AMANDA: Latin/Spanish name meaning love, (fit) to be loved, with love, etc.

ASHLEY: Anglo-Saxon name. From the ash-tree grove, under an ash-tree, ash-trees, etc.

ANDREWS: Greek surname meaning courage or bravery; of, from, or by a man; manhood.

Literally, my name means that I am "Fit to be loved under an ash-tree/in the ash-tree grove by a man." That is so cool. :0

I felt the sudden urge to draw, but then my pencil was BROKEN. D:

So I searched the house. No pencils. Searched my bookbag. Only two pencils: my retarded mechanical pencil and Dennis' half-sharpened pencil.

I decided to give the Dennispencil a try, but it's not sharpened enough to use. And it has no eraser. T_T Damn you, Dennis! Damn you! D:< *shakes fist*

Yay for Friday the 13th~

Did you know that some official-type people wanted to dispel the Friday the 13th rumors and stuff, so they built a boat on F/13, chose the crew on F/13, put them on it and sailed it on a F/13, and they were never heard from again. XD True story!

Today we played capture the football in gym against Dennis' and Sam Ballou's and Rayeann's and uh...some other peoples I can't remembers' class. It was fun because a bunch of guys swarmed the border and me and my friends did the same on our side, and we kept teasing the other team, stepping over the line and then back again before our flags could be pulled. I love that game, it's so much fun, especially with another class playing. I liked it better when it was girls/girls and boys/boys with that class though. So much fun-ness!

Only thing I didn't like was when some guy from the other team ran past, and when I tried to grab his flag he grabbed my boob. XD I felt very violated. And then I tried to run past Dennis and Alex and Jared and that other kid and Brandon to go get...I think Jay? Yeah, Jay. Anyways, Dennis half-tackled me and apparently missed my flag and grabbed my butt. ;__; I think it was an accident though, because however silly and odd Dennis may be, he's not the kind that would go around grabbing butts. XD He's just not like that, he's more polite and stuff. So lots of creepy violations in gym. XD

Oh yeah, my shirt today has the Playboy Bunny on it and says "Kiss Me" across it. Brittany was on the other team and she wanted to get me to cross the line so she could grab my flag and offered to kiss me if I did. XD She's so silly. I got a hug from her in the locker room, though. :3 That was nifty.

I saw Cameron this morning. :0 <3 Nearly had a heart attack, too. XD Me and Sam went to get our papers from the office, and he and I think Kyle walked in as we walked out. I was thinking OMFG it's CAMERON. But I didn't say it aloud, because it would likely scare the entire office if I was screaming his name. XD I can't believe I still like him. Well, not really like him, because his personality is unfavorable, but I think he's cute. All that floofy red hair and those baggy skater clothes~ x3

But I don't need him, 'cause I've got Khai, and Khai is gazillions of times better than Cameron any day, no questions asked, without a doubt. <3 <3 <3 <3!

Sally was being retarded on the bus again. I wish I could but I can't remember any of the stuff he said. XD

After school I went to Sam's, as usual, and we half-snuggled (or rather, laid next to each other for warmth) under her blanket on her bed. She's always (well, almost always) so warm. I hate it. XD I'm usually really cold. Whatever. XD

I fell asleep in fifth hour when I was taking my practice final. I woke up with drool on my hand. XD!

Fell asleep in math, too. I'm surprised Ms. Waters didn't call on me; she usually does when she thinks I'm asleep, and then I wake up and answer it correctly. XD

Oh yeah. My dad took me to meet his boss or whatever, and he called me STEPHANIE. That's NOT my name, thank you. D: Maybe he's finally going senile? He is, like, 60-something, after all. O_o I think one of my half-sisters from his side is named Stephanie, so...I guess he got confused. Or something. I guess stupidity runs in the family. XD

Nyyyyyyyyyyrb...Nyyyyyyyyyrb! Pheer! XD /random

Hrm...what all happened today? I can't even remember everything, today was so funny. XD

Well, first of all, on the bus, Sally (who is actually a guy; his real name is Brandon) was telling us that he alledgedly had muscle spasms that happen at the most inconvenient of times. Like once, when he was sitting in the movie theatre, and his arm spazzed and he whacked the person next to him in the head. XD He said he's not allowed in that movie theatre anymore. XD;;

Then...um...hrm... There was first hour, and I guess not much exciting happened. Kathleen whipped out a pair of pens and demonstrated how I would repeatedly kick Brian in the face. That was interesting. XD

And then we talked about what we were afraid of. For me it's mainly heights. We got into the discussion of various amusement park rides, and of course Dennis had to give his input. It was clever, I think, but I can't remember what he said.. *thinks* Oh well.

