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine]
But I know it's a lie


The Last Night- Skillet