so i lay my head down to sleep, an all i can think of is you, when knowing deep iside i dnt think u feel the same....... i cried myself to sleep so many times, bc i dnt think u kno what u've dne to me... i watched my heart get ripped away, an all i wanted was u to keep it.. an deep in my heart i hope we have another chance... i dnt want u gone from my life i always want u in my life...
  i never wanted the good-bye, i wanted u for life.. an when we looked each other in the eyes an said "I LOVE YOU" i meant it with all my heart.... i watched from afar, as u was supposed to been there for me, an i watched u turn ur back an walk away.... an never once looked back...
   i gave u my word that i'd never leave u, an that i'd always love you.. an i will never stop... bt thats how u kno u can take me for granted, i stood my ground, an now i will stand against the pain, i will not look like a fool again.... when i handed u my heart, u knew i gave u everything...
   i stared at the blank pages, wishin that u wouldnt of left like that... just like those pages i was blank, i had nothing to say, i couldnt do anything, i had no emotions to feel at that very second... bt i knew they was comin. i wasnt ready..
  tears streaming down my face, an i couldnt stop it, rage all in my body, my blood boiling,, how could u do it? an expect me not to feel it..... pain, thats all it was, hurt thats all u caused, alone thats all u wanted an now i have to face it all alone.. no matter how many people are here to help me, i'll face the pain within alone, an i'll scream in these shadows hopin that maybe u'll see, my love for u was true an real...
    as the skies cry to me, i cry with them, an i punish myself for what u dne to me.... when it wasnt my fault... bt all i can think is that it is.. an standing in the rain i kno these tears arent visible to the world, bt i feel the warmth of them, rolling down my face.... an i kno that my love was to much to handle, bc its so strong, an i loved so deep...
    as people watch me lose my mind, an they see me going insane, even as they thought i was pulling myself together, i'm screamin, an yelling... telling these people i'm not a show, stop watching me in pain.. i wouldnt watch u, i would try to be there beside u, trying to help ya...
    i cant change peoples minda, bt sometimes if i could, i would... an i will find another love, an it will be greater than any love i've ever had..
    love made me, an love will kill me... bc its already showed me that i'll die in love with some one..