tweaked a t-shirt to look totally awesome

Tattoo is all healed

as i was walking to the library today someguy driving by yelled out his wind at me "where have you been all my life"

~*Why*~
Why am I alone but not lonely,
why do I have eyes but can't see?

There are so many questions of why,
that need to be answered.

These questions of why,
I cannot answer them on my own.

I need some one to guide me,
but I do not know who to turn to.

All I need is time,
for a moment to be me.

All I ever see is saddness,
and I don't know what to do.

Why can't people see me,
for the real me inside?

My mind is like a trapped animal,
fighting to get free.

I have kept it caged for so long,
and I want myself to be free.

But I ask myself what is it,
that I really want to be free of?

My mind tells me one things,
but my heart says another.

One body torn in two directions,
my soul not knowing which to go.

By: Sin

~*Somewhere...*~
Somewhere out in the darkness,
lightning strikes, brighter than ever.

It illuminates the sky,
like a billion stars shining all at once.

I look around and watch as it strikes,
right and left just inches away from me.

The rush of the electricity,
the heat of the light, it excites me.

It excites me like fire in my veins,
cool like ice yet burning to the touch.

The thunder echoes like a thousand drums,
as the lightning strikes all around.

Like a symphony, the rain pours down, the lightning strikes
and the thunder echoes in the background.

Brighter than ever, lightning strikes,
somewhere out in the darkness.

By: Sin

tattoo is all healed

*Are you a virgin? No
*Age of First Kiss? Real kiss? 13
*Age you first masturbated? 9 what can i say i was advanced
*Age you first had been fingered/ had a hand-job? 9
*Age first had recieved oral sex? 14
*Age first given oral sex? 13
*Age lost virginity? 14
*Favorite sex position? depends on my mood
*Do you make booty calls? no
*Have you responded to a booty call? no
*Had sex with a member of the opposite sex? Yes
*Had sex with a member of the same sex? yes
*Had oral sex? Yes
*Had anal sex? yes
*Had sex with someone you met online? No
*Had sex with someone you met on MySpace? No
*Kissed anyone you met on MySpace? no
*The last time you had sex was? couple weeks ago
*The last time you fooled around with someone? couple weeks ago
*Had cyber sex? Yes
*Kissed a member of the same sex? yes
*Number of memebers you kissed of the same sex is? 6
*Kissed in public? Yes
*Used more than 3 positions in one session? yes
*Devoted a whole day to sex? yes
*Had noise complaints from neighbors during a sex session? yes
*Received open praise for sexual technique? yes
*Fallen or lost balance during sex? yes
*Brought partner to climax using only hands? Yes
*Brought partner to climax using only mouth? Yep
*Had sex while totally dressed? no
*Had sex while standing up? yes
*Had sex in the kitchen? yes
*Had sex in your bedroom? yep
*Had sex in the laundry room? yes
*Had sex in your bed? yep
*Had sex in your parents bed? No
*Had sex on a table? yes
*Had sex in a bathroom? yes
*Had sex during a party? yes
*Had drunkin sex? no
*Exotically licked feet or sucked toes? No
*Exotically likced someone's nipple? yes
*Had sex during her/your "monthly visit"? no
*Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically?YES
*Used ice erotically? yes
*Used hot melted wax erotically? yes
*Shaved your pubic hair? Yes
*Used a sex toy? yes
*Own a sex toy? yes
*Used an inanimate object (bottle, candle, etc.)? yes
*Obtained money or a favor for sex? nope
*Paid or granted a favor for sex? no
*Given sex in sympathy? no
*Had sex with a virgin? no
*Ever cheated on someone? no
*Been with someone 10 years older/younger than you? yes
*Had sex with your best friend of the opposite sex? yes
*What is the most you've done with them? everything
*Had sex with just a friend? yes
*Had sex with anothers mate? yes
*Had sex with a teacher? no
*Had sex with a boss? No
*Had sex with a relative? accidentlly
*Had sex with a pet? no
*Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? yes
*Had sex with someone whose name you didn't know? no
*Had sex with someone you never spoke to/spoke different languages? yes
*Had more than 20 sexual partners? No
*Had more than 10 sexual partners? yes
*Had more than 5 sexual partners? yes
*Had more than 3 sexual partners? yea
*Had two separate sexual partners within 24 hours?YEP
*Made out with more than 20 different people? no
*Fooled around with more than 20 different people? yes
*Fooled around with more than 10 different people? yes
*Had group sex (more than 3)? yes
*Participated in a swap/swinging club? yes
*Had two regular partners at the same time? yes
*Had sex in a public place? yes
*Had sex outdoors in broad daylight? yes
*Had sex on the roof of a building?yes
*Had sex in a stationary car? yea
*Had sex in a taxi cab? no
*Had sex in a moving car? YES 
*Are you a member of the mile high club? yes
*Had sex outdoors at night? Yes
*Had two sexual partners at the same time unaware of each other? no
*Had sex in the host's bedroom while a day guest (party/social visit)?no
*Had sex in the host's bedrom while an overnight guest? no
*Had sex in a public room while an overnight guest? Yes
*Had sex at your office or other work area? no
*Met partner during work hours to have sex? YES
*Had sex in a public restroom? No
*Had sex on public transportation (bus, train, taxi, etc.)? No
*Had sex in a dark theatre? yes
*Had sex in the water (ocean, lake, pool, hot tub)?yep
*Had sex in an elevator? yes
*Had sex in a cemetery? yes
*Had sex in a store dressing room? no
*Used alcohol to lower your resistance to sexual advances? no
*Allowed yourself to be felt up by a stranger? yea
*Felt a stranger up? no
*Looked at a nude magazine? Yep
*Looked at an explicit magazine? Yep
*Watched a porno? Yep
*Look at porn online? Yep
*Seen a live stripper? yep
*Seen a live sex show? yes
*Watched someone having sex without their knowledge? no
*Showered with a partner? yes
*Bathed with someone? yes
*Flashed someone?yes
*Streaked with a group of six or more? yes
*Stripped for someone? yea
*Stripped for a group of 3 or more? yes
*Participated at a nude beach or nudist camp? yea
*Been the only nude person in a group of 3 or more? yes
*Played strip poker (or a similar game involving nudity)? yes
*Showered while someone watched? yes
*Masturbated? Yes
*Masturbated while someone watched? Yep
*Masturbated for a group of three or more people? yes
*Masturbated covertly in public? Yep
*Masturbated while on the phone? yep
*The last time you masturbated while on the phone?awhile ago
*Masturbated while watching someone on cam? yep
*The last time you masturbated while watching someone on cam? awhile ago
*Masturbated to someone's picture? Yes
*Had sex while you knew someone was watching? no
*Been walked in on while having sex? yea
*Walked in on someone else having sex? yep
*Had phone sex?yep
*Watched a porno film with a sexual partner? yea
*Been the photographer for a nude photo? no
*Been photographed nude? yes
*Been photographed having sex? No
*Been videotaped having sex? No
*Watched a regular sexual partner having sex with someone else? no
*Did this quiz make you horny? yes

