To all past and possible pets in the future. I am no longer in the mistress position. Though I remain here as your ever faithful friend...I am happy to proclaim that I hsve found someone that is my equal in life. My soul Mate who, at the drop of a hat, defends my honor by any and all means neccissary. This man is the most stunning creature i have ever met both intelectually and physically. i love him with all that i am and i give up my position as your Mistress willingly because with him i am happy.

but as i have seen many of my former pets have left me...which shows me they did not really care in the first place they just wanted me for my way with words. As a former pet and Mistress i am happy to say i have found a being that is truly God in my eyes and to him I am his Goddess! he loves me for my intuition, my heart, and my body. i have learned to comprimise on some things so that i may gain others. and i feel as though i have lost nothing because of it.

now to those who stuck around, Lothario, Pain!, adam, and few others and the ones i have not yet seen who have remained ever faithful i am sorry for giving you up as my pets but you i hope will be happy for me because i have found a future husband.

as you all know i am no longer here every day like i used to be...i am now living on my own in my very own apartment where i have great neighbors and my family loves me...and i have a loving man in my life who doesnt use me for my money like The Lone Shadow(David Fasick) and his whore of a mother did. he actually buys me things that i need and or want...but i DO NOT USE HIM!! most of the time i tell him i dont need what he buys me...thats called love.

in closing i thank those who have reamained loyal to me and curse those who left with out a word.

I am truly happy!

actually i am moving today which is friday! so i will be with out the internet for a while..please all of you for give me i dont wish to be gone..i might be able to get online when i start college so be patient and wait for me my friends and loved ones


[ni] *gives you big kisses* i will miss you terribly!

NEWS ALL OF YOU READ THIS!!!
I am moving this weekend to my new place and will be with out internet for a while till i can afford it.

hopefully i will have a phone for all of you to call me if you like but right now you all need to give me your numbers so i can call you that is if you are in ohio if you are not i will get a phone card to call you!

My email addy is dark_lil_one1987@yahoo.com

i will check there and here when i can....please forgive me... i love you all and will miss you terribly when im away.

[ni] i miss you already and i am sorry if i upset you but i call all my close friends guys or girls Love because that is how i am i picked it up from watching british films and i also call my friends guys or girls: Sweetie, hunni, baby, duckie, darlin', smexy, sexy, hey you, hottie, and hun...if you dont like that its not my fault its how i was raised.

*cries loudly*
omfg today iwent out looking for a job yet again cause i just got fired monday! i have such terrible luck! well anyways i went to this burger joint called PennStation... and i filled out the application for the one on brown street here in dayton...well i forgot to say/write that i could work weekends cause i usually do say i can work weekends...but i just forgot...stupid i know but i handed the manager my appl. and he read it then started yelling at me in the middle of the place that was packed with workers and customers.... he yelled this "IF YOU CANT WORK WEEKENDS THEN YOU AINT GONNA WORK HERE!!!" i got really upset, started crying and ran out the door! i was so very distraught i got have way down the street when i noticed i was being followed i turned ready to defend myself with thoughts of S.I.N.G(solerplexis, instep, nose, groin, watch the sandra bullock movie...cant remeber name...mom a lil help?) running through my head when i saw this sweet guy was there i relaxed outwardly but kept my gaurd up...he looked out of breath and spoke "Hey hun are you okie? i saw my boss scream at you! please dont take it to heart hes an asshole to everyone!"
i was still crying as i spoke "He was so very mean to me!" he smiled and started talking to me sweetly and we walked down the block and talked and i stopped crying...then we turned a corner and i was like..."Where are we going?"
he chuckled and says "im catching my bus what about you?"
i spoke smiling "Im going to go to these other places here and apply for a job...hopefully i dont get yelled at again!"
he smirked and told me good luck...i walked off and after losing sight of him i relized i didnt know his name...damn he was really nice...and i think he was gay...he had this lil swish to his hips and he spoke kinda girly like which i thought was cute!

anyways if you guys are looking for work here in dayton ...especially on Brown St dont go to PennStation! or if you do dont apply and tell the manager Rick hes an asshole cause my godmother whom i live with called The place and asked to talk to the Rick guy and then while i was sweeping she was talknig and i heard the monster yell at her i could hear him all the way across teh room and my GM always has the phone volume down low! he was irate and she was perfectly nice but then he kept yelling at her and she got upset and raised her voice and he got louder! i was gawking at this point and layla my GM got really upset! i was like oh shit and cowering in the corner(figuritively ofcourse for real in my head i was like cheering her on!)

