I was hanging out with Beth on Tuesday which was nice, because I feel like we haven't been able to do that in a long time. Anywho, we were waling through the mall and we went into American Greetings. We were looking at all the cute stuff they had, read a few cards, she acutally picked one out for a friend of her's (sooo cute^^) I saw this a rack of little books and I picked up the first one that caught my eye. It's called "I Am Beautiful" I started to read it out loud to Beth and after a coulple of pages she told me to stop because she would probably start crying. I stopped, but I also baught two of them, one for me and one for her.
I really wish that I could buy one for every girl, because we all need to hear how beautiful we are, even though we don't believe it when someone tells us so. I decided to post what the book says so that the girls can read it and know that they are beautiful!
Ok here it goes...

I Am Beautiful
         By:Diane Mastromarino

I Am Beautiful...
   Part of being beautiful is the knowledge that I am not just saying those words, but truly believing them...
Each morning I will smile at the woman in the mirror instead of scowling. I will be sensitive to her needs and treat her with kindness.
I will be proud of her accomplishments and accepting of her faults. I will allow her to be herself. she is me and I Am Beautiful. 

I Am Beautiful...
  When my hair's a mess and I haven't put my makeup on yet.
Perfection is overrated. If everyone in this world were perfet, we would all be exactly the same. Its the very things that make me different that make me beautiful...
I am unique in my appearance, in my wisdom, and in my emotions. these are the things that set me apart, make me irreplaceable.
              Today...
        I will write down five things I like about myself.
        I will start a gratitude journal.

I Am Beautiful...
  when I'm authentic, when my body and mind are at ease, and when I'm compleately myself.
Sometimes I lose myself in what the world expects of me. I will not try to confrom to what I "Should be." I will create my own box and step outside it as I wish...
I will should from the rooftops, "World, here I am!" I will let everyone know my presence is worth noticing.
             Today...
       I will avoid magazines that tell me how I should be.
       I will be happy with myself just the way I am.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I speak the words that are in my heart and stand up for what I believe in.
Bey speaking up and being present, I am making a contibution to the world. My voice is powerful and significant and beautiful. My voice deserves to be heard.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I am passionate about the things I do.
I wasn't born just to take up space; I was born to make a difference. I make everyday count even if its just in one tiny way...
Wvery morning I wake up, I have the choice of what is to come. I choose to be beautiful by leading a beautiful life.
            Today...
       I will write a letter to the editor about something I believe in.
       I will add passion to everything I do.

I Am Beautiful...
  when I make lemonade out of lemons.
I accept that someds will be harder than others. the rainy days teach me to appreciate the sunshine. They help me to grow stonger, wisher, braver, and more beautiful...
With one deep breath at a time, I will move through today in to tomorrow and every day will be the best tomorrow yet.
             Today...
       I will breathe deeply and let the negative energy flow out of me.
       I will have a good cry.

I Am Beautiful...
   When I am honest with myself and others.
I will take time to get to know myself better--to experienve my emotions, appreciate my body, and reconnect with my spirit...
This is my time to acknowledge my hopes, dreams, and desires. this is my time to discover all the beauty I hold within me.
              Today...
        I will have a conversation with myself that begins, "If I could live life all over again I would.."

I Am Beautiful...
  When I see every day as the best day of my life.
I will not dwell on past circumstances. I will keep focused on today and be fully present in the moment...
I will ask myself, "What will I do with all that the world offers me?"
And my anser will be: great, marvelous, fabulous things that only I am capable of doing.
               Today...
         I will attempt something I failed at in the past.
         I will do something unexpected.