And second hour was boring as usual...as was third hour, except when Mike poked my stomach and I turned and punched him in the arm. XD; Not that it would've hurt him, but my hand swelled up for a minute. XD

Fourth hour...nothing fun. Fifth...nothing fun. Sixth...nothing fun. Got invited to Amanda's sleepover thing, though I can't say I really want to go. All they'd do is get high and/or drunk. n_____n;;;;

But on the busride home, Sally was at it again; he was thinking of parodies for stores we passed. "White Castle: Where our castles are for white people only. Jackson-Hewitt: Where Michael Jackson rapes Hewitt. Piggly-wiggly's: ...Self-explanitory." They were so dumb, they were funny. I can't remember any of the really funny ones, but...oh well. Sally's always good for a laugh, even if sometimes he is a complete dumbass. x__x

Um...what else happened? Nothing, I think... Well, whatever.

I ate leftover pizza and got another tummyache. Damned Pizza Hut, poisoning my pizza. XD

Oh yeah, when me and Sam went to our locker, she attacked Dominique. Then he ran off yelling something about Quadarrel. We opened the locker and Sam said, "I'll bet he'll come out of the bathroom in a second, just walk right out of there." Cause our locker is right at the corner next to the boy's bathroom. O__o

But anyways, a second after she said that, he walked out of the bathroom and I couldn't stop laughing. Till he grabbed my ass, then I stopped to beat him with my biology book. XD He grabbed my side and I whacked him again, and then he was telling Sam and I about the shapes of our boobs. XD Then some teacher came and told us to go back downstairs cause we were being too loud. XD

Hmmmm...yep, that should be it. My day in a nutshell, if out of order and with little detail. xP

Oh, and I've got a sticker from a cucumber on my head. ^___^ <3

You'll never ever find a girl that loves you more than me~

I've had that part of "Shake It Off" by Mariah Carey stuck in my head for...a while now. Hrm.~

Today was strange. At lunch, Dominique was telling Nick, Quadarrel and I about how in sex-ed/health, he had to watch videos on vaginas and penises. And he told us a vagina looks like an ORANGE. XD Nick told him it looked like the inside of a strawberry. 0.o

Then they proceeded to talk about when they lost their virginity. I had to tell Dominique that it only counts when you're having sex with a woman. Your hand doesn't count. XD

Then we had this dumb thing where they told us about the classes we were taking next year. At our table it was, left to right: Dani (I think that's her name), Brittany, and Jacob, and then on the other side, Samantha, me, and Hope.

We all got suckers at the beginning and we paid little attention to the semiar thing.

So here's our basic conversation, if I remember it correctly. D = Dani, B = Brittany, J = Jacob, S = Samantha, H = Hope, A = mwah~

A: *chews on her sucker* Omg! There's a gooey center! o.o
B: Is it white?
A: No, but...it's gooey!
A few minutes later, Jacob pokes at my boobs with some papers.
A: What're you doing?
J: ...Uh.
B: He's trying to touch your chest area.
A: Chest area? XD
A few minutes afterwards, Jacob is rubbing his leg against my thigh.
A: What are you doing? 0.o
J: Uh.
He continued to do that as I ignored him until he noticed it didn't bother me, then stopped.
A bit later, a few minutes before we had to leave, he made a grab for my crotch.
A: What ARE you DOING?! 0_____o;;
J: *half-grins and stands up, avoiding a kick from B and A*
And then I think we left... Quadarrel told me he was going to sit next to me but I managed to make Hope sit there before he could.

And...hrm...I can't figure out how to get into my EDP thing for school. Oh well. >.>

OMFG SHINIES. 8D

This morning Eddie (no, Khai... >.> XD; Eddie's this guy in my art class who's a total weirdo in the oddest of senses; you'll see) was watching Kathleen draw. We were supposed to all do something that we feel strongly about (the issue I addressed was racism/homophopia, for personal/family reasons, but that's not important right now), and Kathleen was drawing a really scrawny cat to stand against animal abuse. Dennis walked by and half-sarcastically told her it was a "cute kitty." XD

Anyways, Eddie felt, for reasons unknown, compelled to tell us that he once put bleach and ammonia into a can of tuna and fed it to a cat. Why he would ever do such a sick thing is beyond me, but then he told us he thought it was FUNNY. The half of the class that was listening, including Mr. Turner (the art teacher) and myself, assured him that he was a sick, awful, terrible bastard who would surely burn in hell after dying of starvation or suicide in a mental help facility. He was basically arguing with the opinion that the cat was stupid and therefore all stupid creatures should be killed, and that the bible says animals "have no souls." Somehow that got turned into a conversation about various issues including the war, Bush, politics in general, torture, rights, and other rather unrelated topics.

And then he told us that people aren't animals. You're scientifically either a plant, animal, or a rock. I know which one I'd rather be (a ROCK! xD).

So I'm sitting here eating half-burnt popcorn. Why is it half-burnt? Cause I was dancing in the kitchen and wasn't watching the microwave, which was set to defrost. XD

I have big hips. O_o I bumped into about three people or objects today and have to constantly squeeze past or through things. Oddly, my butt is small. Is that normal? I don't know enough normal females my age to really be sure. XD

I had an odd shiny obsession today. I stuck a piece of tape to my forehead that said "Hi, my name is SHINY" and glued some rhinestones to it. XD And then when Sam and I went to get Missy, I made them stop so I could pick up a shiny piece of paper off the ground. And me and Cheryl got into an argument on what is and is not shiny.