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Written about Tuesday 2007-03-27
Written:2007-03-27 14:15:11
this past diary entry was a copy of part of a convo between me and a man i really care about

please tell me you care?
please tell me you loved me?
tell me, tell me,
please tell me im pretty?
tell me i please you like no other?
tell me tell me tell me

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE *GLOMP*
LOL
yayayayayayayayayayayayayaayayayayayayayayaayy
you are on!!!
Hi
Hi
lol
guess what?
yup yup yup
what?
i got fired
yesterday
ugh
why?
its the bosses husbands fault
why?
he made me leave before i could clean up
did you explain that?
and he made huge messes in the back while i was trying to clean the front
i tried and yes but the boss is still pissed
so im fired
not good
but am going job hunting today
good
you need one
yep
i know!!
kinda important
Pfft i know i want to work seriously i do
its very importnant
yup that is what pays the bills and puts food on the table
yaawwwwwnnnnn
I just got up
*clings*
hehe
is there a certain amount of time you have on here and then it goes away?
yes
an hour
you need more pictures of you
ive been on about ten mins or less
there is only one and the one i'm looking at
i know \
I don't have many but at least more than one LOL
you have AIM?
lol well myspace wont let me download them
no but i have aol email
LOL
well if you have AOL you can have AIM
that is Aol Instant Message
i know that pfft!!
lol okay then why don't you have it?
but this comp doesnt let me down load them
*dies*
? grrrr
you need to hit a friends house that has MSN or AIM or something, Then you can see me ( webcam )
oooh...yumy
yummy
lol
*sits on your lap*
ummmm that would be a bit awkward right now being i'm not wearing anything..........
I got my ear pierced yesterday ....double holes
O.O your naked YAY!! *rapes you*
and thats hot
LOL EEEEKKK
LOL
how big are you?
i think you said 6
well first time I ever poked a hole in my body
7
oh thats right mr big
but whos counting
lol
7 centimeters
lol
*strokes your cock*
dont spazz
atleast im not sucking it
*strokes you more*
8=======D  <----- actual size please do not adjust your screen
lol
liar
o.0
thats it! *starts sucking you*
* EEEEEEEEKKKKKKK*L
lol
hehe
you know you like it...
LOL I would however I don't think she would understand
...
*tears*
* pulls you close and holds you tightly *
*feels your soft breasts pressing against him*
im sorry
*kisses you gently*
i am a slut
No you are not
*kisses you back*
you enjoy having fun
yea i am
and that is totally fine
except your married
I don't believe it
But...I love you
my marriage is not a good one and hasn't been for a long time
look up
hmmm maybe Lust me .... 0.o
love is pretty powerful
*tears again* thats cruel
no look in your heart
I am in love with you...that first time i saw you my heart stopped
love is a very strong word and tool to be used correctly, never give your heart away too quickly... hang on to it
hmmmm a love at first sight thing?
never had that happen before
i...i...i..dont want to be alone...and yes and the way you talk to me and treat me i feel like a real person with you
*puts his arms around you and holds you in a gentle rocking motion*
you are a real person
I'm sure I'm not talking to a machine here
i know your married and i shouldnt tell you this but i know how i feel...inside...
ha!
thanks
8-)
my heart it hurts when i dont get to talk to you and then it races when i see you log on...then i always smile
remember you're never alone, as long as you have friends on here and on the other sites they will always be happy to see you. *hugs you more*
* sad look on his face.... * awwww I'm sorry I don't want your heart to hurt
then why do they always leave me?
dont look sad i would die to ake you smile
*kisses you*
make*
everyone has their own way of doing things, this is what I have noticed in people...... If they really are your friend they will hang with you, I've noticed you have said "thanks to all of you that have stayed with me" on your site or something like that. however if they do leave and say something stupid or cruel then they were never your friend and were just users.... chuck them to the curb
a true friend will stay with you and if they do have to go for one reason or another ..... you'll know they are still your friend in your heart you will know
i did used to have more pets tehn i do now but they left and hurt me
i agree with you
see what you just said..... pets ....
not friends
pets
pets die
pets run away
pets are just that .......... a pet
friends stay
friends don't run away
friends are just that ............ a friend
someone you can talk to and hold
someone to help you and push you along when you need it
* pushing you along *
* hopes he is helping *
yea...i only have a few people like that
you are Robb
then you are not alone
you are awesome never forget that
you know what i mean when i say alone?
*big smooches*
yup
*smiles into the kiss* what do i mean?
the sexual part of a relationship is not always the most improtant but it does help
important
i know that
however it is fun and exciting
i really do and i mean i want some to be in love with me
and wild and maybe some handcuffs ... and maybe some ...
just because the think im a good person
lol
definately
you are a good person
*hands cuffs yo*
I already knew that when I saw you
thankyou.
this is why i feel this way about you
* being a beast he breaks the handcuffs . grabs you up and places you on the soft blanket where he cuddles up to you and gently strokes your hair and body*
*she gasps and smiles* sexy! *she holds you tightly, looking deep into your eyes*
*softly kisses your moist red lips he gets in as close as he can and rocks you back and forth while singing softly *
*i smile to hide my pain and bury my face in your shoulder* thankyou...
what are you singing?
*no pain, that isn't what this is about it's about someone who cares, it's about someone who is in need of another to touch them not just outside but inside* I'm singing Josh Groban " your still you"
I have a clip of me singing ... is there anyway you can get it if I send it?
would it work if you put it up on myspace?
nope
damn
im fine really
*kisses you*
thankyou
*smiles* *kisses you back*

