6ft, 175lbs, tattoos. Gentle demeanor. Sliver blue eyes, dirty blonde hair. I'm curious... they say 5hetes someone for everyone out there... where is my someone?



P.S. - I may be sweet and somewhat sensitive. I may be quiet and shy. But I can m as ke you laugh and cry, squeal and shake, I can make you feel loved or I can make you feel broken. I am who I am. Eventually someone may appreciate that, but my trust? My affection? My deep love? You'll need to earn it. And keep earning it. Dont try too hard, it just complicated things. Be yourself, I will too.



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My worst enemy is time. What do I do now with my life? Moving forward feels so hard. It's as if with every step I find myself back at the start. Try to tell me that its alright that I'm trapped in a cage within my mind. Senseless, lifeless, undignified. One more push I just might die. Let me out! Let me breath! I cant escape the animal that lives inside me. Give me something to believe! But at this point I'd believe anything.

I'm ho-lding on
To every word
Certain that this punishment
Is what I deserve
I'm ho-lding on
I'm giving in
Handing off the reigns
To the beast within

Wh-y do I-I continue to try?
Everything in my heart tells me if i keep this up one day ill be free.
Whe-n will I-I have ha-d eno-ugh?
When your soul turns black and your blood runs thin you'll give yourself to the beast within.

I am not afraid of anything ill carry on till the final bells ring. Lay down, sleep now. it'll all make sense if you let me out. I'll ruin your life but live it well. Now serve your time inside my Hell. Let go. I know. I can feel the pain within your soul. Insane. Enraged. But you'll be safe inside your cage. Let's settle score. Let me take the pressure off your shoulders once more. Isnt that what friends are for?

Wh-y do I-I continu-e to tr-y?
Everything in my heart tells me if i keep this up one day ill be free.
Whe-n will I-I have ha-d eno-ugh?
When your soul turns black and your blood runs thin you'll give yourself to the beast within

Let me o-ut!
Let me o----ut!
I am not afraid of anything ill carry on till the final bells ring. Lay down, sleep now. it'll all make sense if you let me out
Let me o-ut!
Let me o----ut
I'll ruin your life but live it well. Now serve your time inside my Hell.
Lay down
Sleep now
Give in
LET ME OUT!!
Cry out
The beast
Within
LET ME OUT!!!
Lay down
Sleep now
In Hell
LET ME OUT!!
Set loose
The beast
Within
LET ME O---------UT!!!

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I've come to find that I have little in common with the people in this world. When I walk the streets and watch what goes on out there... I see what people find important in their lives. Some good, some not so.

Excluding the bad ones, I see people find enjoyment in money, in friends, in fun, in having nice things. But when I look deeper I see what they find important. Family, love, support, friendship, stability.

When I look at myself and ask, "what is important to me," i find I share in some of those. Now, I know everything differs from person to person, probably better than anyone. But what is truly important to me?

It's the moment.
  Its belonging.
  Its trust.
 Companionship.
  Not feeling alone.
  Its honor.
  Integrity.
Selflessness.
  It's looking for a way to change someone else's world for the better.
  Its letting the ones I love know that I love them and that i will always be by their side.
  Its finding the strength each day to carry on.
  It's being the better man.
  Its having the strength and the courage to accept when I've made a mistake and to own it.
  It's being strong enough to pick the ones who have fallen out of the dirt and set them back on their feet in the right direction.
 It's never giving up.
  Its hope.
  Its having someone to help me when I lose myself.
It's the music.
  Its loving with everything I have to the bitter end.
  It's being able to look at myself every day and saying, " you're gonna make it".
  Its believing in something I cant see.
  It's never giving up.
  Its being there when no one else is.
  Its me.
  Its you.
  Its her.
  Its them.
  It's the whole world.
  There isnt a single thing that isnt important to me. There are just some things that have to come first. And its hard... it's so hard... but I make time every day for every one of these things. And when I cant make the time... it kills me inside because I can never bring those missed moments back. I hurt, every day. And I fight every day. Just to stay alive. Just to be there. Because I love you. All of you. Every living soul in this world. You're important to me. Never forget that.

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Within my veins I feel a surge
Gazing deep into your eyes
Let the animals emerge
A primal thirst begins to rise
I touch your skin
There's a static charge
We kiss
A bolt of lightening in my heart
Our heartbeats becoming thunderous
Anticipation grows
The world melts away
The taste of you more potent
As my tongue explores your legs
The sweetest taste of ecstacy
Carrie's on until you beg
My hunger never sated
Not yet even warmed
I pull your body closer
Charging up the storm
The heat upon my breath
Adding to the flame
Gripping ever tighter
As i hear you say my name

I'm crawling up your body now
You're clawing at my flesh
Caressing every inch of you
And I'm not done yet
Waiting till the moment comes
When you can take no more
Then plunge my body deep in you
What we've been waiting for
The sounds you make drive me insane
And feed the beast within
This machine built just for you
Will go on and on again
A slow and steady pace
To start the moment right
The longer I go the more I know
I want to go all night
I can only take so much
Of your soft and gentle moans
Before I need to hear you scream
And this is where it shows
When the doors are locked and lights are out
I'm all in for you
Anything you want from me
Nothing I wont do
The hour's growing late
And I'm still holding back
Pressure builds inside of me
As it all fades to black
I'm seeing red throughout the room
My body aches and groans
The we change our position
And the night keeps going on
If you think it wont get better
Baby I've got news for you
I've not begun to have my fun
Nor shown what I can do.