[Lavin]'s diary
Take my love, Take my land, Take me where I cannot stand. I don't care, I'm still free. You can't take the sky from me.
http://www.you
This...
This touches a part of my heart that I'd forgotten completely about.
http://www.you
Oh, I do so love a gorgeous, well produced synth atmosphere.
This is deep thought music if ever there was such a thing.
Written about Saturday 2011-04-30
Written: (4955 days ago)
Adendem!
Last night. Words cannot describe.
Long story short, you know it was a good night when you hiccup, and taste coffee, cigarettes, and watermellon lube.
I'll leave it at that, and let your minds wander where they will. ;]
I don't even have words. I just saw a girl I haven't seen or heard from for a year in a half. Here I am, sipping on my coffee, and I see her walk past the window and sit down.
My heart fucking stopped.
Then raced so hard I couldn't even think straight.
I shit you not, I got dizzy.
I went outside, said 'hi' in a tentative way, and she looked around, saw me, and smiled. We went on a walk, talked, caught up...
My life just got so, SO much better.
I'm still shaking.
:D
(ps, consider me back. ♥)
There's a very real possibility that I might loose my job in a couple weeks.
The friend who is my biggest musical inspiration is moving to New York in a couple weeks.
My best friend, my only remaining good influence, is leaving for a two year long mission trip in a couple weeks.
Last but not least, I'll be seeing my friend Ashley off as she moves to Georgia in a couple weeks.
I'm going to be...so utterly alone.
When it rains, it fucking pours.
Yeah, anyway. Just thought I'd keep y'all updated, I haven't abandoned you, I promise. ♥
Taking an e-break. See you all...er, whenever I get back.
Stuff needs to get sorted out.
http://www.you
Collapse Light Into Earth.
Listen.
Love
I ordered a Toddy for the first time at the coffee shop Cornerstone the other day. By way of reference, that's their most caffeinated drink. Something to do with cold brewing, I think. I ordered a 16 oz with an extra shot. That would have been fine with me, given my high tolerance for caffeine, except the barista made a bunch extra. She handed me a 12 oz cup in addition, saying, "I don't see any sense in throwing this away, so you can have it, on the house.”
So I sat down, drank 28 oz of their strongest drink, which had been made even stronger under my direction.
When it all kicked in…
I COULD SEE SOUND WAVES.
It was a good night. Who needs crack when you've got Cornerstone Coffee?
http://vimeo.c
This is seriously one of the most beautiful performances I've heard in a long time. He plays a one note drone for the first minute and ten seconds or so, so please listen through that part.
It's just so...wistful and bittersweet. Ugh. I don't have words for how much I love it.
I think you are worth it. I really want to make this
work.
Somehow.
Written about Monday 2011-02-28
Written: (5016 days ago)
Well well.
Loves, I'm sorry my replies have been so touch and go lately.
I'm in the process of what one might call a 'digital move.'
See, a few days ago I caved in and blasted a ton of
money on a delightfully fast laptop, which I should be
expecting in the mail around this Friday or so. For the
first time since...well..
own computer, all to myself. No sharing, passing, logging
in and logging out for other people.
However, I have what many would qualify as an 'ass-ton'
of files on the shared computer, and this week will be
dedicated to organizing and preparing the files for transfer.
Hoorah! Tedious menial labor!
So, you shall see little of me for the time being, but rest assured,
I'll soon be back, and in greater numbers.
Ouuuuu Ouh Ouh Ouh!
So, I wrote this whole long, beautiful reply to a roleplay, and Fake goes and crashes on me, thus erasing all I worked on.
Yep. One of those weeks.
"Thank you so much for everything, Alex! You are without a doubt the greatest person I know!! I Love You (:"
This made my day...er...week...er...life, impossibly brighter.
http://www.you
I can't stop laughing.
I will eat chocolate cake when I wake up. I will spend all day in my pj's. I will drink and extra glass of red wine tonight. I will toast to a glorious year of being single. As lonely as it gets sometimes, it's rather nice.
Written about Friday 2011-01-14
Written: (5061 days ago)
<bitchwhinefuss>
I don't have anyone to share my life with.
I don't even have anything in my life worth sharing.
How did I become this pathetic?
</bitchwhinefus
He's climbing yo windows, he's snatchin' yo people up.
Written about Wednesday 2010-10-27
Written: (5140 days ago)
He has tired eyes, skinny shoulders, and a smile that doesn't quite convince her.
"You used to be such a good kid," she said. "What happened to you?"
I cried yesterday. Why I was b'awwing is completely irrelevant.
I haven't cried in over a year. It felt fucking great.
Just thought I'd tell someone. :3