Okie my day was great i went to work and right after our boss left we got really busy upwards of 90 people...holy shit and we couldnt fine the gelatto recipes to make more and luckilly we mad plenty of paninni's(its a fucking type of sandwhich i cant spell the name!!) well a guy i met a couple months ago named mike just walked into my work and i didnt really notice him as i was filling his order...but then he went to pay and i just thought *look at him!* and i did and it was like instant recognition. i smiled and said "Hey! I know you!"
he kinda looked shocked and said "From where?"
i said happily "From the SCA event a couple months ago!"
and he suddenly remembered! he spoke happily "oh yea i know you!"
well we kept talking in between orders from other customers and it was great to finally have a friend there...he just hung out for like 20 or 30 mins and talked with me and he ate alot of Gelato! lol oh if any of you like italian food or have never had it before eat a friggin' turkey pesto panninni(ISDK how to spell it!!) its a sandwich with fresh mozzarella cheese, turkey(duh!), and sun dried tomatoes, and pesto...oh i know a funny joke about pesto...it goes like this:
"hey do you no what pesto is?"
"Yeah its great on salads and sandwich's very refreshing"
"No its a magician with a hair lip!" (then you say pesto like you had a hairlip...i heard that from a puppet. this guy named jeff dunham is a puppeteer and he makes them talk(i now the actual word but i aint typing it out!) hes friggin' comical! lol i love the one called Peanut.

anyways well our day was very busy at work and we sold a shit load of gelato and panninni's (fuck off!!)
then we got home and my friends son's grandma comes down and goes home(she was babysitting cause the mother and i work together and i live here and the father was at work too.) but after she drove of that dad got home and he sat down did some stuff with his computer i called my mom and talked for a bit about my day the kid kept trying to talk to me while i was on the phone with my mom! lol i kept shushing him...but he kept rambling lol kinda like im doing now!
but anyways...i got off the phone his mom was in the basement(my room) on the comp quickly chacking mail and the dad and i were un in the ground floor of the house talking to the kid...well the kid suddenly started talking about his great day with grandma(shes is a cunt from the heart..let me explain!) well the kid said his grandma gave him M&M's and they pretended like they were pills...my eyes got wide and he kept talking and said they were in a pill bottle too...i panicked on the inside but kept cool as and iceberg on the outside and said "What kinda bottle an actual pill bottle or what?"
he went silent then said "We were just pretending.." he also said my real name...but there are few who know that name.
anyways yet again...i asked him "What kinda bottle was it like my medicine bottles?"
He looked really scared then said "oh im so very sorry but i really shouldnt have said that..."
at this point my mind was frantic! but still i stayed calm on the outside...i went to the vitamin/medicine cabinet and picked out two vitamin bottles and an actual prescription bottle. i then went back over to the kid and asked him what the bottle his grandma kept the candy in looked like. he pointed to the prescription bottle and said it looked like that but shorter...his dad and i both talked to him and explained it was bad to eat candy like that and his dad and i were both calm in our face and voice tone but i was seriously ready to kill! then his mom came up stairs and i told her what was said...she well her eyes got big and she talked to the kid and me and his dad but she said calm to and this kinda shit has happened before! where trudy has told the kid not to say anything like she dressed him up like cinderella and gave him a mini screw driver when he was three and they took him to a wedding and he got really sick an had a high fever...i know this isnt smart on the moms part but the grandma is just fucking dense!
and the kid is only six!! going to be seven in july! this boy is the sweetest thing andi love him as if her were my own...i dont want him getting hurt or turned bad...