Yeah.

Oh, have I ever mentioned that I like taking random stickers off of random things and putting them on my forehead, shirt, or, on occasion, my butt? Cause I do. Like the other day, when I went to get a Gatorade out of the machine, and there was a sticker that said "Please open bottles slowly." Naturally, I wore it accross my hoodie all day. XD

Hrm...I think that's all. Now I have to go pee. XD!

Oh yes: I made Sam listen to System of a Down's "Shimmy." She was like, "Your boyfriend listens to CRAP." And I said, "Shh, don't tell him. XD" I hope we don't have to fight over radios and CD players and stuffs. 'Cause, well, that'd suck. XD

Yay, Fake's date is finally right! XD!

Well, today I had another odd conversation with Quadarrel. He's such a dumbass. XD Q fo' him, A fo' me, D for Dominique (a dumbass who hangs around at lunch). Yanno.

Q: Your boyfriend is SICK.
A: ...Why?
Q: 'Cause. You know.
A: Uh, no I don't.
Q: YES YOU DO. YOU'RE BOTH SICK.
A: Oookay then.
*time passes*
A: So why is my boyfriend "sick"?
Q: 'Cause...
D: She don't have a boyfriend, she has a girlfriend. Sam. They make out on the bus and hold hands and stuff, I SEE THEM.
A: XD What the fuck ever, Dominick (yes, I pronounce his name that way >.>)...
Q: No, no, it's YOU TWO.
D: *random spluttering*
A: Oh...my gawd...NO. *turns to the trash and makes a gagging, vomiting sound*
*Bell rings and peoples exit stage right XD*

Seriously, though. Not only is the thought of dating anyone who is NOT Khai enough to enduce vomiting, but really...Dominique? EW. D:<

I'm only 5'1", I found out, when Sam and I went up to the elementary to get Missy (Sam babysits Missy, who is ten). So...crap. XD

...Fake's days are off. O_o

~

"My Will" - Dream

sotto mezameru
hakanai omoi  zutto
donna toki demo negau yo
anata ni todoku you ni to...

"ato sukoshi" to yuu kyori ga fumidasenakute
itsumo me no mae wa tozasarete-ita no
aitai aenai hibi wo kasaneru tabi ni
tsuyoi tokimeki wa setsunasa ni naru yo

moshimo eien to yuu mono ga aru nara
toomawari shite demo shinjite mitai
"bukiyou dakara KIZUtsuku koto mo aru" to
wakatte mo tomaranai mou dare ni mo makenai

anata no koto wo  omou
sore dake de  namida ga
ima afuredashite kuru yo
hakanai omoi  zutto
donna toki demo negau yo
anata ni todoku you ni to...

tsuyogaru koto dake  shiri-sugite-ita watashi
dakedo ano toki kara  mayoi wa kieta yo

misetai to omou mono ga kitto atte
kikasetai kotoba mo takusan aru
egao nakigao mo zenbu mite hoshikute
matte-iru watashi wa yamete
"CHANSU" wo  tsukamu yo

anata no koto wo  omou
sore dake de  kokoro ga
tsuyoku nareru ki ga suru yo
hakanai omoi  zutto
donna toki demo negau yo
anata ni todoku you ni to...

anata no koto wo  omou
sore dake de  namida ga
ima afuredashite kuru yo
tookute koe ga  todokanai dakedo itsuka wa
kanarazu todoku you ni
shinjite  la la  la la  la la...
shinjite  la la  la la  la la...
shinjite  la la  la la  la la...

(Or for the Japanese-illiterate...):

Quietly awakening...
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
The way I see before me is always blocked
Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.

If there is such a thing as "eternity,"
I want to believe, even if I have to take the long way.
Although I know that I've been hurt before because I'm clumsy
I won't stop; I won't give in to anyone.

I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
But since then, my doubts have vanished.

There's definitely things I want to show you
And so many words I want to hear
I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
So I'll stop waiting
and seize my "chance."

I think of you,
and I feel like that alone is enough
to make my heart grow stronger.
I always, always wish
that these fleeting thoughts
would reach you...

I think of you
and that alone is enough
to make the tears start to flow now
My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday
it definitely will...
Believe.  la la  la la  la la...
Believe.  la la  la la  la la...
Believe.  la la  la la  la la...

Dunno why Fake is saying it's the fifth...'cause it's NOT.

But anyways...I feel sick. Damned Sam and her persuasive offers of vodka. >____<

Thankfully I got some advice from my friend Kimie/Emma, so...I'll feel better in a little while, I'm hoping.

And no more straight vodka for me. Dx

Just hopped out of the shower. I cut about five inches off my hair! XD!

