All right. So it's gone. There were copies made, but it's not that's going to be doing anyone any good for anything, so why not forget about it. I'll try but probably won't be able to purge myself of the negative emotion dredged up by transpired events. I was talking to this one guy, someone always makes good sense, and he pointed out that my shabby little house is in need of renovation. I have done some modest work on it prior to today, but now I've actually released some of that which I fear to let go of and may have even given up personal preferences that let people know more of what I'm really like instead of the the façade I mask myself with. Hmmm, makes me feel resentful-ish for some reason. But he was right. All this was before was a dumping ground for the targets of my mockery (to all I have offended, I apologize...except that one person, I really don't like that one and that's okay), but was that really the best use? Was that really all I could muster up? Was that really even what I wanted? For a time, I was fine with that. Now I am no longer satisfied with that and shall have to spend some time making this something that I actually like, instead of just doing whatever gets me by. I really ought to go back to doing jigsaw puzzles in my spare time.

Now things are getting scary. I've just realized that I've become so accustomed to seeing blatant porn images here at Fake that I expect to see them. I was actually disappointed that Lance's drawing didn't have a stiffy in it...and complained to him about it. No girl wants to see a naked man with a limp penis, though. Awww, look at how cute it is.

Another thing - I'm pretty well sick of this crap where guards are threatening people with their guardian status. Get over yourselves. You're not better than the rest of us, not above reproach, or even gossip. This is some weird little pretend sex place, hardly somewhere where you have to crack down on any and all dissenters and act like crimes have been committed when all someone did was mention you and the fact they have an opinion about you that you may not appreciate. You absolutely make yourself look worse by being a bitch about it, especially if you threaten those people and brag about being a guard. Watch me get into trouble for saying this...

I just fucking love the way people wanna make it sound like I'm messaging them left and right. Twice now shitheads have tried to act like they receive a barrage of messages from me about that damn wiki and my quotes on it. Wrong. I send out one message and say whatever I wanna say and there it is. 

I told Gir if he had a problem with me to go ahead and take it up with me since he now had my attention, and he doesn't want to address me personally, he wants to cry about me insulting that creature Lynney on page 2, where there's an audience. 

Fine, you're not going to bother me with that. I'll be more than happy to lay into you, you idiot. I'm not the one backing up that nasty ho Lynney, she of the moustache and greasy-ass hair and THE MOST PATHETIC emo scars I have ever seen - they aren't even scars, for the love of god, they're mere scratches. Give me a straight razor and let me demonstrate for you on your nice wide expanse of abdomen how it's really done. 

The wiki, argh, the wiki...that bitch has taken on a life of its own. Never saw it turning into what it is today when we first thought to create it. This is one big study of sociology and human behavior, and I'm riveted by the way it all plays out from day to day.  

Still thinking about that last one...I mean seriously...when you look at actual porn, they have semi-nice sets where the action is taking place, not just the chair in front of the computer. Although I've seen that too. I remember this one issue of what was it, Swank, that my old bf had that had a guy and two girls in a dentist chair. That was creative. Let's class it up a little, people.  

I've been noticing that many of the photos that guys have of themselves or their dicks frequently feature some part of their computer in the background, usually the keyboard, while most photos that girls have up don't have the computer visible in them. Maybe guys are more into using their computers for sex, or they're too lazy to move away from the computer before taking that hot dick pic, I don't know. I just thought that was interesting. Personally, I'm less turned on by the pics where some part of the comp is seen. I realize that internet porn is astoundingly better than the traditional venues, videos, mags, etc, but when I see your keyboard in the pic it makes me think you might be spending all your time online wanking off (not that there's something wrong with that.) Maybe it's just me. 

So today Jon and I decided it would be nice to have a section in our wiki for people that we think are decent looking instead of just the usual bizarre. Tomorrow I'm going to comb through the members on this site and search for all of the people I think are good looking. I'll also keep searching for that elusive scary hairy muffy muff. Could be a busy day.