I LOVE THESE PEOPLE!!
Drace
Beastman (you know i want you! lol)


AND IM IN LOVE WITH THESE. (these are not in any sort of order)
i just am *gives your the sexiest kisses ever cause i know you love them!*
Rune Takeshi *cuddles you*
Vampiric Reign *smoochies my first master*
My Juliet, I shall always love thee.
Angelic Death
Optimus Prime *smiles softly*

These are my loving pets the ones who have never left me even though i have been gone alot (i love you all)
NarcolepticLycan (talk to me damn it! i loves you an i miss you!)
Fuck Buddy (kiss)
Demoniclover(my pretty baby!)
[Stolen Penis] (good boy!)
[I'm done here] my loving pet.
[He who tries not to exist.] my new sexy marine!
[flying dutchman] i adore him... be kind to him or i will be notified!
[shadowprince] *blows you a kiss* this is my lovely pet he is new to being owned and i am teaching him!
So back the fuck off you whores and leave my men alone!!!
[xxxsubxxx] time will tell how good he is.

[READ THIS
"difference between FAKE ASS friends and REAL friends]


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Never ask for food.


[REAL FRIENDS:] are the reason you have no food.


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Call your parents Mr/Mrs


[REAL FRIENDS:] Call your parents DAD/MOM


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] never seen you cry.


[REAL FRIENDS:] cry with you


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.


[REAL FRIENDS:] keep your shit so long they forget its yours.


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] know a few things about you.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Would knock on your front door.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Are for awhile.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Are for life.


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.


[REAL FRIENDS:] Will knock them the fuck out


[FAKE ASS FRIENDS:] Would ignore this

[REAL FRIENDS: Will repost it]

WOOOOOOTTTT!!!!

i finally have a job omfg i got hired at a gelatto shop here in dayton!! all thanks to layla!! *blows a kiss to her*

oh and more news I am getting my own place!! i have mixed emotions about that like i'm kinda happy to be living on my own but kinda freaking out cause i know im going to starve to death!! lol J/K i know how to cook a little...shit! im going to starve!

hello all i am gonig for the night

omfg my thing said i was married...lets clear things up


I AM NOT MARRIED!!!

hello my lovely darlings...it would seem i have another problem...i have to move out of my most gracious friends house because her landlords an asshole omega! but fear not..im simply moving across the street in to a huge three bedroom half double..at least i think that what it is...anyways i need to find room mates so i dont have to pay all the rent and get left with barely any money for food..

but the bad part is...i wont have very much (if any) internet access for a while unless my dear layla lets me come over for the internet usage...

hey i have to go for the night but will be back for 2 hours sat

im just done with him!! *sobs*

i was perfectly fine today and having a great time till i got on myspace to see my once again ex being shitty to me and killing my mood!

david daniel fasick you and i are over!

and juliet(you know who you are) i love you im in love with you i dont want to lose you please dont move in with david or talk to hime any more he is not right in the head!

i just cant take the bullshit anymore...he pushed me and pushed me in the middle of me having a panic attack talking about getting with a 12 year old a married woman and getting back with two of his ex gfs!

omfg i got asked out by a very lovely cowboy on here..sadly i had to turn him down...im sorry sugah!!

you all think im a freak i know it!! i dont care you can all kiss my ass...well not all of you but my dear cadmus you are so adorable and tiddle and Damian and Demonic lover!! you are all such loving pets i love you all so much!!

and to my masters to the only two that have stayed with me and tried to protect me [Epic Failure.. Reign] and [shamelessbuddha] i loves you both so very much

and my juliet (you know who you are) i love you with all that i am

this past week(the short version)

okie where to start...well umm idr remember what happened at the start of the week other than i got like 6 new story's going..bwahahahahahaa!!! yay!

i continued working on my story's thinking i was going to be getting a cell phone on the 1st...i told some of my friends that i was...but sadly i have been severly fucked over (we are skipping wenesday) thursday the first i got my cheeck and my mom brought me the money and i had to call me bank to see just how much the assholes were charging me! i found out to my dismay that i owed $241.16....O_O!!! is pretty much how i looked so i called my mom and told her the wonderful news(sarcasm)
and yea she was pissed of!! i was to you can be sure of that!!!
well my mom had only brought 120dollars with her for the bank cause originally that was all we were supposed to be paying...O_o well fortunately we and the bank took care of the problem!! so i dont havebad credit or anything and i dont owe any money any more!! YAY!!!

but sadly cause i had to pay rent and the 120 dollars at the bank and had to pay 25dollars to my grandma and mother it left me with only 100dollars to my name!! this sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Master you shall have to wait for the pics till tomorrow!! sorry but my time ran out i wont be able to getback on till tomorrow!! this fucking sucks please forgive me!! *drops to my knees*

Beautiful Midnight...thats me on Elftown!!! yay i was accepted yay!!