Just cuz I said I'll be there forever doesn't mean I won't smack you upside the head when you piss me off
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm your punching bag
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean you'll like what I have to say
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm above bitching you out
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm going to be nice all the time
I'm human and I'm proud of it. When I say I'll be there forever I mean I'll defend and protect you but that doesn't mean I'm always going to be your friend. Don't get the two confused
I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?
I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality,
If there's an afterlife,
Then it'll set you free.
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfillin
You think that crying to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.
Sound of Madness, Shinedown
I used to care. I used to give a damn, but now I'm just filled with a certain level of rage. I'm tired of chasing family and friends who could give less of a fuck if I stopped breathing. Enough is enough. My wedding party is going to be filled out with FAMILY people who have stood by me since I was young and not strangers I haven't seen in upwards of five years. Additionally I have officially decided to stop trying so fucking hard to stay in contact with my bio dad and certian other people that just don't care
So due to situations in my life I went to the doctor turns out I have staph and they put me on antibiotics which make me sick to my stomach
yes there will be pictures of me in costume as always when I get them taken. As promised to those who are in the know of my life I am being a black cat (lol) I was lazy so really you'll have to forgive me for being busy with more pressing matters such as trying not to kill my mother
Still not officially back
In other news to add to my technoligical woes at 0300 yesterday, my power went out it did not return until 1900 hours today. that is for those of you that are mathmatically challenged 39 hours without power. It snowed which is why the power went out therefore it was cold. I am displeased with this and in pain. Anyone who annoys me will feel my wrath that is all
Still not officially back
In other news to add to my technoligical woes at 0300 yesterday, my power went out it did not return until 1900 hours today. that is for those of you that are mathmatically challenged 39 hours without power. It snowed which is why the power went out therefore it was cold. I am displeased with this and in pain. Anyone who annoys me will feel my wrath that is all
Still not back BUT
Five Finger Death Punch played in my state recently I couldn't go but my beloved boyfriend went and brough me back their signatures ^^ I'm so loved
Marpsy - that's me for those of you who can't read- is having major computer issues so hang tight guys I'll be back soon - hopefully - meantime -this one is to a few people in particular- my wiki's will be down or limited interferance. Also Mystik STOP FUCKING SENDING INVITES TO MY FUCKING WIKIS! ESPECIALLY TO ME! thank you. Also please be paitent with me on updating certain rps and such like I'm a busy woman
*ahem* I am bad need of competant rpers for my wiki Wolves of Hell Clubhouse werewolves only
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Gottes sündigen kleinen Lügen
Du bist nicht böse, er ist
öffnen sie Ihre Augen an die dunkelstein Worhrheit
Blutige Kriege haben seinem Namen gerführt worden
Sünden der Gewalt und Leidenschaft geleat zu seinen Füßen
wie Angehote von Blut
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Das Angebot der Blutfeck die Schritte seines Schrein
Wie die gierigen Aztec Herren
Eine traurige Dunkelheit liegt über alle
Aber die meisten in Ihren Sünden durchdrugen
Blutflecken den Händen dieser
Was sie als Sünden als Ihren Gott
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Das blut an den Händen wird niemals wegwashen
Anlich wie die Sünden ihres Gottes
Blut der Unschuldigen geopfert
Auf den Steten Ihres Blutes hungrigen Herr
Keine Tranen sind für ihren verlust Schuppen
Denn niemand versteht die Sünde von Gott
Gott mehr sündigen als seine Anhänger
versprach der Dunkelheit des Blutes
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Marpsy
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
You see things they don't
Eyes on fire from the refusal to be blind
Yet you're the crazy one
They lock you in chains
Put you in a padded cell
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string
Bleeding you stand up
It's not for them to decide who you are
You're one of a kind
Different from the pack
And that's more than alright
Scream your defiance of their rules
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
You're gay, you're bi
You're white, You're black
You're a nerd, You're a loner
You're different!
Scream it out now!
Tell them you're who you are!
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
Marpsy
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
This nightmare starts with voices and darkness
Cops and cousins yelling at each other
Tears stain your cheeks, there's nothing you can do
This is but a whisper of a memory
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Again tears stain your cheeks
But it's not from the same pain as before
He's holding you down and you can't fight
You're screaming at him with all your might
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
The wounds of betrayal bleed against your flesh
From something you can barely understand
You're not the one who did wrong
Yet you're still the one to pay
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Scars so deep they nearly tear you apart
Bearing what you've always known would come
With but a silent whimper for a death
A death of a love that could never be
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Marpsy
Let me tell you a story about a kitten, a fiesty little kitten.