It looks lopsided. If it weren't lopsided, I'd like it. I'd fix it and even it out, but then it would be too short. I'll just let it grow out and then fix it up at some hair cutty place. >.>

But...I'm all proud of myself. I feel like such a rebel. XD

Things You May Not Know About Me - Updated! (Again! XD) (Hey! Read it, people! ;.;)

-I love my Khai! <3
-I'm atheist/agnostic (not entirely sure just which one, yet).
-I'm bisexual.
-I don't plan to attend a college; instead, I want to go to an art school, likely the one in Washington state.
-I consider myself to be a pagan/wiccan, although at the moment I'm still collecting the things needed to actually become one.
-I do not snore when I sleep and can usually be woken easily.
-I love to sing in the shower.
-I also love to step outside, around midnight, and stand on my back porch and sing.
-I hate singing in public, and ultimately refuse to do it. Ever.
-If you ever hear me sing, it either means you've snuck up on me or you're in the shower with me. And you're both lucky and in for one heck of an earache.
-I have a small bit of hair near my face that's a lot shorter than the rest. Last year on the bus, some kids were (for some reason) throwing wads of chewed gum at one another, and one piece landed in my hair. My friend next to me, Sam, laughed, so I took the piece out of my mouth and put it on the top of her head. She took the piece out of hers and put it in my hair. We both ended up cutting it out with scissors. XD
-My hair is brown, long and straight, curly/wavy towards the end, and down past my shoulders. I do plan on getting it cut shorter sometime soon.
-I have blue eyes.
-I wear glasses, but I'm supposed to be getting contacts soon.
-My eyesight is in the negative numbers; I'm almost legally blind, I think. XD
-The smallest toe on my left foot overlaps the one next to it. It's a permanant trait/mutation/gene/whatever that I recieved from my aunt on my mom's side. I had surgery when I was very young to have it straightened out, but it didn't work.
-I have high metabolism.
-I have ghastly pale skin.
-Both of my ears are pierced twice, and I plan on piercing the right one once more, at the top.
-I'm debating on getting a tattoo. If I ever do, it will likely be small.
-I'm around 5'2" and get picked on a lot because of it. XD
-My hair grows really fast.
-I mean this in the least nasty/dirty way possible, but I like to suck and chew on things, or having something in my mouth in general. This probably stems from my old habit of biting my nails (which I have finally but proudly broken). I tend to be seen with things like straws, bottle caps, candy, and gum in my mouth whenever possible. (There is a bottle cap in my mouth at this moment. XD)
-I get really uppity about my nails, now that I've grown them out. I file and clean them more than what is probably necessary.
-My bestest best friend is Samantha.
-I am utterly terrified of needles.
-I've always been absolutely sure that I don't want to have children, but that may just be because most children I know apparently have ADD. o.o
-I don't have my wedding all planned out, but I don't want anything super-magnificent when and if the day ever comes. I'd be perfectly happy marrying out of a cardboard box in the back of an alley as long as it was the one I love that I was marrying. <3
-My ears were pierced a second time by my cousin with a safety pin. XD
-I always cry when sad parts come on during movies, even at parts that are barely even sad at all.
-I am debating getting my bellybutton pierced.
-I hate insects, especially spiders. The only ones I really like are butterflies and dragonflies; I used to like praying mantises and ladybugs, but I don't anymore.
-I tend to be an impulse buyer/spender. Don't trust me with money. XD
-Ironically, I hate shopping.
-I dislike sports of any kind, most especially partaking in them, but I -love- scatterball.
-I've never broken anything, but I got a contusion (deep bruise) in my left hand just recently from playing basketball in gym.
-I can type roughly 70-80 words per minute if I'm -really- trying and there are no numbers to type. XD The fastest I've typed was in the upper 90s to lower 100s, I think, but I could never pull that off again. I also don't type with all of my fingers.
-I tend to be tired during the day and much more active and awake at night. Nocturnal. XD
-I prefer wearing boxers over anything else.
-I have five cats: Po'chop, Shteve, Animal, Trouble, and Pyuu. XD
-I love all kinds of movies, but especially fantasy ones like Lord of the Rings.
-I have all of the LoTR books and movies/DVDs. XD *dork* I've also seen The Fellowship of the Ring at least thirty times. XD
-I love to draw, doodle, and do computer-generated graphics, although admittidly I am not too great at any of those things. XD
-I love to read. :3 I was reading "eleventh-grade level" books in fifth grade.
-On that note: *slaps a "DORK" sticker on her forehead*
-I also love to write. The sad thing is that I'm usually too lazy or my brain has fizzled and I can't think of anything good to write.
-I used to write poetry. I had one poem published in a book called "Eternal Portraits."
-I like taking little online quizes and surveys. They're great for passing the time.
-I am a -very- random person sometimes.
-I love watching flash movies on sites like the ones found on AlbinoBlackSheep.com.
-I've almost memorized the Numa Numa song and the Llama Song. XD
-My favorite ice cream is Snickers flavored, and my favorite candybar is a Snickers Cruncher. XD
-I become attatched to things and people much too easily than I should, and because of that fact, I get hurt a lot.
-I tend to be flirty without actually meaning to be. >.>
-I like to dance. I'm not saying I -can-, just that I like to. XD
-I've never been drunk.
-I've never been in a car accident or any other kind of serious accident.
-I love Khai~ <3 X3
-I get random bursts of energy.
-I don't like Red Bull.
-I don't like drinking water, but I don't mind milk, chocolate milk, or tea with honey. I find Kool-aid, Powerade, and Gatorade to usually be too watery for my taste. I much prefer sodas, such as Coke, ginger ale, and Vault.
-I like those candycanes with chocolate stripes more than any other kind.
-I hate wearing skirts. I only own one and I've only worn it twice this year.
