Last night I had a particularly elaborate and vivid dream.

I was camped out in the middle of a very large dried up lake. I had a tent set up outside a metal shed that someone build there a long time ago. I had a powerful flashlight with me, and I was sitting next to my fire, because it was dark, when I saw something moving off in the distance. I got out my flashlight and pointed it that direction, and I saw a small human running toward me, it was only about three feet tall, and didnt seem to be wearing any clothing. Something was wrong about it, very wrong.

I ran into the shed and grabbed a pickaxe... I then stood out next to my fire, holding the axe as this thing ran at me, as it got closer, I could see it was not very human. It had dark grayish brown skin, that was emaciated horribly, it was a skeleton with skin stretched over the bones, and a mouth full of jagged sharp teeth, it was drooling and hissing as it ran towards me with a hatchet in its hand...

It swung at me with too much strength, I was barely able to block it with the pick, it swung again and again, I panicked, and swung the pick in a wide arc, connecting soundly with its head, sending the metal spike through its skull with a wet crack. I sat down as it crumpled, dead....what the fuck was that?

I took its hatchet and cut off its head, it had no blood or organs...then I stuffed it into a backpack, nobody would believe my story without proof. So I took it home with me and showed my parents, they were amazed at it, it wasnt like any living creature, and looking at it still sent shivers down my spine...this thing was wrong.

They put it back together, setting it up like some kind of grim totem in the basement, I remember how well lit it was. I was staring at it, watching it..I could swear the sinew of its skin was piecing its head back together...It reminded me of some kind of fetish statue...or like, a shrunken head with body attached...I looked up the stairs as one of my parents called, then looked back at the thing...it was gone......

The Goblin Song

Goblins chew and goblins bite,
Goblins cut and goblins fight,
Stab the dog and cut the horse,
Goblins eat and take by force!

Goblins race and goblins jump,
Goblins slash and goblins bump,
Burn the skin and mash the head,
Goblins here and you be dead!

Chase the baby, catch the pup,
Bonk the head to shut it up!
Bones be cracked, flesh be stewed,
We the goblins—you the food!

I had a dream where I ran out of gas in my car, and decided to take a long route home, went into the sewers and found a narrow entrance leading to a small closed off room with all kinds of bones in it, skulls of long dead animals and such, it was amazing, but I couldn’t take one, as much as I wanted to. I left the room and got lost in these old passage ways…but I wasn’t scared, even by just the light of my small mag light…

I really do hate parties...now that I think about it, sitting here, being forced to listen to the kinds of music I hate...I dont think that I have ever been to a party where I enjoyed myself. Watching everyone else and their mates dance around, laughing, joking...I am the one in the corner, alone, only able to watch. I hate being alone, having no female to hold and kiss and dance with...I guess I should be used to it, but whatever...

They try to make me dance, I hate dancing to this music...alone

Other then that, they are blind to anything I do. Why are humans so daft? They cannot notice even the most powerful emotions from others in need...

Its going to be a long night...im thinking of simply leaving to go home...to sleep alone like I always do...

My Werewolf RP character...a Rufus, Hare moon Werewolf...natural of course...

I had a talk with my Elders tonight...nothing like having them help me with my problems to make me feel like a selfish bastard.

I dont know...im torn between my hypocritical hate of humanity, and my honorable nature...

Maybe I dont hate humans...maybe I just hate the ones without honor...

I’m tired of messing up
Still not used to being wrong so much
Can’t feel the urge to even get up in the morning, sleep until someone calls to give me something to do
Tired of being alone, being an animal that females are afraid of. Maybe I am happier as an animal, animal urges and animal needs.
What’s it like to be an animal? To want to growl and crawl on all fours and touch things with impunity? Sounds like my dreams…
I cannot get used to being hated for the things I have done wrong in the past, being ignored by those I failed…They refuse to even talk to me now, won’t let me make it better.
Evil, maybe I am evil, I lust, I have greed and envy and malice. I see others doing evil, hear of them, the humans always the humans doing it, and I hate them, I want them to parish…
I feel the seconds slipping away even as my cursor blinks…life is losing its luster. Things are not so fun anymore, the games, the friends…
Tired of being backed into a corner and feeling unable to cope with the pain and sorrow I have brought down on my own heart and soul.
A soul…I can believe in my own soul but I can’t believe in a god...why is that?
What if my soul isn’t a human one, what if im not human, maybe human in body, but surely not in mind and soul…
Are soul and spirit the same?
Motivation, what emotions drive me to action? Passion? Delight? Anger?

