im so tired and so scared....I want him back....but I know I have to wait and let him sort things out for hisself ......I hope he tries with me one more time....I know I can change...mom saw Friday night when I was with my friend spending the night and that was the same night I stoped her bf from beating on her I got a little bit of a busted lip and a sore eye I tought it was bruised.but anways My mom saw the grown up me .....un till she when on with a speach “its not fair to you that he goes out and have a good time” I wanted him to go before we furthered the relationship I wanted him to have fun ya know a final bash before we talked about marriage but of corse mom is paranoid and made me get paranoid and I got freaked out by my friend’s bf fighting me.
I need to vent im tired of crying I wish I can sleep in my bed last night the guest room was leaking and by my head I was ok but I wasn’t ok with the bugs in the bed I got bug bites on me >< ....but ill be ok I hope scott sees the change im going through my hope is that he doesnt send me to va and we work this out together we both invested a lot of time in the relationship and I hate for it to be just thrown away....mom think my me lack of eating and the sickness im going through is a false pregnancy or something I think its stress but when I get my money in the bank im going to get a pragnancy test just to get a piece of mind and to shut mom up.
I know I need to grow up wether or not im in scotts life but I know if I get one more just one more chance things will be better and differant for the best .I been praying lately last time I prayed over scott and I we got back together and it was great.....im so scared.....the most adult thing to do is not spend so much time on here and gets things done around the house keep myself busy and leave scott alone give him time to think but I will ask only questions I need to know like today I need to do more laundry and get the pile of clothes down and put clothes away and ill study alone the best I can.and I will try and eat something the past few days I am barely eating the thought and smell and sight of food makes me sick...my nerves are makeing me sick......I need a multi vitamin to keep my body working ....so far its just a mess and if I have to go to the bathroom at work jim and tammy beat on the walls and door so I cant relax and “do” my buissness...well I best get ready for hell ...I mean work O.O....bye guys and pray for me please .

these are the things a dom and or dominatrix and or mistresses or masters DO NOT DO!

The following acts are excluded, and are NOT negotiable:

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   Any type of barbarism
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   Scatology
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   Blood
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   Extreme pain

The following acts are optional and require the slave's written agreement:

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   Piercing
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   Tattoo
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   Iron marks
and flat out abuse of any kind because a appy and well treated and taken care of slave is a good and happy slave give them a reason t be obidient...unless they are special cases...any questions ask me

"To the Nice Guys"

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.

To every guy who knows which girl he wants.

To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)

To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.

To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

To every guy that said he would die for her.

To every guy that really would.

To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her.

To every guy that she cried in front of.

To every guy that holds hands with her.

To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

To every guy that would give his seat up.

To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

To every guy who told his secrets to her.

To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

To every guy that believed in her dreams.

To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

To every guy that walked her to her car.

To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

To every guy that gave his heart.

To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...

If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."

[If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left"]

ok one of my freinds messeges me saying "your fiance is telling some Nymph girl he misses her and and he thinks of her nastily and that hes gonna go on cam" imm like nymp...nymph..oh i known who that is..first off i gave her permission and second i dont give a fuck shes in uk but saying hes misses her makes me think hes falling for her..*skaes head* GOD DAMNIT!!!! i want him to have his freedom and i want him to be happy but i hate it when someone comesmto me and tells me what hes saysing to his fuck freind i DONT Care If i want to know ill ask him or her i talk to her Yeah. i gave permission now all of you shut the fuck up and keep to your own buissness!