-I've never played a serious game of "Spin the Bottle."
-I've only been kissed once. And it kind of...sucked. >.>
-I love Fruits Basket and Inu Yasha above all other anime series.
-My lucky number is offically 7 (Khai knows why <3).
-I like candy. :3 In fact, I've even got a shirt that says "I Want Candy." XD
-My computer sucks ass. XD
-I love all things Japanese or relating to Japan. It's a beautiful place with beautiful people and cultures. I'd love to visit someday. :3
-I know a -tiny- bit of Japanese. I aim to learn the entire language one day.
-I'm strangely attracted to shiny things. o.o
-I want to learn Hawaiian, too. :3
-I've showered with a friend before. But we were in our bathing suits every time. XD
-I've never gone skinnydipping.
-I'm terribly afraid of heights.
-I've been on a few rollercoasters, at Cedar Point in Ohio last year.
-My first rollercoaster ride was on the Raptor. That is one of the -worst- first choices ever. XD I thought I was going to die when I finally got off!
-I hang out with some of the oddest people in the world. But I love them. :3
-I pop/crack my knuckles probably more than is healthy.
-I think I've only owned one dog in my life. I have owned tons of cats, we well as a few mice, a parakeet, and a few fish when I was younger.
-I want to get a ferret one day. A white one. Named Draco. XD
-My favorite subjects are art, computers, and biology.
-I'm terrible at math, and absolutely hate it.
-I have a weak stomach.
-I love warm climates and absolutely detest the cold.
-I love hot showers. I usually only take a bath when I'm stressed or tired.
-I've never had sex. :3
-I've never ridden in a hot air balloon or flown in a plane.
-I've never ridden an actual train, either, but there have been some mini-train rides at amusement parks. XD
-I've never ridden on a ferris wheel.
-I'm rather picky when it comes to food.
-I have a younger brother, who I swear has ADD, as well as an older half-brother and two younger half-sisters on my dad's side.
-Sam and I have imaginary friends. :3
-I am really, really forgetful.
-I am lazy at home, tired at school, and stupidly hyper with my friends. XD
-I love reading webcomics. I plan to start my own some day.
-I still haven't found my own drawing or coloring style just yet.
-I have an unhealthy obsession with Draco Malfoy/Tom Felton. XD
-My favorite animal is the red fox. Second would be the Ethiopian wolf.
-My favorite colors are bright purple and bright or pale blue.
-I enjoy shows like That 70's Show, Just Shoot Me, Will and Grace, Dharma and Greg, Two and a Half Men, The Simpsons, Malcom in the Middle, Family Guy, and American Dad. Comedies. :3 I love Medium, too, though.
-I love Japanese, (more "toned-down") rap, and R&B music, as well as 'tranquility music' (like the sound of rain or the singing of birds with some soft music in the background), but I also like anything besides oldies, country, and holiday songs. Some of them are really pretty, though. :3 I especially love fast, upbeat songs.
-Some of my favorite books include Where the Red Fern Grows, LoTR and The Hobbit, Harry Potter, and the Redwall series.
-I tend to be rather bipolar and moody at times.
-If you couldn't tell, I'm thinking of all of this right off the top of my head as I type. XD
-I've never travelled out of the country.
-I've been to lots of states, but never Hawaii or Alaska. I can't remember all the ones I've been to, but I can probably tell you lots of ones I haven't. XD
-I -can't- name all fifty states. Or their capitols. XD
-I get really cold, really easily, and often wear a hoodie.
-I don't own a CD player.
-I don't listen to any of my own CDs because they're all from when I was, like, nine, and liked the Backstreet Boys. XD!
-I like to snuggle. <3
-I like sitting up late at night, with just a small light, and reading.
-I can't throw things. At all. XD
-I -hate- scary movies.
-I have the "Retarded Burger King" song memorized, I think. XD!
-I can't watch shows/movies that deal with surgeries or things of that nature.
-I choke on my drinks more often that normal. XD;
-Some of my favorite movies include How to Deal and What a Girl Wants. Yeah, I'm a sap for that romantic-y stuff. >w<
-I'm not allergic to anything at all, be it food, animals, medicine, clothing materials, or soaps. I'm quite lucky. :3
-I -love- seafood, especially shrimp and stuffed crab. *prods Khai* XP
-I love mixing Burger King Coke and cherry icees.
-I like canned pineapple as well as canned or fresh pears.
-I've always been afraid of deep water because I can't swim all that well and I'm afraid of drowning.
-I can't cook at all. In fact, I hate working with stoves and ovens because I'm always scared I'm going to burn myself. I've never started a fire, though.
-I've never smoked anything before, but I'm probably chock-full of secondhand smoke. >.>;
-If there's one thing I won't do, it's wash dishes. I don't mind getting dirty, but the concept of sticking my hands in water full of floating chunks of leftover food makes me sick. I can't stand it. >.< Also, I'm afraid of stabbing myself with the knives, since the water is usually too hard to see through.
-I despise Hilary Duff. If I could, I'd hurl a toaster at her head right now.
-I've been really clumsy lately and keep banging into stuff. >.<
-Nearly everything I do or have done would horrify my parents if they knew.
-I use this diary too much. :3 I'm a diary-abuser! XD
-I love Disney movies, especially the cartoons. My favorite is probably the Lion King movies and the Fox and the Hound. <3
-My favorite flower is the foxglove (oooh, big surprise, huh? XD).
-I don't mind sharing food, drinks, or gum with other people, even after their mouth has been on it. In fact, I sometimes encourage my friends to give me their gum while they're chewing it if I have none of my own.
-I prefer Die, Kaoru, and Shinya (Kaoru being my favorite) to Toshiya (and Kyo) of Dir en Grey. *hides from Khai* >.>
-Miyavi is HOTOMFG. O_O <3 XD DO NOT DENY THE MAJOR HOTNESSSSSSSS.
-I prefer "chunky" peanut butter to "creamy."
-It's seriously hot when you and your boyfriend have the same/similar taste in guys. 8D
-I don't like Reese's or Butterfinger's stuffs, or anything with peanut butter and chocolate. D: However, I don't mind either one separate.
-I like Almond Joys. :D

