[Moka Akashiya]'s diary
Written about Thursday 2010-07-22
Written: (5238 days ago)
My heart is yours,
yours for life,
so keep it close,
close by your side.
And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. In this life, I was loved by you.
sad but weak.
tough but meek.
shady but light.
hurt and pain
while walking in the rain.
tears both good and bad,
these are the emotions i have.
I lose my heart's
Flower-fragran
When I allow myself
To be owned by anger.
****VIRGO****
Dominant in relationships.
Always want the last word.Loud.Cari
.... pretty true actually....
Going to class be back a lil later leave some love everyone <3 byes
I have learned...
That trust is a powerful thing
You have no idea what it may bring
It can sting your heart
and tear apart your soul
Or it can warm your heart
and enlighten your soul
I have learned...
That trust is hard to discover
It is buried deep down under
People say it is east to gain trust
I agree with them in a way
For them I have lost all trust
I have decided to go my own way
I have learned...
That trust means to lust
and lust is a must
Sometimes it can be an illusion
but it is something you can not deny
Therefore I have come to this conclusion
Trust everyone, but not the devil inside
oh so bored in treatment right now ..... still upset but what can i do with needles in my back*tear* .... cant wait to go home....
To the nice guys left
To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.
To every guy who knows which girl he wants.
To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...
If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."
[If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left"]
leaving now going to the laundry mat becasue my dryer broke if ya wanna reach me call or text my cell
be back as soon as i can
byes
I Love Chris<3
In such a weird mood today... but a good weird... about to make some changes in my life and im pretty happy about it! I have one person to thank for that.. he's amazing and he knows who he is and im so happy i have him in my life .. im hope he feels the same!
Im done with the past and all the heartache and pain it has caused me .. im looking towards the future and what it has to offer me i know the ppl that care about me would want it that way and i know she would want it that way and i want to make her proud(R.I.P Grandmother) Oh how i need her here right now love you mama!
I want to thank my friends so much for being here for me through all this because it meant alot to me and truly needed it
you all know who you are and you truly do mean a lot to me so dont forget that =D
Now im just hoping that this happiness stays it seems like it will and i pray and hope it does
<3