I Am Beautiful...
  When my mind and boyd are in harmony.
My body is my responsibility, and it is up to me to treat it with care. I will listen to my body and repect it's wishes. I am my body and my body is beautiful.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I walk barefoot in the grass and dance like a child in the sun.
I remember how it felt to be a child...
So young and care free, so innocent and inspired. I will try my best to find that child with in me-- she is there waiting to make my workd a better place.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I reach my hand out to others.
I am most myself when I am surrounded by my friends. I will create friendships that are built on companionship, support, and unconditional caring...
True friendship is a beautifier of mind, body, and spirit. It completes my life and makes me beautiful.
              Today...
         I will contact someone I've lost touch with.
         I will send a friend a thank you note.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I help carry the burden of someone who has a heavy heart.
My existence in this world makes a difference in the lives of those around me. Even when I feel weak or withdrawn from others, I must remember that my presence still holds importance...
My smile creates a circle of smiles, my laughter brings others a simple joy, and my company brings comfort to those I share my time with.
I don't have to do something gradiose to make a difference. I just have to be me.

I Am Beautiful...
  When I honor myself and belibe that the world is a more beautiful place with me in it.
This is my live, and I won't always be able to make everyone happy. I am not being selfish, but acceping reality. It is my turn to step back and give myself a chance to breathe...
My experiences over the years make me who I am today. I change and grow with each one. I will not fear what is to come with age; I will not look back on my earlier years with envy. Each stage of my life offers me the chance to accept new roles, accomplish more feats, and grow more and more beautiful.

I Am Beautiful..
  When I am hopeful about what is to come, when i embrace the future with open arms and welcome what it has to offer me.
There is one me in the world-- one unique, extraordinary, beautiful me. I hold the utmost respect fo myself-- for my mind, body and spirit...
I do my best to treat myself with care and fill life with only those things that effect on my life. I won't always make the right choices or have all the answers. I will make mistakes and life will go on; that is all I need to know...
I will take chances and not fear what is to come, I will trust in myself and never give up.
 
I am a courageous, intelligent, indipendent woman.

I am everything that is beautiful.

HAIR CATASTROPHE!!!
So I was hanging out with Jennifer and Alyssa last night (I had to get out friend Linesy a baby shower gift) and I saw hair dye on sale, I thought to myself (and out loud) Oh it would be nice to dye my hair back to its normal color (or as close as I can get)
Anyways, we all went down the aisle and was looking at the different colors, I chose a medium brown color (I think we all did actually) we punched out and the two of them took me home.
I got all my stuff ready that I needed (when I got home) to dye my hair, Added the color, and waited the 25 minutes. I hopped in the shower to rince the dye and then I finished washing, when I got out of the shower I looked in the mirror and saw that my hair was BLACK!! Not BROWN but BlAcK!!! I wanted to cry :(
Not only does it look bad on me, but it totally wases my skin tone right out, I look like a friggen ghost!! I think that I'm going to have to buy another thing of hair dye and re-dye it.
I donno, what do you all think??

I am soo tired...
Tired of being that girl who's "just a friend", "the little sister" or "one of the guys"
I want to be the girl who's "yeah she's mine" Or "I love her soo much"
Why is it that every time I feel like I could love someone they turn right around and tell me that they love someone else? Why can't I ever be the one who's loved?!
Damnit! I'm tired.. And as of right now I give up...
I give up on looking, I give up on trying to find "Mr. Right" because as far as I'm conserned, he doesn't exsist!
Or at least not for me anyways...
If he did exsist, wouldn't I have found him by now? Wouldn't I be happy?
I know one thing's for sure, I wouldn't constantly be getting my heart broken over and over.
If it breaks any more there isn't gonna be any left!

All around me my friends are in love and happy, they've all got boyfriends, and are engaged, and are pregnant or already have kids.
Me I've got nothing!! But splotchy eyes, and runny nose, tear streaked cheeks and a heart that's ripping at the seams...
I'm happy for my friends, I can't be nothing but happy for them. But I do feel a pang of jelousy when I see them, their eyes shining with love and a smile on their faces.. I wish it was me... I wish so bad that I was in love and was loved back...
But I guess that's not for me...
and its not fair!!

Ok well I think this is where I'm gonna end this..

       Sadly your's
          ~Kristen