And this was all probably a LOT more than you EVER wanted to know about me. XD

Woohoo! It's almost New Year's!

...I should get drunk.

Haha...yeah...more psychorants 8D (no Khai, not your "3)" butteyes XD)

Accidentally chewed off a thumb nail ;; so I have to wait for that one to grow back ;;

I hate my glasses...but I'm "omfgBLIND" without them D: They get dirty so easily..it's not even funny.. *beats them*

I was all inspired-like to do a childhood doodle of my Ravenclaw character, but then I remembered I suck so it's a piece of poo now n.n

Logged onto devART and found almost 850 deviations to go through XD So...lots of fun @___@

*squees randomly*

Too much apple juice = tummyache, sweetened or not ;; Learned that the hard way ;;

Hm...I need Jay Leno and Conan O'Brian right about now...only I'm like 2 hours late ;; for like the millionth time this month ;; Oh well~

I also need some eyedrops..my eyes are being eeeeeevil >.< Can't see too well, even considering my eyesight >.>

But...I digress..my drawing's been improving a lot, and for once, I'm actually proud of myself <3 Now, if only I could learn to draw male bodies n____n;

Hm...maybe I need a model? *pokes Khai* XD!

I guess I'll do a search and try to navigate the millions of pages of PORN D:

Mmkay. So. Reeeeeeeeeecaaaaaaaap tiiiiiiime~

Yesterday (12/27) Sam, Missy and I went to the movies to see Dick and Jane. It was a great movie, but with Missy only being ten or so, I don't think she fully understood it.

We drank all the Pepsi, and the dizty guy at the counter misheard and only gave us one instead of two, and none of us felt like getting up. n_n And then we ran out of popcorn, too. Most of it tasted funny 'cause it only had salt on the top. n_n

Then we went to Sam's. Missy went home to eat and Sam and I talked about girly boystuffs. n____n <3 T'was fun, bragging about my Khai and listening to her rant about Raul.

And thennnnnn Missy came back and we listened to Eminem. n___n <3 (Eminem = muchluff~) And Sam decided to straighten my ubercurly hair, so it's all prettypretty today. n__n

And then her mom took me home and she assumingly went over to Missy's mom's to see Raul. n__n

Today I learned how to draw sexy anime guy eyes. n__n Decided I needed to draw Draco Malfoy n_________n <3 and in doing so I made him look ubersexy~ I'm so proud of this little WIP doodle I've got right heeeeeere~ n__n

I'm abusing the "n__n" face... x_x;;

Hmmm, I need to work on my signature. 'Cause at the moment, I haven't got one. e__e

Po'chop doesn't land on his feet. He lands on his face. >__> XD

Annnnnnnnnnd... I learned unsweetened apple juice tastes nummy. n__n <3

*randomly pings hearts at passers-by*

Earth, Wind & Fire - "Groove Tonight"

Let's groove tonight
Share the spice of life
Baby, slice it right
We're gonna groove tonight

(Chorus)
Let this groove, get you to move, it's alright, alright, alright
Let this groove, set in your shoes, so stand up, alright, alright

Gonna tell you what you can do with my love, alright
Let you know, girl, you're looking good
You're out of sight, alright

Just move yourself and glide like a 747
And lose yourself in the sky among the clouds in the heavens

(Chorus)
Let this groove, light up your fuse, it's alright, alright, alright
Let this groove, set in your shoes, so stand up, alright, alright

Let me tell you what you can do with my love, alright
Gotta let you know, girl, you're looking good
You're out of sight, alright

Just tell the DJ to play your favorite tune
Then you know it's okay
What you found is happiness, now

