I am soo tired...
Tired of being that girl who's "just a friend", "the little sister" or "one of the guys"
I want to be the girl who's "yeah she's mine" Or "I love her soo much"
Why is it that every time I feel like I could love someone they turn right around and tell me that they love someone else? Why can't I ever be the one who's loved?!
Damnit! I'm tired.. And as of right now I give up...
I give up on looking, I give up on trying to find "Mr. Right" because as far as I'm conserned, he doesn't exsist!
Or at least not for me anyways...
If he did exsist, wouldn't I have found him by now? Wouldn't I be happy?
I know one thing's for sure, I wouldn't constantly be getting my heart broken over and over.
If it breaks any more there isn't gonna be any left!

All around me my friends are in love and happy, they've all got boyfriends, and are engaged, and are pregnant or already have kids.
Me I've got nothing!! But splotchy eyes, and runny nose, tear streaked cheeks and a heart that's ripping at the seams...
I'm happy for my friends, I can't be nothing but happy for them. But I do feel a pang of jelousy when I see them, their eyes shining with love and a smile on their faces.. I wish it was me... I wish so bad that I was in love and was loved back...
But I guess that's not for me...
and its not fair!!

Ok well I think this is where I'm gonna end this..

       Sadly your's
          ~Kristen