my master [drakkar]



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Sometimes its exciting to be detached from your whole life and your whole self. It's exhilerating. Then, the exhileration passes and your life is this...chasm..this frightening abyss that you're constantly falling into.

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[More and more, it feels like I'm doing a really bad impersonation of myself.]

Everyone smiles with that invisible gun to their head.

[And maybe you don't go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don't do.]


[My Hero]

Your birth is a mistake you'll spend your whole life trying to correct.

< What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction. >

[my dream car]

I thought we were a real love relationship. I did. I was very invested in love, but it was just this long long sex thing that could end at any moment because after all, it's just about getting off. Almost all the time, you tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love.

When nobody will look at you, you can stare a hole in them. Picking out all the little details you'd never stare long enough to get if she'd ever just return your gaze, this, this is your revenge.

[The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.]