more to be added

songs that i can relate to

1) Walk a Little Straighter By Billy Currington
2) Butterfly Kisses By Bob Carlisle
3) Imortality By Celine Dion
4) Hallelujah By Bon Jovi
5) Dreaming of you By Selena
6) A Hero Comes Home
7)Sound the Bugle now By Bryan Adams
8)

09/09/2010 So fucking itchy right now

hey everyone as of 09/05/2010 I have a brand new barb-wire tattoo on my right wrist

cuts are healing remarkably faster than usual

have ten cuts and have feeling that there will be more before the week is up

I slipped this weekend and fucked up and now i have cuts on my wrists

~*The Heart, The Drum Two Beats One Sound*~
Sometimes we all share one sound,
one strength, one heart beat.

A sound that courses through our veins like wildfire,
shaking our souls and our inner desire.

That is the beat of our hearts and souls,
it is called the beat of the drum.

Let the beat of the drum into your heart and hearit as one,
hear the beat of the drum,
hear the beat of your heart,
Listen to what they tell you.

Feel the rythm, hear the sound,
listen to the singers, stomp the ground.

Go with your heart and soul,
let yourself free, let yourself go.

By. Sin Valentine

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I have a new poll all

This is for every girl that has felt the pressure
to be perfect and fit in

 ~*Perfection*~
Skinny legs, bigger breasts
Is that all they want to see
tiny waists and thinner arms
the opposite of me.

The preassure to be perfect,
Is slowly closing in.
An utter suffocation,
That doesn't seem to end.

Society is telling me,
Beautiful is thin.
And if I choose to starve myself,
Perfections what I'll win.

Shoving something down my throat,
Will get me what I want.
Bring me closer to that goal,
Of a body I can flaunt.

Society is telling us,
Beauty is a prize.
Measured in the size of your breasts,
In weight and clothing size.

But let me tell you here and now,
No good will come from that.
It seems okay at first,
But soon becomes a trap.

