[Rushuna]'s diary
This is for [Shisnick990]
the poem is pretty self explanatory.
But what gets me is that he did it on my birthday.. who does that??
You told me you love me,
I thought it was true.
You walked out the door,
I'm left feeling blue.
My heart broke to pieces,
like a crystal glass.
This pain that I feel now,
I wish it would pass.
You were a blast to my ego;
a blast to my heart,
Now they've both been blown apart.
When I asked you if you meant it,
you shouldn't have lied.
Because when you broke your promise,
my heart all but died.
I've done nothing but cry,
since you walked away.
But I know I'm strong enough,
to smile again some day.
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Written about Friday 2010-04-09
Written: (5134 days ago)
is wondering what's really wrong with the new picture up loader??
Funniest effin movie ever!!!
Written about Thursday 2010-01-07
Written: (5226 days ago)
A place in the Great Lakes Crossing Mall.
NEVER EAT THERE!
I found a Hair in my food! It wasn't just sitting on top or anything, I had to pull it out of my noodles, it was covered in the sauce that was in my meal. I showed it to the waitress and she asked me if I wanted a new plate. I said no, I wanted to speak with the manager. And when she got there she was waving her hands about in a frustrated fashion, like it was my fault there was a hair in my food, She said "I'm sorry, but this sort of thing happens, hair falls out."
I was so fucking pissed off. When she walked away I took the chop stix off the table and stuck them in my purse. My cousin asked me what I was doing and I said, "I'm sorry, it just happens, people steal things."
She started cracking up and she paid the bill, my meal was taken off. After she paid we walked out with out leaving a tip.
We are never going there again. And I suggest you don't either!
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So I have to say this.. I'll probably say it again next time too.. but I justs never get tired of saying it...
Talk to you all NEXT YEAR!
Usually you hear people saying, "Merry Christmas!" but I'm going to be different and say...
And yet... I'd feel like a scrooge if I didn't post this...
[They don't like to play the freeking song I've been requesting every day for the last month!]
[Every time I call and request the song "Ayer" by Flo rida they talk to me for a few minutes and say that they'll play it. I listen intently for the song.. They ALWAYS put me on the radio... but they never play the song... ]
The darkness grips at me like a vice,
squeezing out my breath and I
want to bawl.
The emptiness is making my
skin crawl;
Now I'm as cold as ice.
It creeps around me,
snuffing out the light.
It muffles out the sound,
and takes away my sight.
Who knew it could be scarry?
It cloaks me like a thick void.
Now a-days I'm oh so warry;
like shooting star in the sky.
Some people think I'm silly,
for being so scared.
Other's agree willingly,
but to me they just don't get it.
They don't feel how it grips at my soul;
tearing at my hair, like an ugly troll.
No matter how hard I try,
I can't seem to get away.
The more I try to calm my fears,
the more I want to cry.
Emotion is flooding through me now,
its getting harder to breathe.
I'll get past the fear some how,
while I clench and grind my teeth.
This fear is very real to me,
I don't know what to do.
I wish I could make you see,
what I feel, in my eye, is true.
When you mock and make fun,
all you see is the sun.
You're not being very fair,
and I can tell you just don't care.
"Turn on a light," you say,
"and it'll all go away."
If it were only that simple.
I could play it like a cymbal.
I feel as though the darkness
could take me down and out.
On an invisible map, with an
unfathomable route.
I'd bite my lip bottom lip
as it'd take me.
fighting back my screams,
my tears blinding me so I can't see.
"Into the darkness you must go!"
a thick voice said.
"Do not worry, in the morning you'll
be dead!"
Will you notice I'm gone?
I guess I'll never know...
Well, that's the end of that..
Sadly.
I just had to say good-bye to one of the most important people in my life.
He's deleting me and blocking me so that he never has to talk to me again, as long as he lives.
As much as I don't want to say good-bye, I know I have to. So Good-bye, it was nice nowing you, take care of yourself.
As much as you don't want to believe it, know that I did and still do love you.
~Kristen
I did a really stupid thing. I am so mad at myself that I can't even think straight. I just want to cry, because I made the most important person in my life angry.
I just acted before I thought about what I was doing. And once I thought about it, I realized that I messed up big time.
Now I don't even know if the love of my life with ever forgive me. He's never once been angry at me, just at the situation or topic of conversation. But today, he was, is, angry with me. And I feel absolutely horrible.
I've said sorry a hundred times, and I'll keep saying it until he believes me. But after this I don't think that he will.
When I told him that I love him, he said that if I loved him so much I would have thought what I did through before I did it.
I don't know if we'll bounce back from this.
Hell, I don't even know why I'm putting this all on here.. Maybe wishful thinking? Hoping that he'll read it and forgive me? But I doubt it.
I do, though, hope that he does read this, so that he know's how sorry I am. I don't know how else to say it other than the ways that I have. I can't take back what I did. I can however, prevent it from going farther than what it already has. Wheather he believes me or not is the question.
Well, If you are reading this, then please know that I am truly, truly sorry. And I do hope that we can get past this. I do love you, with my whole heart. I hope you feel the same.
I love you.
Truly.