I feel so lost right now, and I really don't know what to do. I feel like there is this little voice trying to tell me something but I can't hear it, and that confuses me. On top of that I feel like no one cares anymore. I just want someone I can kiss and love and tell all my secrets to, but in my lifetime I don't think it can be possible.
any suggestions?
alright you guys i know its a bit late for this diary but december 4th of last yr my mom past away. you know how i told you that the doctors said she wouldnt live thru the night??? well she did thank god but the doctor ventilated her when he said he wasnt going to and that gave her a massive heart attack and her heart actually stopped beating. but the good thing is they got it back in rythm. the bad thing is they ventilated her AGAIN and her heart exploded.chris
♥ Jessie
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haha it took me 4ever to do all
this and it is with all the -alt keys and the numbers
its goes up too 254 i think
omfg i am so confused right now...i have to choose between my best friend the guy i really like.if i choose her i cant have him.if i choose him she will hate me 4ever...idk what to do anymore really...
hey you guys i just got back fromt he mountains and it was sooooo much fun.I have a ton of pics to post but i will get to that later.I went on Grandfather Mountain and went on the bridge. It was a bit chilly up there lol.I went out on a limb and went alllll the way out to the peak.Lets just say if a strong gust of wind would have come i would have been history.And there was winds,just not strong enough to knock me off the mountain.Lol and we went to Linville Caverns. I think that was the neatest part of the whole trip. We was 2500 feet below ground inside the mountain. It was so neat.We saw a bat and the biggest stalactite in the WHOLE cavern.And we saw some things you will have to use your imagination on.The fish down there are blind,cause there is no light down there for them to see with.It took a while for them to get blind though.Then the tour guide turned all the lights off and you couldnt even see your hand in front of your face.Even when it was touching your nose.And can you believe that two teenage boys got lost in the cavern in 1915 and they had to find there way out of the cavern with no lights.Not even a lantern.And the crazy part is they found there way out using water.Yep that's right they used the sound of water to get themselves out of the mountain.It took them 48 hours and they were almost dead from hypothermia but they lived.It was soo neat to go on a vacation up in the mountains and to see the things we saw you'll have to go up there yourself.Well i got to go now but i'll ttyl.Bye ღ Jessie
i believed all the lies they told to me.and it got me in deeper than i wanted to.i soi wanted to love him but they kept telling me he was there's i almost gave in to there lies...but then a light shone through and it was him cming to my rescue.never again will i belive the lies they tell me
i finally told him how i feel.yet it still seems something is missing.i wish he would tell me how he feels about me.you know just some small idea of how much he cares.anything is better than this.
what is it with guys.they think that a woman is just going to punch them in the face if they say one thing wrong.all women arent like that.but you won't know until you ask.just get some balls and ask them ok.i mean my god we dont expect to know all the answers.and we dont expect you to know all the answers.but we do expect you to have to balls to talk to us like we're a girl not some whore you meet off the street.we are not your whore and we are not your slut so all the guys who message us girls saying will you fuck me or do you want to see my 12 inch dick.go get a fucking life and treat a girl with some respect.
i feel so alone.i want to tell him how i feel,but idk how and i dont know he would react.why cant life be easy.i might as well die then life will be really easy....sounds like a good idea to me.