Happy New Years! I am happy, what else to say?

Sorrow calls my name, beckoning my soul to escape this cage of confusion,
I want to be happy, but why can't I?

I cannot sleep, wide awake as the midnight hour rings the second of a new day, Thoughts of insanity roll through my mind like the thunder outside my window, All is silent inside this empty house, almost as if it is in a eternal slumber, Is there ever a chance of escaping from this hellish prison or shall I perish like the night in the wake of the dawn?

I often wander what is the purpose of love, love was the one emotion that broke my Wild Heart. Why can't I just live with out love? I am just another human being (Fallen Angel in a past life) that is wrapped up in this ridiculous eternal theme. I need to break away.