My Tora is gone...I dont know what to do...

*lays head down on the ground, ears drooped*

Let's watch it burn
Let's watch it burn
Let's watch this city burn the world

Let's watch this city burn
From the sky over top the world
Til there's nothing left of her
Let's watch this city burn the world

watch things turn to ash
With two empty cans of gas
The only evidence they have
Is the police catch on my mask
And its hardly time to ask
If you can save my heart for last

And its hard to face the facts
When the darkness fades to black
It's not just make beleive
When they make me take a seat
And they put amphetamines
in the air and make me breath

So come on and grab your children
Look out for burning buildings
And civillians who perish
they kill them by the million
And billionss of people die
For a lost cause

So now I pray for my nation
thats destroyed under god

(it's the end of the world)
All my battles have been won
But the war has just begun

Let's watch this city burn
From the sky over top the world
Till there's nothing left in her
Let's watch the city burn away

The city looks so pretty
Do you wanna burn it with me?
Till the skies bleed ashes
And the f**kin sky crashes

We make ashes just with matches
To ignite the flame
And all the hopes of a young teen
F**kin insane stays the same

Take the pill
And go get drunk
And go get killed
Double dose
Acid life and acid death
Breathing till there is no breath

I will not die in the night but in the light
of the sun and the ashes
of this world in my lungs

But who am I to say
Lets all just run away
Go grab your friends and pray
We're gonna rule the world today

(it's the end of the world)
it's the end of the earth
We've been done since our birth

Let's watch this city burn
From the sky over top the world
Till there's nothing left in her
Let's watch the city burn the world

(Let's watch it burn)X2
The city looks so pretty
do you wanna burn it with me?
The city looks so pretty
do you wanna burn it with me?
The city looks so pretty
do you wanna burn it with me?

We use the trees as torches
(Do you wanna burn it with me?)
dot the streets with corpses
(Do you wanna burn it with me?)
we watch the city f**kin bleed
(Do you wanna burn it with me?)
and Bring the world to its knees
(Do you wanna burn it with me?)

Let's watch this city burn
From the sky over top the world
Til there's nothing left in her
Let's watch this city burn the world
Let's watch this city burn
From the sky over top the world
Til there's nothing left in her
Let's watch this city burn the world

Let's watch it burn
Let's watch it burn
Let's watch this city burn the world

Finally, the only thing to make me happy today is one song...

Last night, I sat in my car for over two hours watching the most amazing thunderstorm ive ever seen. Lighting flashed and arched every second for the whole duration, it was just one after another, sometimes 3 or 4 at a time, the rain was in huge drops and it hailed heavily...so beautiful...I felt so at peace...

Then, today at work, I crawls up the stairs of an apartment on all fours, as I always do, and one of the little girls that lived there followed me up and asked me; "Um...are you an animal?" I replied; "Yes, I am..." She smiled all big and giggled and proceeded to follow me up the stairs several times on all fours with me...

It warmed my heart, when I sire offspring, they will be female...

73 people deleted off my list...the last 28 of you, are my Elite...you still matter to me...

41! 42!! They drop like flies!

listen to the fucking song!

over and over and over and over and over

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF4b3jc63pc&feature=related

Oh here we go, 23 friends deleted off my list and im still going...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF4b3jc63pc&feature=related

and this song, so fitting...

People and their secrets...always hiding things from me...I respect nothing more then perfect honestly...I give it, I expect it in return...

AHAAHAHAH!!!!

Im going to lose what little I hold dear...

Everyone I care about is leaving or destroying me....