gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

im going to go and manically clean.
fuuuuuuuuuck people. fuck one particular person who i spent way too much time hung up on, fuck all the people who decide to dump their bullshit on me, fuck the people who take my for granted and most of all fuck THE FUCKING FLY IN MY ROOM.

thankyou and goodnight :)

oh she wants money money money money money ;D

Shopping tomorrow, should be good, hopefully get a new dress, some pearls, a bag and a long grey cardie :)
Then off for lunch with the dad and getting planty of shut eye for saturday. Bring on the blue hype plez [:

i hate it when people take me for granted tbh.

cokecokecokecoke;D

bwahahahahahahahahahahaha, i just had chicken noodles and they were rather yummy if i do say so myself. What started out a crappy day has really looked up ^_^


YOUR SOULS ON FIRE; IT'S BLACK AND WHITE

wrapped up topshop coked up sweethearts go

Jamie t is reeeeeally good, suprisingly.
And i bought the nicest clip on earrings today [:
it's been great

Well hello diary, I havent wrote in you for a while ^_^
The past 2 weeks have been so insanely busy -_- i dont know if i like it that way or not, because i generally end up being at someone elses house and miss my bed. Thursday was a really awful day until about 5 then it looked up slightly. I really need to quit smoking because its giving me a permanent cough, and this does not please me :/
i should really get dressed but its too hot. I may become a fully fledged nudist x]

PULL!
Last night was crazy =D waking up in someone elses bed in a strange location after watching family fortunes! :P. Kate's got kissing chlamydia. ^_^

FUCK ME I'M HUNGOVER!

Having a rest today :). Kinda wish i was doing something though, but meh, what can you do. I'm kinda sick of being the one who makes the effort, so i've given up, and i wont back down this time =D. Sitting watching hannah montana being extremely hungry and considering having some beans on toast but i have slimming world and i want to lose some weight (:
I want some new people in my life, and somebody to shake everything up and maybe sweep me off my feets in the process xD never gonna happen though :P
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Wow, a whole week since i've wrote in my diary, i'm not keeping on top of things am i? :/

Well, it's been one of those few days where you want to rip out your ovaries and give them to any fucker who will take them (you know what i mean girlies). It has been and still is hell x). Every month it happens and i just never seem to get used to the pain.

But yars, this has been a pretty hectic week. Been out for a meal, to the pichas twice, and generally seen everybody ^_^. Saturday night was pretty amazing too. SAMBUCA SATURDAY. I love my little simmy hamster so much xD. Free from hmv too ^^
I put a fishbowl on my head (without alcohol in of course), dressed up little simmy in hair extentions and rambled on about having a strawberry in my bellend xD

It all kicks of tomorrow again. BRING ON THE HOPPINGS!
^___________^

I feel so at peace with everything right now :)
but i am so unbelievably shattered, i must get some shut eye.
Goodnight gorgeous people of fake (LLLL)
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good day :)
bored now though :/

Pop it, lock it, polka dot it (:

Hannah montana really does kick ass :'). Don't you dare judge me for it, i dont fucking care ^^

I'm really getting good at this walking thing, i was walking for like two hours today, it generally help me to chill out and clear my head. Today has been pretty uneventful but still great. Atreyu for leeds 09! This made my day, my week, my month and possibly my year. I positively bum atreyu (:

Decently happy today jah (:
went for a really long walk around half 5-ish, it's really relaxing. If i lose more than 5lbs this week im going positively jizz ^^

orrr my god, big argument with dickhead features who inspired my last diary entry. i cannot believe some people :@. the fucking nerve to ring me and want a normal conversation?!

it seems to me the people i meet on fake are nicer than the people i meet at normal places o.O

i absolutely love it when i see people for what they really are man [:
i also love how people get bored of me and decide to throw me aside. i must be really fucking boring.

It doesnt really phase me anymore tbh, im not going to let it bother me all that much. i have gallows, the fact im losing weight and my real friends to keep me happy.

I'm on a diet, so im totally going to keep you updated on how much ive lost :D

Oh god, listening to im yours by jason mraz (the live version) almost in tears O.o

so soon, we will be here, together
soon, we will be here, forever
i love, i love, "taiyou"
our love, our love, "taiyou"


one sits at a freezing window
while the other lies upon the green grass in summer's heat coming so prematurely in the last months of winter
gazing upon the same moon as the star dance on high
listening to eachother's sweet voice from across the azure sea
it was here where fairytales are conceived
and the true feelings from inside will never fade


*sigh* >_<

so like, i know i was supposed to keep his name out of my mouth, but i cant stop thinking about this dream, if i dont write it somewhere i will go crazy.

So i was outside in my garden and my window backs out onto to garden. And i'm sitting and all of a sudden keesee is there and he throws himself out of my window, kinds rolls off my roof and ends up behind my garden shed. So i go to see if he is okay and his face is covered with blood but my god he looked beautiful as ever. and i say "oh my god are you okay" and all he said was "i knew i'd meet you someday". So i take him inside of my house, and he has like a suitcase and stuff here, and i have to keep him in my house without my dad having any knowledge of it. And there is a lot of time in the dream where me and keesee are lying in bed and i just remember feeling really amazing when i was dreaming it >_<. Then basically, the next morning i wake up and kate is there, and she tells me keesee has gone to france O_O. So i run off to france and search everywhere for him, and i find him and i kiss him. and then i woke up crying O_O

Im sorry for saying your name dude, but this dream has really thrown me off balance >_< Anybody good at analysing dreams?

Im sorry for saying this out loud

hmmm, today is being wierd >_<
my sinuses hurt (i know right, how strange plez?)

i feel kinda upset and im missing stuff i didnt think id ever really miss;
i miss having a guy in my life who really likes me; i miss goodmorning and goodnight texts; i miss getting phonecalls just because someone wants to hear my voice; i miss kisses that mean something; i miss just the thought of someone making me smile and feel good inside. a whole load of bull i havent had for like a year and im only missing it now. sucks.

oh my god how confusing is life? xD
I confuse myself tbh, i want one thing one minute, and the next i want something totally different bwahaha. I'm so indecisive it's scary o.O

I know what i wants now though ^_____^ and its all going pretty well as of an hour ago (:

<sub>I have really quite enjoyed the past 24 hours man (: I'm pure on top of the world at the minute.

So far i have;
Made a cracking sand woman (complete with tits and penis, which kate later sat on)
Found a horse that looks like the ginge from QUOTSA
Scared the man at chicken cottage with my diet coke drinking skills
Succeeded in buying the most beautiful and sexy shoes that ever have existed
Spent some time with nathan
Absolutely obliterated the past 'record' and made a new one that will most likely never be broken
Been in a state of shaking/passing out due to the skillz of a certain dude
Realised just how great my life is at the minute
& have 3 cans of fosters at my disposal this evening.

There is my rundown of my life recently. It's so much better than yours (:</sub>

meh -_- theres no point xD