A disease that clouds the mind,
And believes what is untrue.
Believes your never good enough,
No matter what the hell you do.

There is one beauty that I know,
It is the greatest prize of all.
It is learning to accept yourself,
Imperfections, flaws, and all.

The beauty that really matters,
Lies in our heart, our soul, our core.
Because when you love whats,
inside you'll love whats outside even more.

By Sin Valentine



tell me what you think??

HOO-AH


You stay up for 16 hours



I stays up for days on end.


_________________________



You take a warm shower to help you wake up.



I go days or weeks without running water.


__________________________



You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.



I get shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.


__________________________



You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.



I fight for your right to wear that shirt.


__________________________



You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.



I clutch the cross hanging on my chain next to my dog tags.


__________________________



You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.



I know I may not see some of my buddies again.


__________________________



You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.



I patrol the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.


_________________________



You complain about how hot it is.



I wears my heavy gear, not daring to take off my helmet to wipe my brow.


__________________________



You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.



I didn't get to eat today.


__________________________



Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.



I wear the same things for weeks, but I make sure my weapons are clean.


__________________________



You go to the mall and get your hair redone.



I didn't have time to brush my teeth today.


__________________________



You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.



I'm told I'll be held over an extra 2 months.


__________________________



You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.



I wait for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.


__________________________



You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.



I hold my letter close and smell my love's perfume.


__________________________



You roll your eyes as a baby cries.



I get a letter with pictures of my new child, and wonders if we'll ever meet.


__________________________



You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.



I see the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remember why I'm fighting.


__________________________



You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like me.



I hear the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.


__________________________



You see only what the media wants you to see.



I see the broken bodies lying around me.


__________________________



You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.



I do exactly what I'm told.


__________________________



You stay at home and watch TV.



I take whatever time I am given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.


__________________________



You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.



I try to sleep but get woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.


__________________________



You sit there and judge me, saying the world is probably a worse place because of men like us.



If only there were more men like us....


___________________________


If you support your troops, repost this with a "HOOAH!"



If you can read this, thank a teacher. If it's in English, thank a soldier. If you are one, thank you.

"If you lose yourself your courage soon will follow" I love this sentence in the song sound the bugle

*Are you a virgin? no
*Age of First Kiss? 14
*Age you first masturbated? 9 what can i say i was very advanced
*Age you first had been fingered/ had a hand-job? 13
*Age first had received oral sex? don't remember
*Age first given oral sex? 13
*Age lost virginity? 14
*Favorite sex position? Depends on my mood.
*Do you make booty calls? not really
*Had sex with a member of the same sex? yes
*Had oral sex? Yes
*Had sex with someone you met online? no
*Had cyber sex? Yes.
*Kissed a member of the same sex? Yes
*Number of members you kissed of the same sex is? 6
*Kissed in public? yes
*Used more than 3 positions in one session? Yes
*Devoted a whole day of sex? yes and i could not walk straight afterwards
*Had noise complaints from neighbours during a sex session? yes
*Fallen or lost balance during sex? Yes. In the shower. It was hilarious
*Brought partner to climax using only hands? Yes
*Brought partner to climax using only mouth? yes
*Had sex while totally dressed? no
*Had sex while standing up? Yep.
*Had sex in the kitchen? yes
*Had sex in your bedroom? Yes
*Had sex in the laundry room? yes and it was great
*Had sex in your bed? Yes
*Had sex in your parents bed? no
*Had sex on a table? yes
*Had sex in a bathroom? Yes. In the shower
*Had drunken sex? no
*Exotically licked feet or sucked toes? No
*Exotically licked someone's nipple? Yes
*Used whipped cream/soft chocolate erotically? Yes
*Used ice erotically? Yes
*Used hot melted wax erotically? yes
*Shaved your pubic hair? yes
*Used a sex toy? Yes
*Own a sex toy? yes
*Used an inanimate object? yes
*Obtained money or a favor for sex? no
*Paid or granted a favor for sex? no
*Given sex in sympathy? no
*Had sex with a virgin? no
*Ever cheated on someone? no
*Been with someone 10 years older/younger than you? yes
*Had sex with your best friend of the opposite sex? Yes
*Had sex with your best friend of the same sex? yes
*Had sex with just a friend? yes
*Had sex with anothers mate? no
*Had sex with a teacher? No
*Had sex with a relative? accidently
*Had sex with a pet? No
*Had sex with someone the same day that you met them? It was our second date after a blind date, does that count? No