(Chorus) x 2
Let this groove, get you to move, it's alright, alright, alright
Let this groove, set in your shoes, so stand up, alright, alright
Let this groove, get you to move, it's alright, alright, alright
Let this groove, set in your shoes, so stand up, alright, alright

You will find peace of mind on the floor, take a little time,
Come and see, you and me, give a little sign
I'll be there after a while if you want my love

We can boogie on down, down
Boogie on down, down
Boogie on down, down
Boogie on down, on down

Let's groove tonight
Share the spice of life
Baby, slice it right
We're gonna groove tonight

(Chorus)
Let this groove, light up your fuse, it's alright, alright, alright
Let this groove, set in your shoes, so stand up, alright, alright

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2-3 hours in openCanvas3.5E (*taunts Khai* XD) + crappy-ass mouse.
Lineart copyright Steph K./GaiaOnline's "[ ipod ]."
Color by myself (Amanda A.).

And no, I'm not coloring anything for you.

Unless you're Khai. :3

I don't think my mother realizes how much I hate having my picture taken.

It took her five photos of my middle finger to figure it out. XD

And... Girls don't like boys, girls like cars and mon-ay! XD Had that stuck in my head for the longest time. It's -so- not true.

On the first day of Christmas, my true love gave to me: a [Music/Melody] in a pear twee~

...XD

Well, I suppose today was better than I'd expected. I got lots of wonderful birthday wishes from my girlfriends (and a few guyfriends, too), and Larissa even gave me a card.

I got fifty dollars and another card when I got home - this card was a cute kitten in a pocket, as opposed to the slightly offensive (but of course, in good thoughts on Larissa's part) three wise men card. At least Larissa wrote me something. It's great to know that she thinks I'm unique and doesn't want me to change for anyone. :3

I also got some bracelets, hair ties (which is good, since I frequently lose mine), and a bit of make-up (which I thankfully got to choose myself, because otherwise I might end up looking like a clown XD;;), and then my dad went for Burger King. I had my first two double-cheeseburgers. XD And a Coke icee. :3

My tummy hurts a bit. Oh well. My birthday wasn't the most amazingly spectacular thing in the entire world, but I'm content.

I've also got a holiday drawing to scan, but... *shakes fist at scanner!* Hrrmph. If I ever get it scanned, I'll put it up. It's cute.

So...I'm -finally- fifteen, then. Whoo. Somehow I thought it would be more exciting than this, but that was when I was younger. I guess I've matured a bit since then. That's always good, but Sam and I were laughing til our sides hurt on the bus, so I've still got a sense of humor. X3

I flounced around school all day sending out "happy Winter Solstice" wishes. Y'see, I'm atheist (which, as Yahoo! puts it, is the "denial of the existence of God or gods and of any supernatural existence, to be distinguished from agnosticism, which holds that the existence cannot be proved"), so I don't celebrate the whole Christmas thing, or Hannukah, or Kwanza, or, um, anything else you might think of. But since most of my friends are Christians, I give them gifts anyways since they give me some too. I mean, it'd just seem greedy and selfish not to, really, and I have nothing against Christmas or it's meaning. I just don't believe in it, is all. :3

At lunch, Shteve finally confessed his love for Sam. And then threatened to impale me with his breadsticks if I told her. XD She knew already, of course. Shteve is just silly. x3

I think Shrew (emph...long story; his real name is Jacob) is dating Brittany. I hope not. They've been hanging out a lot lately, and Brittany's my friend, so I kind of imagined her with John. And Shrew's my ex, so I know what he's like, but maybe she likes the undescribably annoying and immature. *shrugs* And...you people have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about. XD!

And I think Dickie-doo (oh my gosh...-really- long story, but his real name is Chuck/Charles) is back. I hope not. I mean, I really, really, really hope not. He's one psycho...person.

And Ashley's back! Whoo! She is the awesomest, coolest, bestest cousin ever. I remember when she pierced my ears for the second time...with a safety pin. XD And she told me lots and lots of things when I was staying with her when we first moved here. I do mean lots, and I think she was a major factor in me becoming bisexual. Um. Not that she and I -did- anything. O_o We used to stay up really late at night and discuss things like that, and she was so open to discuss things of that nature that I think it really helped me embrace my admiration of females as much as I do males. <3 That all sounded really weird. XD

Speaking of that, as well as rereading the previous entry, Quadarrel and I got into another...conversation. We were walking down the upstairs hallway this time.

A: I wanna go hoooooome.
Q: I wanna go home. And eat.
A: I wanna go home and talk to my boyfriend~
Q: But. You don't have a boyfriend.
A: Yes I do.
Q: No you don't. You have a girlfriend.
A: Yes I do. No I don't. Wait. Shut up? *confused* >.<
Q: So you admit it!
A: Admit what?
Q: I've heard...things about you. I know your secret.
A: ...What's my secret? o.o
Q: You're B-...I-...
A: N-G-O? XD
Q: No! B-...I...-S-C-E-X-U-A-E-L.
A: What? XD Biskeckseeyul?
Q: You know what I mean!!
A: ...And?
Q: So you do admit it!
A: Admit what? I never denied anything.
Q: Someone told me about you and that one girl.
A: What girl? O.o
Q: Kaitlyn?
A: Who the fuck is Kaitlyn?
Q: Or Kristen or Kirsty or whatever!
A: I don't know anyone named Kaitlyn or Kristen. Or Kirsty.
Q: Yes you do. You -lie-.
A: No...I don't know anyone with those names!

