Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
This nightmare starts with voices and darkness
Cops and cousins yelling at each other
Tears stain your cheeks, there's nothing you can do
This is but a whisper of a memory
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Again tears stain your cheeks
But it's not from the same pain as before
He's holding you down and you can't fight
You're screaming at him with all your might
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
The wounds of betrayal bleed against your flesh
From something you can barely understand
You're not the one who did wrong
Yet you're still the one to pay
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Scars so deep they nearly tear you apart
Bearing what you've always known would come
With but a silent whimper for a death
A death of a love that could never be
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Marpsy
Let me tell you a story about a kitten, a fiesty little kitten.
One night four teenagers high as fuck broke into a house stabbing several dogs, and kicking a pregnant dog. One boy was caught by the guard dog outside and had his leg torn open. Another was caught by a huge therapy dog by the throat. One teenager escaped after snapping the neck of a beautiful fiesty kitten named Blackjack. Guess who that kitten belonged to?
Three years later I still wear his dogtag as a silent testament of the promise never to forget that fiesty kitten
I'm tougher than nails, I can promise you that
Step out of line and you'll get bitch slapped back
And you can run your little mouth all day
But the hand of God just smacked you back into yesterday
And so you tell me I can take my chances
But I told you one too many times and you were cryin' like a bitch
And you wonder why no one can stand you
And there's no denying you were cryin' like a bitch
Godsmack, Cryin' Like a Bitch
I think...I think I'm going to quit Fake in the furture I'm getting tired of this place since most of the people I stuck around to keep in contact with have found me on facebook or simply quit never to return...seems like Fake has died for me. Opinions?
*ahem* I have something to say. I don't really give a damn if you're friends with me or not. Personally I think taking anything on the internet too seriously is foolish. I'm just saying if you're going to get offended by something someone else put in their diary or their wiki than shame on you. I mean it's THEIRS they have every right to say what they want. Fake is supposed to be about having fun but lately it's all about fucking drama. I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong because honestly I don't care but c'mon folks this isn't Facebook!
Hate your face, hate your lies and the blinking in your eyes
Hate your needs, hate your wants, hate the way you look and talk
Hate your voice, makes me cringe everytime I hear you speak
It's uncomfortable to know you steal the same air as me
Hate your lack of common sense and I'm tired of compromising
Take a good look in the end, cause it's just on the horizon
Five Finger Death Punch, 100 Ways to Hate
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring each step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there to take my hand
When I'd been on my knees for so long
You were there to hold me tight
When I was going to lose my mind
So why now that I need you
Why are you walking away?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there when no one else was
You told me it was okay to hurt
Yet now you're in my face screaming at me
Telling me I'm wrong for doing what you said to
Telling me I'm an evil vile person
What am I supposed to do?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
Every memory of you haunts me
Like a razor blade held to my throat
I want to beg for you to turn around
To forgive me for being human
Yet I know it's not true
Forgiveness can't be had this time
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
I wish it were easier to say goodbye
Somehow I knew someday it would come
Yet I always hoped that it would be easy
A whisper in the dark for the love I've lost
You never knew the truth and that makes me sad
I can't tell you now how I feel
Yet I wish somehow I didn't have to walk this way without you
Guess I'll just walk wearily into the future
Praying someday you'll see
Marpsy
Stay because I'm feeling alone
And I need you more than you know
Don't leave because I'm under attack
And you don't have a reason to go
Don't leave me alone
I've been living too blind to see
How do you know my name
Why are we all the same
I count all the memories
The bitterness of old
How is my life unfolding
Burn Halo, Alone
You look at me with such sad eyes
Refusing to speak knowing there's nothing to say
Look away please I can't stand to see tears in your eyes
I know this isn't the way we planned this
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming?
Turn away I've got nothing left
Bled dry screaming begging you to understand
This isn't how it should be
Pleading for one more chance, one more kiss
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
I promised you forever and now I'm a liar
I have to turn my back because I always knew it'd end somewhere
You never truly knew the truth even though I wanted to tell you
Now it's too late but it's the way it had to be
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doom to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
Oh no you can't know the truth
Not now not ever. Pull the razor from your throat
Cry those tears of pain and stand tall once more
We knew this darkness was coming but somehow
We wanted it to be a little more like love
So sorry I lied but you can't know the truth
You were so much more than my friend
You were the one I loved like a sister, a friend, a lover
It's over now but still you don't know the truth
Marpsy
People are bound and determined to make me homicidal aren't they? Look at all the fucking drama. Oh well good news for Sharon I got the new Five Finger Death Punch album, Evanescence, and Blink 182 yesterday because my boyfriend is awesome now if only I got get him to bring me when he goes to meet Five Finger
Sadomasochisti
In the darkness of the night
Screams of pleasure and pain rend the stillness
The two are so intertwined
It's hard to tell which is which
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
The bruises tell a story of pain and passion
Scratches that create red marks
You know this pleasured pain
Thick and sticky sweet like blood
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
No one else knows our nights
Like fire, the passion of pain takes control
Only you know my twisted desires
Only you know how to bring me out
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
You're the only one who understands
Our sadomasochisti
The pleasure and the pain
Just another sound breaking the stillness
It's sadistic
It's masochistic
It's just the way I like it
Marpsy
Scream Aloud
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
She's been kicked like a dog
Slapped around and told she was worthless
She's been raped and beaten
Yet still she stands up screaming defiance
Bruised, bloody knuckles held high
She's not goin' down without a fight
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
He's never known a scrap of kindness
Every day's a struggle
A fight just to make it to the next one
Yet he keeps fighting in defiance
Never going down for these losers
He'll triumph screaming
Scream aloud your defiance
You're a fighter, don't let them forget it
Fists bruised and bloody raised high
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
You tried to beat me down
Tried to make me surrender
But guess what? I'm still screaming my defiance
My fist held high to the sky
Bring it on I'm not going down
Bruised, bloody and defiant
Scream aloud your defiance
Scream it, Scream it
Fists bruised and bloody held high
Hold 'em up, Hold 'em up
Hold 'em up to the sky
Triumph against a world that tried to beat you
Tried to bet you down
Down to the ground
Scream aloud your defiance
Scream it, scream it
Scream it aloud!
