*ahem* I have something to say. I don't really give a damn if you're friends with me or not. Personally I think taking anything on the internet too seriously is foolish. I'm just saying if you're going to get offended by something someone else put in their diary or their wiki than shame on you. I mean it's THEIRS they have every right to say what they want. Fake is supposed to be about having fun but lately it's all about fucking drama. I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong because honestly I don't care but c'mon folks this isn't Facebook!
Hate your face, hate your lies and the blinking in your eyes
Hate your needs, hate your wants, hate the way you look and talk
Hate your voice, makes me cringe everytime I hear you speak
It's uncomfortable to know you steal the same air as me
Hate your lack of common sense and I'm tired of compromising
Take a good look in the end, cause it's just on the horizon
Five Finger Death Punch, 100 Ways to Hate
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring each step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there to take my hand
When I'd been on my knees for so long
You were there to hold me tight
When I was going to lose my mind
So why now that I need you
Why are you walking away?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there when no one else was
You told me it was okay to hurt
Yet now you're in my face screaming at me
Telling me I'm wrong for doing what you said to
Telling me I'm an evil vile person
What am I supposed to do?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
Every memory of you haunts me
Like a razor blade held to my throat
I want to beg for you to turn around
To forgive me for being human
Yet I know it's not true
Forgiveness can't be had this time
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
I wish it were easier to say goodbye
Somehow I knew someday it would come
Yet I always hoped that it would be easy
A whisper in the dark for the love I've lost
You never knew the truth and that makes me sad
I can't tell you now how I feel
Yet I wish somehow I didn't have to walk this way without you
Guess I'll just walk wearily into the future
Praying someday you'll see
Marpsy
Stay because I'm feeling alone
And I need you more than you know
Don't leave because I'm under attack
And you don't have a reason to go
Don't leave me alone
I've been living too blind to see
How do you know my name
Why are we all the same
I count all the memories
The bitterness of old
How is my life unfolding
Burn Halo, Alone
You look at me with such sad eyes
Refusing to speak knowing there's nothing to say
Look away please I can't stand to see tears in your eyes
I know this isn't the way we planned this
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming?
Turn away I've got nothing left
Bled dry screaming begging you to understand
This isn't how it should be
Pleading for one more chance, one more kiss
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
I promised you forever and now I'm a liar
I have to turn my back because I always knew it'd end somewhere
You never truly knew the truth even though I wanted to tell you
Now it's too late but it's the way it had to be
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doom to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
Oh no you can't know the truth
Not now not ever. Pull the razor from your throat
Cry those tears of pain and stand tall once more
We knew this darkness was coming but somehow
We wanted it to be a little more like love
So sorry I lied but you can't know the truth
You were so much more than my friend
You were the one I loved like a sister, a friend, a lover
It's over now but still you don't know the truth
Marpsy
People are bound and determined to make me homicidal aren't they? Look at all the fucking drama. Oh well good news for Sharon I got the new Five Finger Death Punch album, Evanescence, and Blink 182 yesterday because my boyfriend is awesome now if only I got get him to bring me when he goes to meet Five Finger
Sadomasochisti
In the darkness of the night
Screams of pleasure and pain rend the stillness
The two are so intertwined
It's hard to tell which is which
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
The bruises tell a story of pain and passion
Scratches that create red marks
You know this pleasured pain
Thick and sticky sweet like blood
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
No one else knows our nights
Like fire, the passion of pain takes control
Only you know my twisted desires
Only you know how to bring me out
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
You're the only one who understands
Our sadomasochisti
The pleasure and the pain
Just another sound breaking the stillness
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
Marpsy
Scream Aloud
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
She's been kicked like a dog
Slapped around and told she was worthless
She's been raped and beaten
Yet still she stands up screaming defiance
Bruised, bloody knuckles held high
She's not goin' down without a fight
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
He's never known a scrap of kindness
Every day's a struggle
A fight just to make it to the next one
Yet he keeps fighting in defiance
Never going down for these losers
He'll triumph screaming
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
You tried to beat me down
Tried to make me surrender
But guess what? I'm still screaming my defiance
My fist held high to the sky
Bring it on I'm not going down
Bruised, bloody and defiant
Scream aloud your defiance
Scream it, Scream it
Fists bruised and bloody held high
Hold 'em up, Hold 'em up
Hold 'em up to the sky
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
Tried to bet you down
Down to the ground
Scream aloud your defiance
Scream it, scream it
Scream it aloud!
Marpsy
Innocence Lost
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob still marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
I tried to tell you the end was near
You ignored me completely
Telling me I was fearing unnecessarily
You laughed it off
Saying we'd be sisters forever
And I tried to believe
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
Can you see the end now?
