"To the Nice Guys"

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.

To every guy who knows which girl he wants.

To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.

To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her.

To every guy that she cried in front of.

To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

To every guy that would give his seat up.

To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car.

To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

To every guy that gave his heart.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...

If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."

[If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left"]

ok one of my freinds messeges me saying "your fiance is telling some Nymph girl he misses her and and he thinks of her nastily and that hes gonna go on cam" imm like nymp...nymph..oh i known who that is..first off i gave her permission and second i dont give a fuck shes in uk but saying hes misses her makes me think hes falling for her..*skaes head* GOD DAMNIT!!!! i want him to have his freedom and i want him to be happy but i hate it when someone comesmto me and tells me what hes saysing to his fuck freind i DONT Care If i want to know ill ask him or her i talk to her Yeah. i gave permission now all of you shut the fuck up and keep to your own buissness!

Im so pist off i cant feel my fingers...Deamon Cat is kitty and is lieing o my fiance about who she is.and ya know what im not even gonna say shit about it ....or try not to.and truns out shes his pet since hes given er a nick name Jayde....i so want to ind this bitch and i dont know tare to pieces i do mean pieces. and sit one the remains and light it on fire.and ya know what as much it will kill me im just gonna let him do what the fuck he wants to oet him flrt and cyber with them whores let him drool at their sleazy photos i give up i cant fight everyone an him forever DONT FUCKING CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT FUCKING CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i give up.. at lesst i have a plug in toy... and a warm body of my own to cuddel to hell ive cuddeled to myself for years so..*shrugs*if this is what married life is gonna like then i dont think i cant do this but...i love him so much and i dont want to leave him but i dont want him to go looking nd cybering other women to et horney and fuck me....il just feel used and just like a fuck doll and im sorry if someone is gon a have ex with me they are gone HAVE Sex {WITH} me o be ucking me and thinking of everything else or someone else im not that desprate for sex im nt Always horney hell sex hurts me everytime i do it but i do it for him now tht i love the way he does it because he doesnt hurt me as much it feels so good ad im not shareing it with anyone else .i feel so empty i wish that kitty bitch wouls stop causeing hell in the wikis im in thanks god drace delets them so i dont have to see is all he time im glad i have a diary i feel better i feel like ican take the day by the horn s agian.well off to work i go...

Ok...another delema....my damned feelings is giveing me warnings about a firend of my fisnce's i just found out about like...the other night. i had like a vibe that he ws highly attracted to her i mean i saw her pic and her tits were bloody hanging out of a damned bakini top and he was like O.O
i know i can fucking tell when a guy is getting all excited about a chick i dont care that he looks at her i just care if hes letting his flirtations get out of hand i messeged her letting my presance be known and plus i would like to get to know her i mean all i know is she has big tits and her bakini its 4 sizes too small...i know that all girls would like to be know as something more than just a person with titties...-_- belive me i know i got big tits and all guys ever look at is my fucking melons! i have a face ya know... that why i have just face shots in fake you look at photos of me from the waist up and you would honestly think im fat due to my hefty twins now that im loosing weight.im just gonna pretand i didnt send that messege ill delete it or whatever
ill let him drool over all the girls he wants because i have a feeling hes keeping his options open in case he doesnt want me anymore.i'll try not to say anything about it to him...i think him and i need to talk about why i start drama...i start it because i can feel him drooling over a girl and shit and i feel his attention being stirred off else where and its a subconious thing that if his attention is else where on another female i feel i lose him....i've done some thinking to figuare that out.i dont want to lose him and i just hate the fact there are better looking girls than me out there witch is why im ttying to lose weight and be attractive again.

*sighs* he read the diary entry i had to tell hiom cause if he stumbled on it he would have gotten madder then hell. he deleted his account info why i dont know why.I need to remember that im here and those girls are in the computer they are miles away and im here with him he bought me a bus ticket to get me to be with him and then he and i bought what we needed to go to Va and to get him to meet my family and got my mooved to Oklahom he was the one that drove all the way from Va to Ok with hardly any sleep.i was always told to pay attention to what a guy does for you not what he says. scott loves me a great deal if hes done this much for me.i know he loves me but i wish my paranoia would go away i want to be with him and me being paranoid isnt makeing things better i been with him for a year and when we fight he always threatens to make me leave and go back home but then he ways says "no i dont want you to go home i want you to stay i love you" we stay alot of things when we are mad but lets be honest im tired of haveing the fact he could kick me out dangeling over my head.Hes the only guy thats shown me love with out saying it hes the only guy thats given me tough love that i neede and its help alot hes the ONLY man thats cried in font of me the only man thats ever provided for me and treat me like his wife it feel good i wish i knew why im still paranoid does my mind think "its too good to be true" i know this is real and he wont leave me for anyone i just wish i could belive the good things he and others say about me. i dunno i want to trust him and i hate this paranoia i fear if him doing what other guys done to me cheat on me and call girls and shit like that but hes not like that he has had possesion of one of his female freinds pics of her tits. and almost cybered with another friend and he apologized for it i shouldnt really care but i do ill find away to deal witht his i wish i could just disappear cause im sick of my paranoia

I actually saw my fiance's profile and at the very bottom its read any legal female that is in to showing themselves and has a web cam please messege me for my msn and yahoo address.....it hurt i feel like im not enough for him i feel like we are drifting away im afraid hes going to add these girls and talk to them and be friend them and call them and cyber them and or have fone sex with them and then ill be left alone to myself wanting to love him physically but ending up him being spent from cybering or from sex...i feel ugly and unwanted i feel second best i feel like a stupid ugly disgusting fat ass Bitch. i never do nothing right im repulsive i feel alone i feel sick to my stomache and i want to vomit the ice cream i ate im fat i wish i could beat the fat out of me i wish i had the nerve to cut myself in the places that would end all this. i wish i died those few years back.i simply cant stand the fact that another girl may see him and his body and him see another girls body it upsets me to no boundries. it make me want to purge my food and my organs and turn me in to a pile of nothingness.my mind inside is screaming and tears its hair out and beating on itself this si what my mind is doing to me.yes im a very jealous person and i HATE other women for reason i keep to myself i just find women to be sneaky and backstabbin and whores thus i hate myself cause i am a woman i love my gender for the good things but i hate the emotional shit that comes with it i hate women for being bitches and going after what is not theirs. im afraid of dark edge seeing another woman and talking to her and feeling the feelings of second guessing his choice of being with me seeing soemthing better than me out there and wanting that girl and not me haveing him make love to me and thinking of that other girl and or imagining her while hes with me...im so depressed and on the verge of tears i want to let him do this to show him i trust him i do but i fear alot of things i will keep this in mind as a test for me.i might cry for the next few weeks at night but yeah...im not gonna let myself have sex with him to test myself to see what happeneds to see if he wants me for me and not for other reasosn and to see if i want him for him and not those other reasons either.i love him so much i dont want to lose him maybe when my monthly is long gone i wont feel like this anymore i just dont want to loose him