Hey people who actually give a damn. I may be on regular but not on for very long. As stated in my mood my laptop battery died. The charger had a short in it therefore I have to pay for both a battery and a charger. Meaning I have a worthless piece of shit because a) I can't get a job. (My parents like to control that and keep me under their thumb) b) I hardly make 130 when I go to guard weekend. Meaning I'd have to blow 2 months pay on the damn thing. Makes me want to throw shit around. Oh well this little rant helped. A little. Not much....

I love you
I cry for you
how can you hurt me so badly?
Sit by the phone clutched
in my hand just to hear you
say you love me too
but all you say when you call
has no meaning at all to you
Naively I believed you
truly you loved me yet it
was only lust you came
you were satisfied and
now you left leaving me alone
in my darkness

When I was twelve, while checking the mail
I was admiring the car of the man next door
And thinking to myself, man, one of these days
I'm gonna have me a house like that with a big, red door
And his yard was mowed, and his grass was green
And the driveway was edged and all the shrubs were trimmed so perfectly
I had a crush on his wife and I played ball with his son
I pondered how much money he made, went inside and turned the TV on

[Hook:]
And he was laying in an overflowing bathtub of red water
The first and the last time he ever relaxed
And they said, he had a smile on his face
His final offer, the steam on the mirror said
One more thing to say

I was watching TV, having one of mom's famous rice crispy treats
Watching Tom and Jerry, I heard a car horn beep
I ran to the window, his wife and son were home
With bags of stuff they had got at the mall
I went in my room and got my glove and ball
I leapt off the stairs, and asked his son could he play
And his son looked at his wife and his wife told his son I guess it'll be okay
And that beautiful woman, she walked in that beautiful house
When I realized I forgot my hat, I said I'll be back and turned around
And he was laying in an overflowing bathtub of red water
The first and the last time he ever relaxed
And they said, he had a smile on his face
His final offer, the steam on the mirror said
One more thing to say
There was screaming and there was crying
There was sirens, I thought I was dreamin
And the sun was shining, it was a beautiful day
His wife was talking to an officer
Through the noise I heard her say

[Hook:]
And he was laying in an overflowing bathtub of red water
The first and the last time he ever relaxed
And they said, he had a smile on his face
His final offer, the steam on the mirror said
I got one more thing to say

-this is how I'm feelin

He's done stirred my grits with the wrong kind of spoon. XD