You scream at me
Calling me a liar and worse
Yet I smile sadly
We both knew it would come to this
A line drawn in the sand
Fated to tear us apart
And make forever a lie
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob still marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
The tears of sorrow that mark the end
The line drawn in the sand by a cruel hand
Hearts stand bleeding on the floor
I must be strong enough to bear this
If I'm not surely this is the end of more than mere childhood
It's a broken promise, but it's more
It's a lose of innocence
Marpsy
Beautiful Lie
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
You say I'm a liar
I smile sadly knowing you're right
But not the way you think
I've been there for as long as I could
But finally adulthood has come
And all the lies must end (Even the beautiful ones)
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
I thought I could keep it going
For a tiny bit longer
Yet the sorrow is still filling my heart
You throw venom in my face
Yet I bear your hatred without a whimper
Knowing I deserve it for lying
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
Sisters forever we swore
Yet even then I knew it could never be true
You call me names
And I take the pain knowing forever was a lie
I couldn't keep my oath
But nor could you so perhaps we both deserve this
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie (a beautiful lie)
The pain was always waiting in the wings (Like a stage)
Yet we swore the oath of friendship (An oath to be broken)
Marpsy
Things I learned Uproar 2011 (yes yes I know it was wednesday)
1) Do NOT wear heels
2) going by yourself sucks a little bit
3) Lawn seating is called nosebleed section why I don't know
4) The blue eyed boy who tried to be my friend for a little bit was actually not bad looking
5) Sadly aforementioned blued eyed boy was not only just interested in one thing but also had gotten the clap...twice
6) Drunk people are deaf
7) The band I went to see was disappointing
8) The band I wasn't really looking forward to seeing was AWESOME
9) I knew more A7X songs than I thought
10) Blue eyed boy couldn't find the bathroom
11) Denver beat Houston
12) I missed people... That a year ago I didn't even know
13) I know the smell of weed all too well
14) Women assume guys are gay if they don't ive them a discount for boob shots
15) I has no voice, my body hurts and I feel like going back to bed...Yup good concert
I'm not going to lie if [shadowstarwolf] is alive and okay I am PISSED at him. I'm going to Uproar still but alone which makes me kind of sad
This is a shout out to anyone who knows [shadowstarwolf] please if you have contact with him have him contact me. Thank you
No Whore
She's at it again, badmouthing herself
the voices in her head are screaming
All you had to do was hold her tight
But that was too much and now she's falling
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost in a world of self hatred
She won't take anyone's hand anymore
You're too late, the damage has been done
Even you can't help her now
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
You can hear her saying those awful things
The voices in her head won't let up
They've lied to her, told her this is what she deserves
Told her she's a whore and worse
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost her will to fight her voices
She needed you, and you all let her slip
Now she's too far gone to ever help
All you had to do was hold her tight
She's taking more abuse
She believes it's what she deserves
Too late, you see the damage
You let her fall and now she's gone
Would have been better if you'd caught her
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
Marpsy
I wrote this in a really dark time of my life when I was losing my mind thanks to feeling totally alone
Don't you hate when you can't back to sleep when you've had a nightmare that makes you worry about someone you care about deeply. Somehow I had one of those nightmares and couldn't get back to sleep until my man (still sound asleep) yanks me into his arms. Next thing I know it's 8:45 a.m. Gotta love my man <3
Ich denke, du weißt Ich liebe dich. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann nicht aufhören an dich zu denken. Ich denke, du weißt, ich will dich an meiner Seite. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann ohne dich nicht dort schlafen
Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 2
Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 4
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 7
Level 4
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 9
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 12
Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 17
Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
( ) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 19
Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
( ) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
( ) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 22
Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 23
Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 27
Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 30
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 32
Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 36
Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 39
Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 43
Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
( ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 44
Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 47
Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 49
Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 50
Level 21
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/i
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 51
Level 22
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about.
SO FAR: 55
Level 23
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 58
Level 24
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 59
Level 25
( ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 62
Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 66
Level 27
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 71
Level 28
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/S
(x) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 74
Level 29
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 78
Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(x) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 80
0-10:Go Outside
11-20:Get a Life
21-30:Loser
31-40:Loner
41-50:You have friends?!?!?
51-60:Your kinda sorta kewl.
61-70:Ill hang w/ u
71-80:Mr. Cool
81-90: Dude, ur sweet!
**91-100:Freak
101-110:Whoa!
111-119: Holy crap, you belong in a hospital!
120: Corpse
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart
In the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears
Tears that we cry
Over and over every night
Papa Roach Time and Time Again
And yet again I say it, when your friends are honest enough to look at you and go he's an asshole the answer is not to slap them but pause and understand that maybe just maybe they care enough about you to tell you how they feel. When they tell you the person they're worried about is fine maybe just maybe they know what they are talking about. I wish just once my friends would trust me when I tell them things but apparently listening to the person's gut instinct that doesn't lie to them is uncool *sighs and facedog*
Why is it when you need them most your friends are always too far away to help you...stop you...from being stupid...