I slipped this weekend and fucked up and now i have cuts on my wrists

~*The Heart, The Drum Two Beats One Sound*~
Sometimes we all share one sound,
one strength, one heart beat.

A sound that courses through our veins like wildfire,
shaking our souls and our inner desire.

That is the beat of our hearts and souls,
it is called the beat of the drum.

Let the beat of the drum into your heart and hearit as one,
hear the beat of the drum,
hear the beat of your heart,
Listen to what they tell you.

Feel the rythm, hear the sound,
listen to the singers, stomp the ground.

Go with your heart and soul,
let yourself free, let yourself go.

By. Sin Valentine

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I have a new poll all

This is for every girl that has felt the pressure
to be perfect and fit in

 ~*Perfection*~
Skinny legs, bigger breasts
Is that all they want to see
tiny waists and thinner arms
the opposite of me.

The preassure to be perfect,
Is slowly closing in.
An utter suffocation,
That doesn't seem to end.

Society is telling me,
Beautiful is thin.
And if I choose to starve myself,
Perfections what I'll win.

Shoving something down my throat,
Will get me what I want.
Bring me closer to that goal,
Of a body I can flaunt.

Society is telling us,
Beauty is a prize.
Measured in the size of your breasts,
In weight and clothing size.

But let me tell you here and now,
No good will come from that.
It seems okay at first,
But soon becomes a trap.

A disease that clouds the mind,
And believes what is untrue.
Believes your never good enough,
No matter what the hell you do.

There is one beauty that I know,
It is the greatest prize of all.
It is learning to accept yourself,
Imperfections, flaws, and all.

The beauty that really matters,
Lies in our heart, our soul, our core.
Because when you love whats,
inside you'll love whats outside even more.

By Sin Valentine



tell me what you think??

HOO-AH


You stay up for 16 hours



I stays up for days on end.


_________________________



You take a warm shower to help you wake up.



I go days or weeks without running water.


__________________________



You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.



I get shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.


__________________________



You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.



I fight for your right to wear that shirt.


__________________________



You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.



I clutch the cross hanging on my chain next to my dog tags.


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You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.



I know I may not see some of my buddies again.


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You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.



I patrol the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.


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You complain about how hot it is.



I wears my heavy gear, not daring to take off my helmet to wipe my brow.


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You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.



I didn't get to eat today.


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Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.



I wear the same things for weeks, but I make sure my weapons are clean.


__________________________



You go to the mall and get your hair redone.



I didn't have time to brush my teeth today.


__________________________



You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.



I'm told I'll be held over an extra 2 months.


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You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.



I wait for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.


__________________________



You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.



I hold my letter close and smell my love's perfume.


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You roll your eyes as a baby cries.



I get a letter with pictures of my new child, and wonders if we'll ever meet.


__________________________



You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.



I see the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remember why I'm fighting.


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You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like me.



I hear the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.


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You see only what the media wants you to see.



I see the broken bodies lying around me.


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You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.



I do exactly what I'm told.


__________________________



You stay at home and watch TV.



I take whatever time I am given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.


__________________________



You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.



I try to sleep but get woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.


__________________________



You sit there and judge me, saying the world is probably a worse place because of men like us.



If only there were more men like us....


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If you support your troops, repost this with a "HOOAH!"



If you can read this, thank a teacher. If it's in English, thank a soldier. If you are one, thank you.

"If you lose yourself your courage soon will follow" I love this sentence in the song sound the bugle

*Are you a virgin? no
*Age of First Kiss? 14
*Age you first masturbated? 9 what can i say i was very advanced
*Age you first had been fingered/ had a hand-job? 13
*Age first had received oral sex? don't remember
*Age first given oral sex? 13
*Age lost virginity? 14
*Favorite sex position? Depends on my mood.
*Do you make booty calls? not really
*Had sex with a member of the same sex? yes
*Had oral sex? Yes
*Had sex with someone you met online? no
*Had cyber sex? Yes.
*Kissed a member of the same sex? Yes
*Number of members you kissed of the same sex is? 6
*Kissed in public? yes
*Used more than 3 positions in one session? Yes
*Devoted a whole day of sex? yes and i could not walk straight afterwards
*Had noise complaints from neighbours during a sex session? yes
*Fallen or lost balance during sex? Yes. In the shower. It was hilarious
*Brought partner to climax using only hands? Yes
*Brought partner to climax using only mouth? yes
*Had sex while totally dressed? no
*Had sex while standing up? Yep.
*Had sex in the kitchen? yes
*Had sex in your bedroom? Yes
*Had sex in the laundry room? yes and it was great
*Had sex in your bed? Yes
*Had sex in your parents bed? no
*Had sex on a table? yes
*Had sex in a bathroom? Yes. In the shower
*Had drunken sex? no
*Exotically licked feet or sucked toes? No
*Exotically licked someone's nipple? Yes
*Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically? Yes
*Used ice erotically? Yes
*Used hot melted wax erotically? yes
*Shaved your pubic hair? yes
*Used a sex toy? Yes
*Own a sex toy? yes
*Used an inanimate object? yes
*Obtained money or a favor for sex? no
*Paid or granted a favor for sex? no
*Given sex in sympathy? no
*Had sex with a virgin? no
*Ever cheated on someone? no
*Been with someone 10 years older/younger than you? yes
*Had sex with your best friend of the opposite sex? Yes
*Had sex with your best friend of the same sex? yes
*Had sex with just a friend? yes
*Had sex with anothers mate? no
*Had sex with a teacher? No
*Had sex with a relative? accidently
*Had sex with a pet? No
*Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? It was our second date after a blind date, does that count? No

hey everyone i have a new apartment and it rocks

kidney pains were back today

sometimes the world is not enough for those that take it for granted. I know that I see more than most but i am not the only one the holds my world in high regard. Most that I see are not like the rest, some are immortals, some are not, some are lycan, viper, cobra, wolf, vampire, and many more.

hey everyone so that you guys are not worried i just want to let you knwo that i was in the ER on thursday the 18th cuz my kidneys were all fucked up, but i am back home now and everything is okay

more to be added

songs that i can relate to

1) Walk a Little Straighter By Billy Currington
2) Butterfly Kisses By Bob Carlisle
3) Imortality By Celine Dion
4) Hallelujah By Bon Jovi
5) Dreaming of you By Selena
6)

Yay for me I am getting a new place to live

Sometimes i think that i have messed everything up and when i look back at things they are not the best

you shine down form heaven yet hell drags you under

I come from a dark and lonely place my heart hurts because it is being torn in two

it is sad to see the darkness closing in, it is like an utter suffocation that doesn't seem to end,

By dawns early light i will be gone but when night comes to call my name i will be back again

People never really know whta they have until it is gone. There are people that I will never know because of this, there are also people that i can't know as they will never take the chance to get to know me. I know what it is like to be hurt. I also know what it is like to hurt someone else. What is the world coming when all that we do is hurt one another? Answer me that if you can.