sick of torment and lie filled promises never kept never honored.
love isnt easy no matter what the books or people say.
its absolute bloody fucking murder..but all we do is continue to fall in love over and over in hopes to find that one speacial person to fill the emptyness once and for all... its so ridiculous. and i sit here preaching to the fucking world like im not a victim myself. sighs. the thought of being alone terrifies me to no end, silence endless silence is murder worthy....
its really amazing how truly pathetic everyone including myself is....i hate this place but refuse to leave it...i dream of another life all the time. it never works.

My Master is now and until he tires of me Nocturne

i opened my heart to you. i slit my wrists to please you. I bleed for you weep fr you live for you die for you...
I press the needle deep, i push the plunger quick, i dont even cry out any more as the venom pumps through my blood
i do everything i can for you. i weep when you arent around, and even that is for you.
i yell and scream for you....i slit my throat bleeding out for you