Good news the sick pups are goingto make it we caught it in time
It's been one of those weeks that makes you question why you get up in the morning. In 2 days we have lost 3 puppies to what is most likely parvo. The worst part is we could be losing all three litters. To make matters even more happy joy joy I'm losing my grip on sanity. Something isn't right.
Although *working hard to think of good things* I have a new little brother (always the eldest why?) His name is Travis and he's 18 he got kicked out so now he lives with us
So I wanted to tell people cuz I felt like it. I'm getting a kitten. It's not off it's mommy yet but he already has a name. This little guy is named Arthin. My kitten is a silver long haired cat with tiger stripped markings.
Between the shit with my ex gf and now ex bf I think I want my hole back. My gf's family is harassing me of fucking facebook of all things. She's pissed at me because for some reason I'm a bad person for wanting to still be at least friends. Oh fucking well. My bf all he wants is sex. He's laid 21 girls that I know of in the past month making me feel like a fucking whore. Well FUCK YOU! I'm sooooooooooooo
Exceptions to this rule because they've already done so
[115, Snow Owl]
[Sinful Raine666]
[bootcampsfeet]
[Lord Arthin]
[foxyvixen17]
and pretty much anyone else on my house
I didn't ask to fall for you. I didn't ask for you to decide you hated me
Episode 3 of Bleach very hard to watch. Orihime's goodbye to her brother is the hardest part it makes me cry like a two year old
Thoughts on my birthday
I hate it. Enough said. The person who remembers without an internet reminder is so rare it isn't funny most of my family doesn't remember even with the reminder. I give
Get this straight I've finally got my head clear. I don't need anyone to be happy. Yes I'd like the other half of my soul but they'll come to me when I'm ready for them. That said I'm sick and tired of people trying to change who I am. Yes I have my issues and I need some help with those issues but the underlying personality the underlying person there is perfect the way it is. I'm not going to say I'm perfect no one is but I'm done with those who keep trying to change me. Yes I'm overemtional I get depressed easily but I smile and laugh just as easy as I get mad. Yes I'm tenderhearted and try and protect people even when they don't need it but it's what makes me happy. I am a caretaker deep down and I need to stop trying to be a caretaker by being a lover and be a caretaker by being a friend. Coming to this conclusion has lifted the black cloud of guilt that has been hanging over my head for days. I feel better than I have in months maybe even years
The house I am currently in residence has mold poisoning we found out today recently I had been having some pretty nasty pains in my stomach, headaches, chest pains, shortness of breath and nasty joint pain. three animals have passed because of this and I'm certain more will be harmed
Never again
I never thought I'd fall in love
I never thought I'd break
I never thought I'd lose everything
Never again
I won't ever lose my heart again
I won't ever break again
I won't ever lose myself again
You never thought I'd love you
You never thought you'd break my heart
You never thought you'd see me lose myself
Never again
You won't see me still loving you
You won't see my heart broken again
You won't see me lose myself again
They never thought they'd see me fall in love
They never thought they'd see me break into pieces
They never thought they'd see me lose myself
Never again
They won't see me falling in love
Tehy won't see me breaking into pieces
They won't see me lost beyond hope of being found
Never again
I'll never show my pain
I'll never let my scars heal
I'll never let them see how much of me is broken
Nope never again
Marpsy
*face in hands* I've done something very very very wrong. I don't know that the scars on my heart are ever gonna heal I don't know that I'll ever be the same. I don't know that I want to. I should've never broken up with Midnight but now it's too late just like always. It's just too late
Don't See
Don't see the tears in my eyes
Don't see how I feel
Don't see my pain
I have never wanted to say
I love you
So bad and known no matter what I can't
I don't want you to know
Know that my heart is slowly breaking
I don't want to let you back in
To my heart so you can see
The sharp edged broken bits on the inside
Don't see the scars
Don't see how much it hurts
Don't see how much I love you
I don't want to feel anymore
Fell like my heart is gonna shatter
I don't want to see
See the way you're looking at her
I don't want to know
Know I'm not the only one
I wish you'd lie to me
Say I'm the only one for you
Even though I don't stand a chance
Not against her
Don't see me cry
Don't see me beg for release
Don't see me die a little on the inside
I don't want you to know
Know how bitter I am
I don't want to be angry
Angry I can't say no
Not to you
One look and I'll do anything you ask
I know it's ridiculous
But I don't want you to see
See how much I love you
Marpsy
Just Another Girl
I'm just another girl
Just another in a line up
Just another pretty face
I know I have no chance
I know you don't ever really want to be with me
Yet somehow
I keep wishing
I keep hoping
Knowing my day is never going to come
My heart is broken in pieces
Every time I start to hope
It ends in pain
Sometimes I think maybe I should try
To forget about you
I've been singing for so many years
Hoping praying wondering when it was my turn
Knowing it'd never be my turn
I'm just another girl
I've never been anything more
Just another good time
Just another forgotten face
I know my heart is split in two
I know I can't have it my way
Yet the hope comes back no matter how hard I try
To rid myself of it
Sometimes I wonder
Why I bother
I'm just another girl
Marpsy
I have come to a conclusion. I don't give a damn if you cheat on me, I don't care what you do just don't lie to me. I don't care if you want to fuck some bitch because I'm not putting out, tell me and I'll find someone I know and trust that's willing or we'll work something out.
Is this a bad attitude?
I think I want to die. I think the pain is going to kill me. I think that love sucks. I think that if I could ever remember why I said yes in the first place I could forget her but there were so many reasons to love her near the end I forgot which one was the original reason and now I'm stuck feeling like it's all my fault and I'm a horrible person for doing this to her. Yet somehow it isn't my fault but it hurts so much I just want to crawl in a hole and die.
A rose blooms in the darkness no one notices. The same rose dies no one cares. A rose blooms in the twilight a few people notices. The same rose dies a few people care. A rose blooms in the light everyone notices. The same rose dies everyone cares. Which rose are you? Are you the rose that blooms in the darkness that no one cares about and no one ever notices, the rose that few people cares about, or the rose born in the light that everyone loves. I am the rose born and bred in the darkness
Today a great a noble soul has passed. Therapy Kitty. Gandalf. Onyx we all had a different name for him but the long and the short of it is this morning one of our cats passed unexpectedly.
Missin' You
I know better
YOu've hurt me something fierce
Yet late at night when everyone else has passed into the realm of dream
I stay out of it
Because I'm missin' you
I know you don't deserve to be missed
I know I should have walked away
That I'm lying when I say I hate you
I know that you don't miss me
But since you left I've been missin' you
Laughing and smiling in the afternoon sun
Your stupid fake accent
Oh I know what you're thinking
That I miss somethin' else
Maybe somethin' you couldn't provide all the way out there
The truth is I miss talking to you
Truth is when I slip off into dreams
You're holdin' me close
Whispering in my ear
I keep missin' you when I wake up
I wanna cry cuz I know
I know you've found somethin' new to catch your eye
I know you don't care I'm missin' you
Doesn't matter to me
I know who you are
And unconditionall
Still you keep sayin'
No way you can miss me
I was a dick
Yeah you were I won't deny it
I broke your heart
Yeah you did but I forgive you
No way you miss me
Too bad I do you dick
I love you
And I keep missin' you
Marpsy
Okay let's make this clear Midnight [Dangerous Furry] are done. To top things off my mother a lying coniving bitch engineered things to make it look like I stole her medication just as I was moving
Eyes: deep brown
Aura: Dark blue
Midnight the love of my life doesn't know if this is going to work. I want it so bad. The first time I want something with all my being she doesn't know if it'll work out