[Crazy Indian]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2009-05-05
Written: (5475 days ago)

this is the time that I change things for a good reason and I think that Crazy Indian is more appropiate just to let my friends know...

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Written about Monday 2008-09-01
Written: (5721 days ago)

Today is just a day like any other day,
it makes you feel that all you have conquered,
and have finished just don't feel right.
You want to do things all over again,
but when you see the finished project, you
just can't believe that you have done this...

What is a job that is not done right,
only you can see the mistakes, yet others adore,
what talent you have, the things you do.
Respect is one thing that truly comes,
yet you do not feel like you deserve all this,
the only way I take it is, is to be true...

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Written about Sunday 2008-03-16
Written: (5890 days ago)



                                        I have seen...

The things I have seen
are nothing to what
I am about to admit...
I see myself with someone
new, and with someone
I really care for(Shani),
I find it hard for me to
say the words,
But to tell you the truth,
I have seen...

You are the one who
helped me see,
there is so many
other ways to live my life
than alone, and you
are the only one
I really do need, and,
I see only you...

You, Shani, are the one who
helped me to see
life is what you make
of it, and no matter what...,
I know I really need
you now, more than ever.
I wish you could see,
I see only you.

The more I think of it
and the more, I truly feel,
are the only times you are
near. I know you and
love's everlasting. I want to
tell you how much I
care, but to tell you the
truth, I see only you,
for, I have seen...
Heaven, Nevaeh, in
my arms.


I need you.

Along with the morning sun
I tend to see only Shani,
only if you, will let me be
the one who cares for you.
I want to be the one who
holds you close and
promises you forever and
to tell you, I care for you.

I just want to tell you
everything, and exactly how I
feel for you and all that
matters to me is how I feel for you.
I long to hold you close
and whisper in your ear about
how beautiful you are and
to tell you, I need you.


There comes a time...

There comes a time
when someone as special,
and yet as close to the heart as
the one.
The only matter of the heart
is her, for Shani is special,
She will always be, and only be
the one.
My love and only True Love,
My Shani Chloe Cain.


My lovely, Shani Chloe

The Sky is golden with
your smile,
The rainbow will always
shine upon,
All that come within
your grace,
will truly see the internal
beauty from the Dawn.

I will never give up trying,
for the word try is not in my vocabulary,
I really do need you,
and to tell you the truth,
I Love You.

By your side

By your side, I have seen
just what I really need to be,
Everything that comforts you
is what, my love will ever do.
Seems to me you are my,
one and only love that will last.
Love that can't ever say never,
for you are in my heart, forever.
I just need to know in time,
will you accept me, By your side.

By your side, I have lived,
through the best and worst, I give;
My love to you eternally,
living for you and you alone, faithfully.
Seems to me, my heart will
never be the same without you near.
Hurting so much, I need,
your tender touch, so that I can see,
I will always and faithfully be...
By your side.


Only reason

No matter what shape
or condition my heart is in,
It still beats for my
long lost and only reason.

Even though it seems
at times it keeps me in,
my heart still has life, for my,
Forever and only reason.


Thank you Lord,...

Thank you Lord, keep Michelle
in hand and also in our hearts,
Let her know, she has never left,
with her Husband, she never did part.

She shall watch over all of us
to show, Love is, ever yet, so strong,
For she placed an Angel among us
to make sure, we all can belong.

Now we need each other, more than
we will ever know and yet to see...
Even Angels can get hurt, for they
are the ones with all of our misery,
(and just one hug could last an eternity).


In my heart

I am looking forward to the day
I see you, again,
I just don't want to be lonely anymore
my Love. You promised me
I wouldn't be alone anymore, and
I am not alone, for Shani is always
in my heart.

In my heart and in my soul, that is
where Shani belongs, forever in love,
I'm missing you right now, but
I know now our love is forever,
we will never be apart.

You are truly at home now, I
know home is in 2 places,
but one; Heaven and in my heart.
Think about it, my heaven
is in your happiness, your smile,
your laughter, my happiness
is truly in you. "I Love You", and
where my love dwells is the place
You now call home,
In my Heart.



Here comes the night

I feel as if the world
can see the emptiness deep inside,
as if everyone knows
about all the lonelines I feel inside.
I know there should
be nothing I should dread, everytime,
but my feelings stray,
knowing, here comes the night.

Here comes the night,
time for my feelings to try to hide,
Here comes the night,
bringing the loneliness back to life.
Here comes the night,
showing me how lonely, is my life,
Here comes the night,
prying at the strands of my heart tonite.

I know I promised to
go on with my life and be happy everytime,
but I can't see if it will
ever happen that way without you by my side.
Everything was you, my
love, my heart, my soul and even my life,
all I ever did was for you,
but now, I see, here comes the night.



Angel Eyes

I could just sail away,
in those beautiful eyes,
I get lost everytime,
as I gaze deep inside your eyes.
Hoping you could feel,
me near as I silently,
and yet, ever so softly,
whisper your name tenderly.
As your gorgeous hair,
flows, so caringly over,
and around you, to part,
there way on your shoulders.
Just makes me tremble,
knowing you are there,
the way you make me feel,
at times just doesn't compare;
to anything else in,
this lonely and simple life,
but no matter what, I love,
to get lost in your, Angel Eyes.


With me

As I lay here, by your side,
watching the slow movements as you breathe,
I still wonder and ponder, how can I,
Me of all people, have someone like you, with me.

The silhouette of your pretty face,
makes me smile, now I know why, I believe,
I slowly go in for a kiss on your cheek,
I have heaven in my arms, My Angel is, with me.

All my worries are gone, now,
that I have you near to my heart and me,
I see things a lot more clearly dear,
I have nothing to fear about loneliness,
as long I have you,
With me.


By me

I have been thinking, about our love
and what it really means to you and me,...
when I first left, it felt like my world
was being torn apart, I needed you by me.

Such little time to prepare, our hearts
needed the other to keep from feeling the pain.
I wanted the time to go by faster so,
I could be next to you and hold you again.

All that really mattered to me was
over 200 miles away, and yet so close, that's where I belong,
my future wife was waiting for me,
Darling, you are the only one, who ever made me one.

I just can't see myself without you,
you are the one who made my life fully complete,
I missed you so much, and I long to hold
you, forever, baby, I still need you beside me,
(you make me complete).

That is the way I feel most of the time, I seem to be missing something in life which is the utmost and most important part of my life I will never give up on and will see that is going on forever. This song called "Faraway," explains a lot to the world and should be put in.
For the time we spend together here in earth will be limited, but there in heaven time will be endless, we could spend all of our time in each others arms and cuddling whenever we want. When things are done and I have you forever in my arms there will be no tomorrow, no yesterday, but the present and all that will be spent in each others arms, for that is all I want.
All that I want to really tell you is that I Love You, truly, madly, and deeply, and with the most sincere feelings that anyone could ever feel in this vast and lonely world.


Smile for me

Smile for me, my lovely Rose,
and show me why I truly love you,
your laughter is one to compose,
everything about you is why I love you.

Smile for me, my lovely Lady,
and give me happiness with love so true,
your eyes, they just drive so crazy,
so, my darling, I can say, I love you.

Smile for me, blow me a kiss,
give me all the reasons in the world to see,
how in the world could I miss,
your beautiful face, but my darling, could you...
Smile for me.

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