[Lavin]'s diary
Remember that feeling you'd get as you'd fall asleep on the night before your birthday, wondering if you'd feel different in the morning?
You'd wake up feeling exactly the same, right?
I have to say, it actually feels...differ
Oh well.
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http://www.you
I'm throwing a rave, and I'm putting this in my DJ set. You're all invited. Bring lots of drugs. I mean friends. Yeah. Friends. >w>
http://www.you
http://www.you
Don't even tell me you didn't get up and start shaking yo thang after the drop.
Written about Wednesday 2011-06-08
Written: (4916 days ago)
Fucking hell.
Working a long day.
Cute girl randomly hands me her number on her receipt, says 'call me' with the cutest blushy giggle I've ever heard.
fuckyeah.jpg
Wait a day.
Call the number like a boss.
It's a rejection hotline.
Forever alone.
This shit seriously makes me want to go gay.
Written about Saturday 2011-06-04
Written: (4920 days ago)
And what was supposed to be a carefree, fun night was ruined when coke fiends showed up.
My friends have strange taste in friends.
I love coffee.
That is all.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
WAS GETTING READY FOR WORK
DRANK COFFEE
TOOK RITALIN
GOT SO JACKED UP
WORK CALLED ME OFF
FUCK FUCK FUCK
LETS GO FUCKING
DO
SOMETHING.SHIT MAN
LETS PARTY OR SOMETHING
And thus, the first link in a long chain of vices and addictions in my future is forged today.
It's the end of the world as we know it -- REM:
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Fact of the day: Jesus said backwards sounds like sausage.
Happy Rapture, all!
Two shots, straight espresso.
YYYYEEEEEOOOOOWWWWWW.
Take my love, Take my land, Take me where I cannot stand. I don't care, I'm still free. You can't take the sky from me.
http://www.you
This...
This touches a part of my heart that I'd forgotten completely about.
http://www.you
Oh, I do so love a gorgeous, well produced synth atmosphere.
This is deep thought music if ever there was such a thing.
Written about Saturday 2011-04-30
Written: (4955 days ago)
Adendem!
Last night. Words cannot describe.
Long story short, you know it was a good night when you hiccup, and taste coffee, cigarettes, and watermellon lube.
I'll leave it at that, and let your minds wander where they will. ;]
I don't even have words. I just saw a girl I haven't seen or heard from for a year in a half. Here I am, sipping on my coffee, and I see her walk past the window and sit down.
My heart fucking stopped.
Then raced so hard I couldn't even think straight.
I shit you not, I got dizzy.
I went outside, said 'hi' in a tentative way, and she looked around, saw me, and smiled. We went on a walk, talked, caught up...
My life just got so, SO much better.
I'm still shaking.
:D
(ps, consider me back. ♥)
There's a very real possibility that I might loose my job in a couple weeks.
The friend who is my biggest musical inspiration is moving to New York in a couple weeks.
My best friend, my only remaining good influence, is leaving for a two year long mission trip in a couple weeks.
Last but not least, I'll be seeing my friend Ashley off as she moves to Georgia in a couple weeks.
I'm going to be...so utterly alone.
When it rains, it fucking pours.
Yeah, anyway. Just thought I'd keep y'all updated, I haven't abandoned you, I promise. ♥
Taking an e-break. See you all...er, whenever I get back.
Stuff needs to get sorted out.
http://www.you
Collapse Light Into Earth.
Listen.
Love
I ordered a Toddy for the first time at the coffee shop Cornerstone the other day. By way of reference, that's their most caffeinated drink. Something to do with cold brewing, I think. I ordered a 16 oz with an extra shot. That would have been fine with me, given my high tolerance for caffeine, except the barista made a bunch extra. She handed me a 12 oz cup in addition, saying, "I don't see any sense in throwing this away, so you can have it, on the house.”
So I sat down, drank 28 oz of their strongest drink, which had been made even stronger under my direction.
When it all kicked in…
I COULD SEE SOUND WAVES.
It was a good night. Who needs crack when you've got Cornerstone Coffee?
http://vimeo.c
This is seriously one of the most beautiful performances I've heard in a long time. He plays a one note drone for the first minute and ten seconds or so, so please listen through that part.
It's just so...wistful and bittersweet. Ugh. I don't have words for how much I love it.
I think you are worth it. I really want to make this
work.
Somehow.