One night four teenagers high as fuck broke into a house stabbing several dogs, and kicking a pregnant dog. One boy was caught by the guard dog outside and had his leg torn open. Another was caught by a huge therapy dog by the throat. One teenager escaped after snapping the neck of a beautiful fiesty kitten named Blackjack. Guess who that kitten belonged to?
Three years later I still wear his dogtag as a silent testament of the promise never to forget that fiesty kitten
I'm tougher than nails, I can promise you that
Step out of line and you'll get bitch slapped back
And you can run your little mouth all day
But the hand of God just smacked you back into yesterday
And so you tell me I can take my chances
But I told you one too many times and you were cryin' like a bitch
And you wonder why no one can stand you
And there's no denying you were cryin' like a bitch
Godsmack, Cryin' Like a Bitch
I think...I think I'm going to quit Fake in the furture I'm getting tired of this place since most of the people I stuck around to keep in contact with have found me on facebook or simply quit never to return...seems like Fake has died for me. Opinions?
*ahem* I have something to say. I don't really give a damn if you're friends with me or not. Personally I think taking anything on the internet too seriously is foolish. I'm just saying if you're going to get offended by something someone else put in their diary or their wiki than shame on you. I mean it's THEIRS they have every right to say what they want. Fake is supposed to be about having fun but lately it's all about fucking drama. I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong because honestly I don't care but c'mon folks this isn't Facebook!
Hate your face, hate your lies and the blinking in your eyes
Hate your needs, hate your wants, hate the way you look and talk
Hate your voice, makes me cringe everytime I hear you speak
It's uncomfortable to know you steal the same air as me
Hate your lack of common sense and I'm tired of compromising
Take a good look in the end, cause it's just on the horizon
Five Finger Death Punch, 100 Ways to Hate
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring each step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there to take my hand
When I'd been on my knees for so long
You were there to hold me tight
When I was going to lose my mind
So why now that I need you
Why are you walking away?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
You were there when no one else was
You told me it was okay to hurt
Yet now you're in my face screaming at me
Telling me I'm wrong for doing what you said to
Telling me I'm an evil vile person
What am I supposed to do?
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
Every memory of you haunts me
Like a razor blade held to my throat
I want to beg for you to turn around
To forgive me for being human
Yet I know it's not true
Forgiveness can't be had this time
Wearily we walk into the future
The past coloring every step we make
Sorrow's all some of us have ever known
Yet still we stagger forward into the future
Praying for a newer better day
I wish it were easier to say goodbye
Somehow I knew someday it would come
Yet I always hoped that it would be easy
A whisper in the dark for the love I've lost
You never knew the truth and that makes me sad
I can't tell you now how I feel
Yet I wish somehow I didn't have to walk this way without you
Guess I'll just walk wearily into the future
Praying someday you'll see
Marpsy
Stay because I'm feeling alone
And I need you more than you know
Don't leave because I'm under attack
And you don't have a reason to go
Don't leave me alone
I've been living too blind to see
How do you know my name
Why are we all the same
I count all the memories
The bitterness of old
How is my life unfolding
Burn Halo, Alone
You look at me with such sad eyes
Refusing to speak knowing there's nothing to say
Look away please I can't stand to see tears in your eyes
I know this isn't the way we planned this
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming?
Turn away I've got nothing left
Bled dry screaming begging you to understand
This isn't how it should be
Pleading for one more chance, one more kiss
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doomed to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
I promised you forever and now I'm a liar
I have to turn my back because I always knew it'd end somewhere
You never truly knew the truth even though I wanted to tell you
Now it's too late but it's the way it had to be
It's gotten harsher and more brutal
Love's like a razor held to your throat
Either way you're doom to tears
Tell me little girl can you hear the darkness coming
Oh no you can't know the truth
Not now not ever. Pull the razor from your throat
Cry those tears of pain and stand tall once more
We knew this darkness was coming but somehow
We wanted it to be a little more like love
So sorry I lied but you can't know the truth
You were so much more than my friend
You were the one I loved like a sister, a friend, a lover
It's over now but still you don't know the truth
Marpsy