Okay, here's the deal I went to the hospital yesterday having an allergic reaction to a sulfa med. They kept me over night sent me today. Additionally I have a low white blood cell count which they think is PART of my drug reaction but they still want to make sure.
Yay my friend [shadowstarwolf] is okay
Why is it people think I'm joking when I say something? It could be as simple as I'll be your friend or as important as I'd sacrifice my beating heart for you
Why is it people think I'm joking when I say something? It could be as simple as I'll be your friend or as important as I'd sacrifice my beating heart for you
Just cuz I said I'll be there forever doesn't mean I won't smack you upside the head when you piss me off
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm your punching bag
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean you'll like what I have to say
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm above bitching you out
Just cuz I said forever doesn't mean I'm going to be nice all the time
I'm human and I'm proud of it. When I say I'll be there forever I mean I'll defend and protect you but that doesn't mean I'm always going to be your friend. Don't get the two confused
I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?
I'm so sick of this tombstone mentality,
If there's an afterlife,
Then it'll set you free.
But I'm not gonna part the seas
You're a self-fulfillin
You think that crying to me,
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.
Sound of Madness, Shinedown
I used to care. I used to give a damn, but now I'm just filled with a certain level of rage. I'm tired of chasing family and friends who could give less of a fuck if I stopped breathing. Enough is enough. My wedding party is going to be filled out with FAMILY people who have stood by me since I was young and not strangers I haven't seen in upwards of five years. Additionally I have officially decided to stop trying so fucking hard to stay in contact with my bio dad and certian other people that just don't care
So due to situations in my life I went to the doctor turns out I have staph and they put me on antibiotics which make me sick to my stomach
yes there will be pictures of me in costume as always when I get them taken. As promised to those who are in the know of my life I am being a black cat (lol) I was lazy so really you'll have to forgive me for being busy with more pressing matters such as trying not to kill my mother
Still not officially back
In other news to add to my technoligical woes at 0300 yesterday, my power went out it did not return until 1900 hours today. that is for those of you that are mathmatically challenged 39 hours without power. It snowed which is why the power went out therefore it was cold. I am displeased with this and in pain. Anyone who annoys me will feel my wrath that is all
Still not officially back
In other news to add to my technoligical woes at 0300 yesterday, my power went out it did not return until 1900 hours today. that is for those of you that are mathmatically challenged 39 hours without power. It snowed which is why the power went out therefore it was cold. I am displeased with this and in pain. Anyone who annoys me will feel my wrath that is all
Still not back BUT
Five Finger Death Punch played in my state recently I couldn't go but my beloved boyfriend went and brough me back their signatures ^^ I'm so loved
Marpsy - that's me for those of you who can't read- is having major computer issues so hang tight guys I'll be back soon - hopefully - meantime -this one is to a few people in particular- my wiki's will be down or limited interferance. Also Mystik STOP FUCKING SENDING INVITES TO MY FUCKING WIKIS! ESPECIALLY TO ME! thank you. Also please be paitent with me on updating certain rps and such like I'm a busy woman
*ahem* I am bad need of competant rpers for my wiki Wolves of Hell Clubhouse werewolves only
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Gottes sündigen kleinen Lügen
Du bist nicht böse, er ist
öffnen sie Ihre Augen an die dunkelstein Worhrheit
Blutige Kriege haben seinem Namen gerführt worden
Sünden der Gewalt und Leidenschaft geleat zu seinen Füßen
wie Angehote von Blut
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Das Angebot der Blutfeck die Schritte seines Schrein
Wie die gierigen Aztec Herren
Eine traurige Dunkelheit liegt über alle
Aber die meisten in Ihren Sünden durchdrugen
Blutflecken den Händen dieser
Was sie als Sünden als Ihren Gott
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Das blut an den Händen wird niemals wegwashen
Anlich wie die Sünden ihres Gottes
Blut der Unschuldigen geopfert
Auf den Steten Ihres Blutes hungrigen Herr
Keine Tranen sind für ihren verlust Schuppen
Denn niemand versteht die Sünde von Gott
Gott mehr sündigen als seine Anhänger
versprach der Dunkelheit des Blutes
vertraut Kindheit Gebete
Worte hohl wie die Kirche
Verspricht dass wenn du gut
Gott wird Ihnen für Ihre bösen vergeben
Marpsy
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
You see things they don't
Eyes on fire from the refusal to be blind
Yet you're the crazy one
They lock you in chains
Put you in a padded cell
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string
Bleeding you stand up
It's not for them to decide who you are
You're one of a kind
Different from the pack
And that's more than alright
Scream your defiance of their rules
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
You're gay, you're bi
You're white, You're black
You're a nerd, You're a loner
You're different!
Scream it out now!
Tell them you're who you are!
They call you crazy, spit in your face
Demand you agree with their assessment
WELL FUCK YOU!
I'm not a puppet on a string!
Marpsy
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
This nightmare starts with voices and darkness
Cops and cousins yelling at each other
Tears stain your cheeks, there's nothing you can do
This is but a whisper of a memory
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Again tears stain your cheeks
But it's not from the same pain as before
He's holding you down and you can't fight
You're screaming at him with all your might
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
The wounds of betrayal bleed against your flesh
From something you can barely understand
You're not the one who did wrong
Yet you're still the one to pay
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Scars so deep they nearly tear you apart
Bearing what you've always known would come
With but a silent whimper for a death
A death of a love that could never be
Close your eyes, don't let them see your tears
Tonight for just a little bit you can hurt
I know you don't want them to see you cry
But tonight just for a little bit you can hurt
Marpsy
Let me tell you a story about a kitten, a fiesty little kitten.
One night four teenagers high as fuck broke into a house stabbing several dogs, and kicking a pregnant dog. One boy was caught by the guard dog outside and had his leg torn open. Another was caught by a huge therapy dog by the throat. One teenager escaped after snapping the neck of a beautiful fiesty kitten named Blackjack. Guess who that kitten belonged to?
Three years later I still wear his dogtag as a silent testament of the promise never to forget that fiesty kitten
I'm tougher than nails, I can promise you that
Step out of line and you'll get bitch slapped back
And you can run your little mouth all day
But the hand of God just smacked you back into yesterday
And so you tell me I can take my chances
But I told you one too many times and you were cryin' like a bitch
And you wonder why no one can stand you
And there's no denying you were cryin' like a bitch
Godsmack, Cryin' Like a Bitch
I think...I think I'm going to quit Fake in the furture I'm getting tired of this place since most of the people I stuck around to keep in contact with have found me on facebook or simply quit never to return...seems like Fake has died for me. Opinions?