Then the bell rang and I went downstairs to my class. He might've been talking about Gia, because I know Sam likes to get into my accounts and snoop, and she was doing that a lot when I was dating Gia. With her living in Virginia though, there's nothing we could have actually done. Gia's the only girl I've ever dated, and I really don't know any people with those names. Oh well. He was probably just going into one of his odd rants again. XD

This was an amusing conversation I had with Quadarrel today during lunch. He followed me to my locker, as usual (well, ours -are- right next to each other's XD) and we were looking out the window when he started an odd conversation. Well, I can't say it's odd for -him-... XD Q = him, A = me. X3

Q: ...So there's this tree out there.
A: *laughs* Okay?
Q: I wasn't finished!
A: Well, finish then!
Q: There's this tree out there...
A: XD
Q: Quit!
A: Okay, okay, I'm listening.
Q: So there's this tree out there. And there's, like, this -lump- under it. And the lump...has a penis.
A: XD What the hell are you talking about?
Q: That tree! *points*
A: O_o ... *grabs his apple juice*
Q: Don't drink it!!
A: ...Why?
Q: 'Cause I've got a cold sore.
A: Oookay.
Q: Do you WANT my cold sore?
A: ...No?
Q: Besides, it's on my butt.
A: If it's on your butt, that's not a cold sore.
Q: What -is- it, then?
A: Herpes? XD
Q: *after a moment* You know we're going out.
A: ...Since when? O_o
Q: Since now.
A: Ooookay then. o.o XD
Q: We have to kiss now.
A: Nooooooo we don't. o_o;
Q: Yes we do! *makes odd motions with his tongue waving in the air*
A: ... o.o
Q: Like that!
A: ...No.
Q: I...gotta pee.
A: So go to the bathroom! It's right around the corner!
Q: I can't! I won't make it!
A: XD Why not?
Q: Becaaaaaaause...those guys went in therrrrrrrrre...
A: o.o What guys?
Q: The ones over there!
A: *doesn't see anyone*
Q: And besides, they might be -doing stuff- in there. *demonstrates with his hands*
A: o.o
Q: *grabs her hand*
A: What -are- you doing??
Q: Put your hand...right...here...
A: *jerks her hand away and whacks him with her book*

Then the bell rang, I think. He's so stupid, though. XD

[Hook - Ciara]
I ain't never had nobody show me all the things that you been showin' me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together, baby that's what you told me
And I believe it ('cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like you)

[Verse 1 - Bow Wow (Ciara)]
Now I done been with different kind of girls
Like I done seen em all but ain't none of them at all (like you)
And I done seen the best of the best
Baby still I ain't impressed cause ain't none of them at all (like you)
If you know how I feel when I chill
If I'm seen with a girl then she gotta be just (like you)
And baby that's the way I feel
And I got no choice but for me to keep it real
'Cause when we first got together started hanging out you was
Skeptical at first had to figure out if
I was the kind of guy to try to dog you out, but
I ain't that kind of guy you tried to make me out
You found out when you turned into my baby
I showed them other brothers how to treat a lady
I let you drive when I ride that Mercedes
And I ain't trippin or actin shady 'cause baby you know

[Hook - Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you been showin' me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together, baby that's what you told me
And I believe it ('cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like you)

[Verse 2 - Ciara]
And every time I think about you (I cry)
When you ride when you call when you come I (ride)
Your love is amazing to me
Can't wait til I see you (I wanna be wit you again)
And every time you're out on the road (I make a trip)
And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget)
That I'm your (main chick)
Who got that (game chick)
One and the (same chick)
The one you can hang with

[Hook - Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you been showin' me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together, baby that's what you told me
And I believe it ('cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like you)

[Verse 3 - Bow Wow]
Okay when you hit the mall pop tags spend a few Gs (jazin?)
Hit the runway to a new season (season)
It ain't nothin it's you the one I care for
Feel like I ain't doing enogh that's when I share more (share more)
I give you this give you that what you need love (love)
You know I got it holla at me if you need love (love)
And affection cause i'll be your protection
Kinda hard job but i'll do it to perfection
And you can tell that I ain't tryna let you go
I get with you when I can so that's how I let you kno
And you be trippin cause sometimes I gotta go
But you the first one I hollared to right after my shows
And I was trippin in a sense I was tense
From my body loose around you what imma do without you
I gotta get it together say whateva
Since I met you my life seems so betta

[Hook - Ciara]
I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you been showin' me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together, baby that's what you told me
And I believe it ('cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like you)

[Bow Wow & Ciara]
I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you been showin' me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gon' always be together, baby that's what you told me
And I believe it ('cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like you)

This is one of the prettiest R&B songs I've ever heard. :3