Beautiful Lie
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
You say I'm a liar
I smile sadly knowing you're right
But not the way you think
I've been there for as long as I could
But finally adulthood has come
And all the lies must end (Even the beautiful ones)
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
I thought I could keep it going
For a tiny bit longer
Yet the sorrow is still filling my heart
You throw venom in my face
Yet I bear your hatred without a whimper
Knowing I deserve it for lying
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
Sisters forever we swore
Yet even then I knew it could never be true
You call me names
And I take the pain knowing forever was a lie
I couldn't keep my oath
But nor could you so perhaps we both deserve this
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie (a beautiful lie)
The pain was always waiting in the wings (Like a stage)
Yet we swore the oath of friendship (An oath to be broken)
Marpsy
Things I learned Uproar 2011 (yes yes I know it was wednesday)
1) Do NOT wear heels
2) going by yourself sucks a little bit
3) Lawn seating is called nosebleed section why I don't know
4) The blue eyed boy who tried to be my friend for a little bit was actually not bad looking
5) Sadly aforementioned blued eyed boy was not only just interested in one thing but also had gotten the clap...twice
6) Drunk people are deaf
7) The band I went to see was disappointing
8) The band I wasn't really looking forward to seeing was AWESOME
9) I knew more A7X songs than I thought
10) Blue eyed boy couldn't find the bathroom
11) Denver beat Houston
12) I missed people... That a year ago I didn't even know
13) I know the smell of weed all too well
14) Women assume guys are gay if they don't ive them a discount for boob shots
15) I has no voice, my body hurts and I feel like going back to bed...Yup good concert
I'm not going to lie if [shadowstarwolf] is alive and okay I am PISSED at him. I'm going to Uproar still but alone which makes me kind of sad
This is a shout out to anyone who knows [shadowstarwolf] please if you have contact with him have him contact me. Thank you
No Whore
She's at it again, badmouthing herself
the voices in her head are screaming
All you had to do was hold her tight
But that was too much and now she's falling
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost in a world of self hatred
She won't take anyone's hand anymore
You're too late, the damage has been done
Even you can't help her now
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
You can hear her saying those awful things
The voices in her head won't let up
They've lied to her, told her this is what she deserves
Told her she's a whore and worse
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost her will to fight her voices
She needed you, and you all let her slip
Now she's too far gone to ever help
All you had to do was hold her tight
She's taking more abuse
She believes it's what she deserves
Too late, you see the damage
You let her fall and now she's gone
Would have been better if you'd caught her
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
Marpsy
I wrote this in a really dark time of my life when I was losing my mind thanks to feeling totally alone
Don't you hate when you can't back to sleep when you've had a nightmare that makes you worry about someone you care about deeply. Somehow I had one of those nightmares and couldn't get back to sleep until my man (still sound asleep) yanks me into his arms. Next thing I know it's 8:45 a.m. Gotta love my man <3
Ich denke, du weißt Ich liebe dich. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann nicht aufhören an dich zu denken. Ich denke, du weißt, ich will dich an meiner Seite. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann ohne dich nicht dort schlafen
Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 2
Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 4
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 7
Level 4
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 9
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 12
Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 17
Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 19
Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 22
Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 23
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 27
Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 30
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 32
Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 36
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 39
Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 43
Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 44
Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 47
Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 49
Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 50
Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/i
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 51
Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about.
SO FAR: 55
Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 58
Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 59
Level 25
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 62
Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 66
Level 27
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 71
Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/S
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 74
Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 78
Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(x) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 80
0-10:Go Outside
11-20:Get a Life
21-30:Loser
31-40:Loner
41-50:You have friends?!?!?
51-60:Your kinda sorta kewl.
61-70:Ill hang w/ u
71-80:Mr. Cool
81-90: Dude, ur sweet!
**91-100:Freak
101-110:Whoa!
111-119: Holy crap, you belong in a hospital!
120: Corpse
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night
Papa Roach Time and Time Again
And yet again I say it, when your friends are honest enough to look at you and go he's an asshole the answer is not to slap them but pause and understand that maybe just maybe they care enough about you to tell you how they feel. When they tell you the person they're worried about is fine maybe just maybe they know what they are talking about. I wish just once my friends would trust me when I tell them things but apparently listening to the person's gut instinct that doesn't lie to them is uncool *sighs and facedog*
Why is it when you need them most your friends are always too far away to help you...stop you...from being stupid...
I swallowed my pride.
And way too many times,
I left my heart wide open.
Now I can't take no more.
Now I guess some things
Are just not meant to be - like you and me.
Now my world is spinning faster and faster.
No drama instead,
Your words go over my head.
Let's stop hurting each other,
So we can be alright.
You're so perfect in bed,
But still you're fucked in the head.
Everything you say,
I can't take your lies.
I can't take your lies.
This is just another Romeo and Juliet.
Pop Evil, Another Romeo and Juliet
You know why I posted this
Okay I need some help.
My boyfriend and I are in an open relationship..
*throws slight fit* UNWANTED SEXUAL CONTACT! BEING PULLED FROM MY SHOWER BY MY FRIEND!!! AKWARD TURTLE
Take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide
it's not too late i'm close behind
i've gotta get inside your mind, mind
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide
wide, wide, wide...
Escape The Fate, 10 Miles Wide
Yo folks I'm back and I've got a major major major SQUEE!
I"M GOING TO UPROAR BITCHES!!!!
Starting tomorrow I will be offline for a bit. Friends that already have my number feel free to text me. Those who do not yet message me today and I will give it to you. Please and thank you
Growing up is hard. When you're in school fights rarely last more than a week and then all is forgiven in favor of beating the shit out of someone who hurt the other and then it's right back to fighting again. Now after high school we don't acknowledge eat other for a week maybe longer and even then we're still not really friends anymore. Kind of a depressing thing to think about huh? Well suffice it to say I've discovered the dark truth about growing up.
I've grown up these last five years and now recently my very close friend who used to be in complete control of me is pissed off because of me growing very rapidly in this last month or so. It's all kinds of suck but what am I supposed to do about it? I am not the type of person to sulk in a corner anymore...so I guess it's move on and hope we were really as good of friends as I thought we were.
So I lost my oldest friend and mommy today. We had a stupid arguement today and she told me she didn't want to talk to me again and that if I showed up at her house she would shoot me so I'm pretty much at rock bottom right now.
He's gone. Un-freaking- believeable...