Marpsy
Innocence Lost
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob still marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
I tried to tell you the end was near
You ignored me completely
Telling me I was fearing unnecessarily
You laughed it off
Saying we'd be sisters forever
And I tried to believe
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
Can you see the end now?
You scream at me
Calling me a liar and worse
Yet I smile sadly
We both knew it would come to this
A line drawn in the sand
Fated to tear us apart
And make forever a lie
Childhood passions and alliances
Like faded dreams of a bygone day
We always knew they'd have to end someday
But a mournful sob still marks their passage
We never expected it to end this way
The tears of sorrow that mark the end
The line drawn in the sand by a cruel hand
Hearts stand bleeding on the floor
I must be strong enough to bear this
If I'm not surely this is the end of more than mere childhood
It's a broken promise, but it's more
It's a lose of innocence
Marpsy
Beautiful Lie
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
You say I'm a liar
I smile sadly knowing you're right
But not the way you think
I've been there for as long as I could
But finally adulthood has come
And all the lies must end (Even the beautiful ones)
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
I thought I could keep it going
For a tiny bit longer
Yet the sorrow is still filling my heart
You throw venom in my face
Yet I bear your hatred without a whimper
Knowing I deserve it for lying
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie
The pain was always waiting in the wings
Yet we swore the oath of friendship
Sisters forever we swore
Yet even then I knew it could never be true
You call me names
And I take the pain knowing forever was a lie
I couldn't keep my oath
But nor could you so perhaps we both deserve this
Solemnly we swore forever (What a beautiful lie)
Yet one of us always knew it was a lie (a beautiful lie)
The pain was always waiting in the wings (Like a stage)
Yet we swore the oath of friendship (An oath to be broken)
Marpsy
Things I learned Uproar 2011 (yes yes I know it was wednesday)
1) Do NOT wear heels
2) going by yourself sucks a little bit
3) Lawn seating is called nosebleed section why I don't know
4) The blue eyed boy who tried to be my friend for a little bit was actually not bad looking
5) Sadly aforementioned blued eyed boy was not only just interested in one thing but also had gotten the clap...twice
6) Drunk people are deaf
7) The band I went to see was disappointing
8) The band I wasn't really looking forward to seeing was AWESOME
9) I knew more A7X songs than I thought
10) Blue eyed boy couldn't find the bathroom
11) Denver beat Houston
12) I missed people... That a year ago I didn't even know
13) I know the smell of weed all too well
14) Women assume guys are gay if they don't ive them a discount for boob shots
15) I has no voice, my body hurts and I feel like going back to bed...Yup good concert
I'm not going to lie if [shadowstarwolf] is alive and okay I am PISSED at him. I'm going to Uproar still but alone which makes me kind of sad
This is a shout out to anyone who knows [shadowstarwolf] please if you have contact with him have him contact me. Thank you
No Whore
She's at it again, badmouthing herself
the voices in her head are screaming
All you had to do was hold her tight
But that was too much and now she's falling
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost in a world of self hatred
She won't take anyone's hand anymore
You're too late, the damage has been done
Even you can't help her now
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
You can hear her saying those awful things
The voices in her head won't let up
They've lied to her, told her this is what she deserves
Told her she's a whore and worse
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
She's lost her will to fight her voices
She needed you, and you all let her slip
Now she's too far gone to ever help
All you had to do was hold her tight
She's taking more abuse
She believes it's what she deserves
Too late, you see the damage
You let her fall and now she's gone
Would have been better if you'd caught her
She's no whore
She's worth more
She'll never know
How much you've cried
Marpsy
I wrote this in a really dark time of my life when I was losing my mind thanks to feeling totally alone
Don't you hate when you can't back to sleep when you've had a nightmare that makes you worry about someone you care about deeply. Somehow I had one of those nightmares and couldn't get back to sleep until my man (still sound asleep) yanks me into his arms. Next thing I know it's 8:45 a.m. Gotta love my man <3
Ich denke, du weißt Ich liebe dich. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann nicht aufhören an dich zu denken. Ich denke, du weißt, ich will dich an meiner Seite. Ich denke, du weißt, ich kann ohne dich nicht dort schlafen