So today was the self defense final
I blacked out but everyone says I did really good I got away really fast and won really easily. All I know is that I got attacked twice and then I was sitting across the room in my uncle's lap panting for breath

Okay so we're going to explain my current sort of what the hell? mood.
First of all Wednesday and again Monday [hjj jjj] asked me to marry him.
I told my demonic mother and brother [Nafycen Tekalcey] and [Daemon]. Their reaction differed only in one small detail. Nafycen said he had to do it right meaning ring and all....Not sure why she thinks he won't but whatever. Edward on the other had reacted like he wanted to kill my boyfriend(now fiance I suppose). His reaction confused me since he has never before cared what I do

I don't care what you say. All of you want one thing because I'm not good enough for anything else. I'm tired of pretending I'm worth something when I'm not. I hate myself. It's not okay. I'm not alright

Okay folks here it is

The only good thing to happen this week: I have a girlfriend

Now for the bad shit
1) My dad tried to kill himself
2) Social services is being gay
3) My shoulder is quite painful
4) Sam and Kate my sisters are being super bitchy
5) I'm feeling f***ing lonely too

Lately I feel like crying for no reason whatsoever I don't understand it

All right folks I'm going to tell you this right now my parents are getting a divorce and This is making me unhappy. So if you really want to fuck with me go ahead because I am more than ready to kill someone. I have had just about all the stress I can take so don't push me unless you want to know what the word "Bitch" really means got it?

All right folks seriously I am on the verge of suicide. Nothing in my life seems to be going right and I've been carrying a teddybear nonstop since Tuesday

I hate my life. I hate everyone asking me if I'm okay. Do I look okay to you? I hate my parents. I hate this god damn school. I hate that no one realizes how close I am to suicide. I hate that the only thing holding me back is what my dead baby brother would think. I hate that every day I wish to god I'd died the night before. I hate that no mater how often I tell people I'm fine I know deep down I'm not. I hate that everyone seems to think a hug will make everything better. I hate how stupid and small I feel. I hate hateing myself. I hate crying every night because the pain won't go away and it just keeps getting worse no matter what I do. I hate that I don't have the guts to cut or tell anyone what's wrong. I hate that I don't trust anyone. I hate that if I stop to think I want to cry.

Helll no on rye

I'm so excessively happy my best friend is moving back to where I live I can't even tell you

Omg I love sex I'm not a virgin anymore!

When you break the heart of a girl like me
When you make a girl like me cry
You had better watch out
Because we don't ever forgive
And we never forget
So in 10 years remember this is your fault
You had your chance and you threw it away
Whatever else happens I'm going to make you regret
Breaking my heart and making me cry
I'm the kind of girl who goes farther
To spite those who have hurt me
One day you'll see my name
And you'll know I still haven't forgotten
And I most certainly haven't forgiven
You'd do well to remember
That you only have yourself to blame
Because when you break the heart of a girl like me
When you make a girl like me cry
We don't get even we get ahead
So you had better watch out

Marpsy
So yeah that's me

I hate that I ever fell for you. I hate that I thought I had a chance. I hate that you're my type. I hate the way you look. I hate that you hug me. I hate that I can't stop thinking about you. I hate your eyes. I hate your bread. I hate that whenever I see you I feel like jumping for joy. I hate that you helped me.

I hate life and I hate Josh. I want to go die he;s such a jerk I don't know why I like him and I never will

I hate my life guys home and school is driving me to the edge of insanity so don't MESS WITH ME

Okay folks I have a few things to say
First if you aren't in my price range I may stop talking to you
Second anyone who wants bitched out will say something that is against my rules
third I don't want to deal with morons

So I'm back from hell and very needy lately so if you want me just find me

So yeah summer
Anyways for those of you who know me after tomarrow I may not be on as much for a while don't worry I always come back

I got out of hell at long last I am ungrounded

Hey hell isn't so bad but I think I like it here better