dear, dear diary,
i wann tell a secret...
but which one?
want to know a secret?
it's like my body is trying to fuck me up
i've become nocturnal recently
literally sleeping through daylight
and my heart is all over the place
it's broken from danny
numb and without feeing
all bar a slight, no, major ache for my past love, richie
and to add to that
it's trying to compensate its pain
by thrusting me towards someone else
rather stupidly too
seeing as it'll never be, even if we did live close
aaargh
i need smophie :'(
my last post makes me sound sick.
i probably am
i've had a bad couple of months
my first christma s away from home was lonely
it was lonely because i moved away from my family
in order to be with somebody that i loved
and a little while before our 2nd xmas together, he left me for somebody else
and i'd like to think i've handled it pretty well.
when i told my mum, she broke down and cried
when i asked her why, she said it was because she knew that i thrived on making other people happy, and all of the time i was with him, i neglected my own needs in order to satisfy his, and where he had taken something from the relationship, gained a lot, i was left with nothing, mentally and emotionally.
i think she's right, i'll admit i gave my all to him, but i dont know any other way to be. and the saddest thing is, i'm getting really upset that i dont have anyone else at the moment to do everything for, to cook and clean for, to understand when he goes awry, to comfort when he's upset. to be on call physically, mentally and emotionally 24/7 .
i got myself an albino frog today to add to my menagerie
my zoo and I are so hardcore.
need naming suggestions
s/he is rather petite,
and of course, very white.
spankin!
NME have asked me to interview Gogol Bordello when they come to club =]
question: should I wear purple?
this diary is about glenndoline kennedy.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm a fool
you just lost the game. boooshaaa
Splash would like to remind himself that it's really fucking stupid to like someone you have no chance of being with.
I am no longer a fan of fake, it depresses me.
hwcbpwqncowow3
foof
I must wholeheartedly recommend Hapsburg for their exquisite Absinthe range
would anybody like a Death in the Afternoon?
hurry up, I'm running out of champagne!
you're so vain
I bet you think this entry's about you
;]
I go away for 4 days
and somebody's moved in to my house.
wtf?!
well I joined Fake today and haven't a clue what to do...
...anybody want to give me a hand? =] x